today.
woke up early
and made my way
to the burbank
for some
quick surgery.
madeline stayed at
home with
awesome auntie deb
and grandma candee.
grandpa tom g.
came with me.
and waited in
the lobby,
staring at the artwork
in by 7:30,
out by 10:30.
got an iv.
which made me
think of
liz.
while she was on
bed rest
(five straight weeks, three in the hospital).
she was on
a near constant
iv drip.
she was really scared
of getting stuck
with the needle.
when it came
time to start the iv,
i tried to make
her feel better
by teasing her
endlessly about her
fears.
sometimes it worked.
sometimes it didn’t.
she always told
me that the iv was
uncomfortable.
i kind of thought
it was psychosomatic.
but today.
after 3 minutes
with an iv
in my hand,
uncomfortable as fuck,
i came to admire
liz
that much more.
**back to reality**
i was to get
knocked out for
a short time.
irrational as it was,
i was nervous
after what happened to
liz.
i don’t want madeline
to have to fend
for herself just yet.
was talking to
the anesthesiologist
about levitation and then
i was out.
woke up freezing my
ass off,
feeling my leg
getting sewn up.
i didn’t like
that too much.
left the office
(grandpa tom g. driving the get-away vehicle)
and headed
for the pharmacy.
made it home soon after
and tried to deal
with the pain
as long as
possible.
it became unbearable
so i gave in.
and
when the clock
hit 3:11pm
(and for a little while before and after that)
i was
in a vicodin haze,
which meant i
slept through
that dreadful moment,
that one minute
when everything changed
7 weeks ago.
multiple phone calls
tried to wake
me up.
(all sorts of well-wishers calling. still, i really need to turn off the damn ringer sometimes).
i finally gave in
to the ringing machine
and talked to
someone
(don’t remember who).
shook the last
of the vicodin
out of my head
as auntie anya arrived
got two packages
today.
an awesome picture from
lisa, jake, kaya & ashton c.
(can’t wait to get it framed and on the wall of the nursery).
and a big package
from bob and laurie h. and family.
daughter katie
decided that her madeline doll
should go to mine.
lots of other/practical stuff including,
onesies,
(my favorite reads, “photos with baby – 50¢).
formula checks,
sunglasses,
and a whole lot more.
the excitement was interrupted
by something terrible.
madeline left us
a surprise that can
only be described as
a cow-pie.
good thing
she’s moved up
to the next diaper size.
(she is so going to hate me when she’s in her teens).
thankfully i can’t
walk all that well…
grandma candee and
awesome auntie deb
have to take
care of this one.
got invited to join
the mn
moms google group.
so i did.
only dude
in the group.
which is fucking awesome.
off to rest
until the next
diaper change/feeding/burping cycle,
admiring
liz
for the strength
she had while
on bed rest
for 5 total weeks.
i’ve been sitting
on my ass
for a little over 14 hours
and i’m already
losing my mind.
had a hard time
getting into
bed tonight.
emotionally
(as always)
and physically
(can’t bend my fucking leg).
she
was supposed
to be here
to help me through this.
64 Comments
Goodmorning Matt and Madeline…I hope that Wed. brings a few more smiles your way. The two of you have been in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care of your leg and take advantage of your help and get some much needed rest!
Thinking of you in MN
Hope your knee is feeling better today, Matt. And here’s hoping for no cow pies today, either.
It’s wednesday morning here in Philly, I read your blog every morning while making the kids luches for school.
Hoping today is a little better, you made it through another couple tough milestones. Hope your leg is healing well, and of course your heart. Have Madeline give you a big hug from me too.
i almost made it through the post with no tears, then got to that freaking amazing picture from the c.’s…did someone draw that or they found it? then the picture of maddy next to the madeline doll brought them on even harder.
i am glad the surgery went ok and that the day was bearable. again, i know you didn’t ask for this, but your strength and ability to make it through this leaves me in constant amazement. i can’t get you all out of my head and i don’t know if i want to right now…
How fortuitous that you’d have painkillers to get you thru your Tuesday afternoon.
Sorry you had to be poked and sliced. That is no fun. (Surgery drove me to my first tattoo — I figured, well, now I have a scar defacing my previously pristine skin, I shall further deface it with a design of my choice.)
May I just say… *awesome* aluminum foil hat! Did they let you keep that?! Cuz the robot would *rock* that chapeau.
Anyhoo, thanks for the terrific update and beautiful documentation. Please thank your family and friends for being there, so your blogees didn’t hafta come over and take care of you cuz you know we would!
I’m glad surgery went ok for you. I don’t know what your beliefs are…but I’m pretty sure Liz was with you that whole time…Hope your leg feels better soon!
Hey,
You suddenly have a goldmine on your hands with the onesie that reads “pictures with baby 50 cents”. That’s awesome.
Hope the leg heals well, and sometimes, in the right moment, Vicodin can be a beautiful thing!!!
Kat
Matt,
I’ve been reading your site for a while and every time I read I cry. I think you write beautifully and Liz was very lucky to have you love her as much as you do. Of course, you were very lucky to have her. I have two kids and I know how much work even one can be! I wanted to tell you that I think you are doing an awesome job. I know it’s difficult, but you will get through it!
Maria
Morning Matt & Madeline –
Just sending some Wednesday morning sunshine from NYC your way — hope you are doing well with the bum leg and hope you got to get some well deserved sleep.
I know there aren’t words (yup cried through your post again today, I think my colleagues on my trading desk think I am on drugs) but I am so so sorry that Liz wasn’t there to help you yesterday. This really f-ing sucks.
Matt – So glad to hear your surgery went well. I laughed out loud when I read about the cowpie present Madeline gave you. I wanted to thank you for sharing your life with all of us (most of us total strangers). You have an amazing gift with your writing. It’s through your grief that you are showing all of us how to live. I hope today is a little better for you and hopefully no more cowpie’s to deal with.
Sharon
Matt, your are so Lucky to have such great inlaws and sister inlaw. Will never take the place of Liz but they sure are there for you. Take care that leg and sweet Maddy.
Love Auntie E
glad you chose NOT to slip past the veil to be with your beautiful wife- just yet. glad you made it thru your surgery well- but it sux you woke up at the end!
as always, your little one has brightened my day and made my uterus ache-while your situation has- in it’s way- helped me find the brightness in my own life- and everyone else’s- while it also makes my heart ache.
I am loving the art you are surrounding yourself and Madeline wiht- the music and the visual art.. i wish more babies could be stimulated wiht culture.
oh yeah-
I dunno what your belief system is Matt- and I honor your views-
but still I have to think Liz is there helping you in anyway she can.
Even if it is with the memory of her strength- and love.
i love that onesie with “photo with baby 50 cents”.. I will have to get that one on her in a few weeks.. Can’t wait….
~g
Hi Matt,
I hope you are in less pain today. Good that you have some help for those nasty diapers when you are recovering. In any case, Miss Madeline is getting more adorable by the day! (Is that even possible?).
Hope you are feeling better today! The picture of Madeleine with Madeleine is precious! Now you need to keep taking pictures of them together and you will see how much she is growing. I have pictures like that of my son with Babar.
You were the blog of the week in my college communications class last night. Everyone in my class is sending love and prayers your way. We all agreed that you and Madeleine are amazing!
Hope Wednesday is a better day. My babies (in womb) thought that it would be best if I laid in a heap of tears/anger on the floor yesterday. It was either that, or move to Mexico.
Mexico almost won.
I love the picture. It is very bittersweet, but life is.
I hope today you’re still able to rest as needed and do some things for yourself while you have people around. I just need to say it again but you have such wonderful family and friends! You know that.
I wanted to send the print framed to you but I was afraid it would shatter or break during shipping.
Thinking of you and that adorable little one. You’re an amazing father and person.
Lisa C
Just popping in to wish you a happy day. preferably cow pie free.
The poop stories (theirs, not mine!) I could tell you after having 3 kids would make you run screaming. 
We have one that will go down in family history as the most traumatic poop event ever. Six years later, we are STILL telling that story, much to the dismay to my 6 year old (who was the newborn pooper) and the 11 year old (who was on the unfortunate receiving end of the incident).
I hope your leg is not too painful today.
Amy
Glad the surgery went well Matt. I was put under for little bit when I had my wisdom teeth taken out not long ago, and I think they used the smallest needle as they realized what a chicken I was.
Madeline is looking gorgeous, and she is getting bigger and bigger. Soon she will be crawling, and talking. You wait and see.
Must set the record straight: You can post a million detailed accounts of her varied and wondrous excretions, but Madeline is *never* going to hate you. (For sure, you’ll be a source of embarrassment to her for a 3-5 year period down the road, but that comes with the job.)
Hope you mend well today!
hang in there Matt – geez, like you haven’t been through enough already!
I had to explain to my 6 year old today a bit about your story as we were looking at the pictures and I still cry telling it. You are courageous to share it. Thank you.
Matt,
I have been reading your blog everyday since discovering it on thenest.com! I think I got my husband hooked as well as a few co-workers. Hope you dont mind! There is nothing I could say that someone already hasn’t said so I just wanted to let you know that Madeline is beautiful just like Liz! And she is very lucky to have such a strong dad like you, even if you dont show it all the time. Its okay to have bad days, keep your head up and remember that you have a beautiful daughter that needs you and loves you. I know it can be hard at times and no one really knows what your going through but you, but, remember that you have all of us strangers who read everyday for support. Keep doing what you do, and your family is in our prayers.
much love from texas…
Jacki
Matt,
The reason Liz could stand the bed rest is because you’ll do anything for your baby. I’m sure you’ve come to see (and feel) that. You can do this. We’re all here for you.
Christine
Matt, I’ve been reading you for a couple weeks now. I’m so sorry for the loss of Liz. She was absolutely stunning, gorgeous. As a fellow 4′ 11″ woman I can imagine the spunk she had. Madeline is a beautiful baby, no doubt she got her breathtaking looks from Mama (ok, you’re not too shabby yourself so maybe a little bit from you too). I have you on my RSS feeder so I will continue to follow you and leave you comments as long as you’re willing to share them with us. I had not yet commented because I wasn’t sure what to say. I just hope that knowing another stranger is out there in the world thinking about you everyday and wishing the best for you and Madeline helps a little bit. Even if it’s just for a second.
Hi, Matt!
So happy that your surgery went as well as possible. Not happy about the pain and other stuff that comes with today’s medical treatments.
I agree that Liz was supposed to be there for you through all this and we all sorrow that she is not. Keep strong, man, we’ll be here to help you claw through this. Indeed we need to be strong support for you, since Madeline needs you for the long walk through her future. When Jeff was small, maybe 5 or so, he told me I had to be there for him for a long time. I asked him how long and he said until he is forty. Since I was forty when he was born, that means I need to get to 80. So I need to last about 20 more years to meet that goal. I’m sure Maddie wants you around until she’s 60 or 70, so do what you can to stay healthy and to continue to be the loving caring father you are.
Our hearts ache for you, Madeline, and for all of us who miss Liz. We pray for your strength and support along the way. Please know that we are here and doing our best to be of support to you from “the mn.”
Please greet Tom & Candee and Anya for us.
Love,
Rich & Penny
God bless you always
What a cute photo of Madeline & Madeline (the doll). I think we need to see Madeline (the doll) and The Robot connect at some point, too;)
Take care of yourself — hope the leg is less gimpy soon:) Hugs from The MN!
Matt and Madeline
Good Morning from beautiful Stillwater MN, glad to hear that you are feeling better Matt and you will get used to the “treasures” in the diapers, wait until potty training starts. I was on bed rest for a few weeks when I had my last child 4 months ago and two of those weeks were in the hospital whichI agree with you sucked big time, it was the most scardest I have ever been in my life and it made me rethink my mortality and changed a lot of my thinking when it comes to life, I tend not to take life to seriously anymore and just let the kids get dirty and let the dishes sit for awhile and just enjoy life for all that has to offer, after I had my son I had some major complications and almost passed away, that thought in my mind even now brings a shiver down my back and couldn’t imagine but seeing your blog and your story I know that my husband would be fine and that life would go on, you are a true inspiration to me. I hope that you feel better and you are doing a wonderful job with Madeline and God Bless You.
Love and Kisses from Aliya in MN
Hi Matt!
I’ve been reading your blog for a week or so now – and haven’t commented, but the Story People print got me! My little cousins lost their dad a few years ago, far too early and I always look at Story People, i hadn’t seen that one – going to order it today for them.
I’m sorry i got to know you and Liz and Madeline, because as you’ve said earlier, all these strangers wouldn’t have if not for what happened – but I hope that maybe I would have anyway, even though I live across the country, because you just seem wonderful.
-Suze
Tuesdays suck.
Someone gave me this awhile ago and it can apply to so many different things but thought it was good. I know I have doubted my own strength on more than one occasion. There is no words to heal the loss you feel but I hope you can regain a sense of strength and with time know you will smile again. Hugs and love to you and Mad:)
After a while you learn the subtle differences
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
and company doesn’t always mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn
with every goodbye you learn . . .
@Amy: Spill it, Girlfriend! We all want to hear the traumatic poop story!
Hope your leg is feeling better. Your in my thoughts. I love the pictures of Maddy. She’s so adorable. There’s so much light inside of her. It makes me want to reach through the computer and kiss her on her fuzzy head.
Have a decent Wed. I hope you heal quickly.
Hugs to you and Maddy. XOXO
Matt and Madeline
What a beautiful sight your daughter is, she is truely lovely and growing so fast too. Glad that you made it through your procedure without any complications and enjoy the pain meds while you can
I understand the whole bedrest thing, I was in the hospital for two weeks before I had my son in December, very scary and boring and uncomfortable but it taught me about my own mortality and that each day I go to bed without any regrest not knowing what the next day brings, it has made me more aware of life and how fragile it is, after I had my son I had a scare with some complications and there was a 24 hour period where they didn’t know if I was going to live or die, I know now that after reading your blog and your strength that if something would have happened my husband would have been ok and that his life would have gone on, you are a true inspirations to many people as I am sure you can tell my all the entries to your blog. I understand now though that life is short and that we have to take a breathe each day and thank God that we are still here but also remember what has been taken away from us as well. Keep up the good work and the strenght in everyday living.
Love and Kisses from Aliya in MN
Sorry doubled posted, didn’t know if I pressed the button the first time
Sorry you are in pain from the operation. Everyone thought I was crazy, but I also tried to hold out as long as possible before taken pain meds. I agree … IV’s are a bitch to deal with. Liz was a better woman then me. I had mine in for 4 days and I went mad. Like, about to pull the fucking thing out of my arm mad. Maybe they will invent an more comfortable way to give you an IV. Get lots of rest, and give Madeline lots of hugs from all of us strangers! I’m always thinking of you two!
Alisha
PS – Every time I open your blog up, and my daughters (almost two year old) see a picture of Madeline, they get all excited. Thought you might like to hear that Madeline has 2 new friends from NB, Canada!
The love between you and Liz and Madeline just shines through. It’s a beautiful thing. I hope all of us reading this have felt that, will feel that, or better yet, are feeling it now in our own lives.
I’m so sorry she’s not here with you.
I don’t remember how I found your blog, but I just recently started reading. I’m sure there’s nothing particularly meaningful or helpful I can say that you haven’t heard before, but I wanted to let you know how truly sorry I am for what has happened, how beautifully you paint the picture of what Liz was like and your love for her, and how lucky Madeline is to have you. Having been through a different kind of loss recently, I know that for me at least, “I’m sorry” is the best that anyone can say.
I am in utter shock that someone told you to give Madeline up for adoption, but I won’t dwell on that. The way you write conveys so much emotion and I wanted to thank you for sharing your pain and your life with us. Madeline is such a gorgeous baby too.
Love that picture for the nursery! It’s perfect. Hope the pain isn’t too bad today (the physical I mean… but I hope the rest is marginally improved as well).
Hugs from the OC.
You are totally rocking that hat and look like a little hershey’s kiss. I’m glad that your surgery went well and that you have great support while you’re healing. Get well soon!
Hey Matt!!
Hope your wheel is healing fast and your spirits are up a bit today!
I saw a video on MSNBC today with a robot conducting an orchestra and thought of you and your robot- ha! Tell the little red dude to dream big
Have a wonderful day!
Just another…admirer (?) lurker (?) whatever you wish to call us. I comend you for being so strong (despite what you may or may not think), taking care of your gorgeous daughter so well, and letting the world in on the “story”.
Know that there are a lot of people out there that think of and pray for you and little Madeline daily (if not hourly!!).
Sending some hugs and positive thoughts your way from another Erin in OC.
Sharon sums it up perfectly… “It’s through your grief that you are showing all of us how to live.”
As another stranger just following your story, I admire you, your strength and the love you have for your beautiful wife and daughter. May Princess Madeline be a constant reminder of the love you shared with Liz and may her spirit live on through the both of you.
Thoughts & prayers to you and Madeline from Alabama.
Matt, I think of you and Madeline every single day. I discovered your blog about a month ago and I have completely fallen in love with your story (as well as your writing style). I admire you far more than any words can justify, and I want to say so many things I know I’d never be able to arrange in a way that would make sense.
Every time I check in with you, I feel like such an ass for having such trivial complaints in life… sure, some of those things are so aggravating at the time, but seriously, I am so embarrassed for getting my panties in a wad over the things I write about in my own blog. You have taught me to be so damn appreciative of almost everything I used to dismiss or blow off- and Matt, I thank you for that so much. I needed a serious adjustment, but I endlessly hate this is the way I learned to get one.
I think the world of your devotion to Madeline- you are so amazing with her in everything you guys do together. Liz would be so proud of you.
I hope your recovery goes well – and is as painless as possible!
Much love- Jess
I’m so bummed. I totally bought the “Photo with Baby – 50 cents” onesie for Maddy and wanted to send it to you with Candee and Tom but didn’t get it there on time. Since it’s so great, I’ll give it to Candee to keep at her house for Maddy so that you don’t have to bring so much with you when you come to visit in June.
Love you all!
Renee & Rob
I’m a little jealous, I didn’t even know there WAS a MN mom google group…
enjoy the cowpie, and get ready for my favorite, when the baby turns into the Pay-doh play factory. You know, this factory…
http://powerliberal.blogspot.com/2008/02/deceiving.html
Cow pies are bad, but just wait until the day you walk into her room and it smells seriously suspicious, you look around and little Miss Madeline has used the cowpie as a new piece of artwork for whatever wall space she could reach!
Take care, have a better day today! Blessings from Ohio!
Hi Matt!
I’ve been following your blog for a couple of weeks. I am truly amazed at your strength. I appreciate you letting us strangers intrude into your world.
Hope you get to feeling better soon! Love from Kansas!
I’ve been following your blog after someone posted the link on thenest.com. You’re an amazing Daddy w/ unsurmountable strength. Your daughter looks like Liz. What a lucky baby. I’m sorry you’re in pain today. Enjoy the Vicodin and the rest. I’ll keep checking back to see yours and Madeline’s progress. Best wishes, hugs, and prayers.
Tracy in Austin, TX
Hope your back on both legs 100% soon. Atomic poops reallys suck, but at least you know the plumbing is working. My husband was in our whirlpool with our son before he was potty trained and he soon realized that there was a “floater” in with them that didnt resemble one of the many tubbie toys. I have never to this day seen my husband move as fast as he did that day!!! That was good humor (he didnt think the same but oh well).
This is kind of off subject, but I was going to ask if you like the Mario racing game that you just bought for Madeline with the Wii Wheel? My little boy wants it but I dont know if it would be too hard for him. Any info on it would be great–just a plug for Star Wars Legos–it ROCKS & he loves it so if your in the market for a game in the future–it’s very entertaining & true to the movies.
Well enough of my self serving inquiries–I your an awesome Dad & one that most little girls would be envious to have!!
I was told about your site this morning by a coworker (I think she must of seen it on a wedding site) and took the entire day at work reading it. Everyone is right in saying that words cannot describe how a person feels after reading your posts. You have an insurmountable amount of strength and courage that is to be admired. Keep up the drive and williness to be the best you can be for Madeline, and you will get through this time. She will love reading the blogs you write of your love for her and her mommy.
A little levity – someone MUST have shown you this article, but just in case you haven’t seen it . . . . http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080514/ap_en_mu/robot_conductor1st_ld_writethru
Hi Matt,
Glad the surgery went well(ish) and that you are home with Maddy. I think you’re right about needing to use the “off” button for that ringer of yours; I’m sure Pavlov let his subjects rest on occasion
I’ve run out of adjectives for Madeline. Perfect, darling, beautiful, exquisite, marvelous, stupendous, etc. Your photos capture her so well – I still can’t get over how intense her stare is! All that intelligence she inherited from you two is behind those blue eyes – doesn’t it look like she’s soaking everything in and trying to figure it out?
You’ve made it through one more Tuesday. I hope you are feeling better as you, the Magical Child, and the Awesomely Awesome Family conquer another Wednesday together.
xxxxxxx,
j.
I thought of you last night as we watched the news. The Detroit Symphony Orchestra gave a performance led by a robot yesterday.
Matt~
Madeline is a lucky little girl to have such an amazing man for her father. Did you notice in the picture of you and her today, the one where she is visibly upset, that she is giving you the birdie? That made me smile amidst the tears. I feel how strong your love for Liz was and it’s apparent more with each post that you make.
Take care my friend. Hugs from Nor Cal.
Hey Matt, been reading your blog since it was first was first published in the strib. The tiltle of the article caught my eye: “Without Liz, but Not Alone”. I read it and really cried. You see (and I know this can’t even begin to compare) but my wife (who ironically is named Liz also) and I have been separated for the last nine months. We are kind of at a standstill. I think the reason I was so affected by your story (besides it being a HORRIBLE thing to happen to anyone) is that I feel that MY wife has died (in a figurative sense). Any thoughts, plans or dreams for the future seem pretty much gone. Thank god I have a beautiful, happy almost four year-old son. If it wasn’t for him….many times I felt like I couldn’t go on. HE is my reason for doing the most I can do every day (I’m slowly learning through a good therapist, that I need to do things for MYSELF also).
I guess all I want to say is…I’m know you will get through this (and I know how unbearable the pain can get, at least in my situation), so remember all of the people out here that think about you and check in on you. You daughter is beautiful! And it’s good to know you have such a great support system. So hang in there!
p.s. I’m a Replcements fan also! Saw them with Soul Asylum opening for them in the Entry in ’85! Still have the ticket stub!
Matt, just wanted to add one more thing. You might think it’s bullshit, but give it a chance. I started reading a book that has REALLY help me through my difficult time. It’s changed my life. It’s called “The Power of Now” by Echart Tolle, and a second one “A New Earth: Finding Your Life’s Purpose”. It might be a little early for you to relate to the material, but basically it’s about living in the Present Moment….try to be as attentive to everything that is going on around you as much as possible right now! ESPECIALLY your daughter. She IS Liz!
Add me to the thousands of people who read your blog, weep with you, marvel over you and fawn over your daughter. Your blog puts my life into perspective, and while I know that’s probably the last thing you care about, I want to thank you. You’re awesome, you’re a great parent. I’ve been trying my hand in at the parenting thing for a few months now and it can be tough. Your blog inspires me. I wish you and your daughter the best. Truly.
I’m another one of those stalker/lurkers that has been reading your blog since I saw your story in the Star Tribune. Just wanted to write to let you know that there’s another person here wishing you and Madeline the very best. She is absolutely beautiful. I thought of you tonight as I was at the Twins’ game (they lost. booo!) remembering that you wrote about coming back when the new stadium is done. Does it feel weird to know that there are so many people thinking of you and crying with you on a daily basis? I feel a little weird being one of those people, but that’s not gonna stop me from following your journey. I’m addicted. You’re doing a great job raising that lovely girl of yours. Hope you have a stellar Wednesday!
You the dad, Matt! Madeline’s the best.
Hug and kiss Maddie an extra time for us.
lots of amazing comments to wade through, this isn’t one. don’t let those chimes get lost in the pile of amazing baby stuff that you’re getting. At 6 months, my daughter and my ears both love them.
To someone who is a cocoon for Mad. Yes Jack Johnson lyrics…but pretty and gentle song. You have no idea what am amazing relationship and bond you will have with her Matt. You are doing so good. You guys will get stronger together everyday….Mad is a daily motivator, however challenging.
Cocoon
Well based on your smile
I’m betting all of this
Might be over soon
But your bound to win
Cause if I’m betting against you
I think I’d rather lose
But this is all that I have
So please
Take what’s left of this heart and use
Please use only what you really need
You know I only have so little
So please
Mend your broken heart and leave
I know it’s not your style
I can tell by the way that you move
It’s real, real soon
But I’m on your side
And I don’t want to be your regret
I’d rather be your cocoon
But this is all that you have
So please
Let me take what’s left of your heart and I will use
I swear I’ll use only what I need
I know you only have so little
So please
Let me mend my broken heart and
You said this was all you had
And it’s all I need
But blah blah blah
Because it fell apart and
I guess it’s all you knew
And all I have
But now we have
Only confused hearts and
I guess all we have
Is really all we need
So please
Let’s take these broken hearts and use
Let’s use only what we really need
You know we only have so little
So please
Take these broken hearts and leave
Jack Johnson makes me smile. : ) He’s good for little girl ears! I bet Madeline would love him!