over the past
two days,
my site has been
taken offline multiple
times
by the fine people
at 1and1.com.
(with no explanation)
finally learned that
this site was sucking
30% of the bandwidth
from one server.
they told me to get
my own,
or go away.
or as they put it,
Your account activity has demonstrated that your site
deserves its own server to better suit its performance needs.
so [...]
5 weeks ago
today.
things were perfect.
healthy, happy family.
11 minutes after 3:00pm
on that same day,
my world
fell apart.
since then,
lots of sadness.
lots of happiness.
but mostly sadness.
liz’s
death
has really
fucked me up.
people keep asking,
“how are you coping?”
multiple answers:
“i just am.”
“by talking to people.”
“the kindness of strangers”
“by writing.”
“music.”
“madeline.”
“i’m not.”
i think the last answer is most
accurate, but
i’ve also used music
to get me through.
i’ve [...]
left the house
this morning,
smelling the smoke,
and seeing the ash
on my car.
all coming from the fires in
ben’s backyard.
10:00am appointment
with the folks at the
social security administration.
who
reaffirmed that the federal government
puts very little value
on human life.
not that any amount
would take the
pain away,
but seriously.
did you know,
that
widows/widowers receive
a one-time payout of $255?
seems absurd.
especially for people
not as fortunate [...]
hey everyone. having a few web server issues right now. please bear with us as we get this straightened out.
if you get a 500 server error, just try refreshing. thanks for your patience.
