sitting on the plane
deb on my left,
anya on my right.
can’t help but cry
most of the flight.
after all of our travels,
i really expect
to turn to my
left or right
and see
liz
sitting
where deb and anya are.
said to deb,
“i never imagined taking this flight”
she just smiled.
then i started to miss
madeline.
so we watched some videos
that i’d loaded
on to my computer.
we three
sat transfixed
as the videos of
madeline
burping,
swinging her arms
making faces,
etc.
played and played.
as i’ve said before,
when i get sad about
liz,
i look at madeline.
and the sadness
momentarily
subsides.
with madeline
hanging with her friends
in sierra madre,
i don’t have much to
take away that sadness.
but,
the videos help.
a lot.
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Sometimes it is just best to mourn. You’ll have a few days of “shower time…”
Dear Matt –
I am sorry that I haven’t written before, when Tammy told me I was dumb founded. Then the pictures of how you told sara that you were going to be a mom and dad flashed through my mind. But I have been reading everyday, your writing is like Davids (captivating). Madeline is so beautiful and I cant wait to watch her grow, and learn from you. How such a terrible thing could happen yet you still thrive, grow, and move on knowing that you are so lucky for what you do and did have. A lesson to us all. Have a safe flight home.
Sincerely,
Danielle