so…
we’re about to head
to the mpls
for memorial service
#2
(i think this will be the last one).
madeline will be
staying behind.
she’s a little
too little
to fly.
but,
she won’t be
alone in her
bassinet with one of
those hamster feeders.
nope.
i just put
madeline
in the car
so she can begin
her first
weekend-long slumber party
with the parks family.
as i walked
up the front stairs
i realized that
it’s the first time
since
liz
passed away
that i’ve been in the house
alone.
(and it fucking sucks).
(now something to make everyone smile)…
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You two look great together, and of course the video is darling! {{{hugs}}}
That video is precious! Have a safe trip.
tears in my eyes as I watch little Madeline stretch and coo…..with the wonderful jazzy strains in the background. What a beautiful, precious, amazing girl you have on your hands! I will watch for Liz’s article in this Sunday’s StarTrib. Safe travels!
Beautiful baby, she looks just like her mom.
I’m sorry you both lost someone so special.
Unlurking here…I found your blog through cribsheet, which I’ve been reading since I became a parent (early like you too, 8 weeks) 19 months ago. I teared up through this video…I remember how precious those newborn sounds are…and how they squirm and stretch all around…what a wonder it must be to discover the world! I live in “the MN” and am thinking about coming to the memorial this weekend…but am wondering if it would be weird to have a total stranger bawling there…I suppose I wouldn’t be the only one. Your blog’s in my reader and I read all your posts…I have always thought about commenting, but then, what to say?! Maybe something cliche like parenthood brings about a plethera of emotions, but good and bad, it’s always worth it. I just put my son to sleep after he whined for two hours straight after I returned home from work, but when he hummed “Twinkle twinkle” along with me when I sang it to him at bedtime, then gave me a smacker on the lips and said “Ny ny mama” I forgot all about the whining. She’s beautiful…good luck with everything and take care of yourself too!
she’s so beautiful I can hardly stand it!! I miss those baby days ( my youngest is 19 mts) – try as best you can to cherish every moment. thinking of you all every day…….
Just a note to say:
You have a beautiful baby.
You are doing a great job.
Keep playing the rock and roll music for Madeline.
Liz is watching over you.
Peace and love from Woodbury MN
You’re obviously loving your daughter enough to try and fill the whole left when your wife was taken away. I find your blog magnetic, both as a new mother and as someone in your daughter’s position. I lost my father when I was an infant. Please know that you are doing everything you can, and when she feels the loss (and she will, there’s nothing you can do about that) that it is just something she will have to work through with your help.
You are so in my thoughts and prayers. M is a little girl lucky beyond measure. What an amazing family (and/of friends) you have.
Sweetest baby video clip EVER. Awwww. She’s so sweet and beautiful, and seems to be desperately trying to escape from her burrito-esque swaddle. *grin* She’s an amazing little girl with such delicate but long fingers. My thoughts will be with you this weekend while you attend the service in The MN.
Oh my Lord, she is a beauty! I just wanted to say it looks like Madeline is trying to tell us a story. I keep watching to hear what she is saying. I know from experience, have 2 boys of my own, that babies naturally move their bodies, mouths and hands like that, but I knew with my own kids that these infants are telling us something important with each movement they make. She has quite a story to tell. I am so sorry for your loss, Matt. You are an incredibly BRAVE MAN to reach out while you embark on this journey of Fatherhood. Madeline is very lucky to have been born to you and Liz. God rest her soul. May God bless you and the baby each and every moment.
She’s so adorable!! You are doing such a wonderful job, and she is getting so big!
Your right it sucks to lose someone you love. I did read the article in the Strib and came to your site. I watched Madeline’s video and am sending my support to you both. This first year will go by so fast, so very fast. My twins turned 7 on 4/24. Hang in there man, reach out when you need to. Cry when you have to.