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By: Michelle (in the az)

Michelle (in the az) — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 05:36:40 +0000

Knowing the experiences you have ahead of you with Madeline make me cry tears of joy for you! The smiles she gives you now will be compounded by her little feet running toward you and throwing herself at you sooner than you think! She’s a gem!!

By: K

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 00:14:52 +0000

I know. I felt sad too the first day I didn’t cry. But you know I am crying now just writing that.

By: Krista & Amya Weot

Krista & Amya Weot — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 00:25:29 +0000

Matt-First your an amazing human being, I had my daughter last year and couldnt imagine doing things any better then you…Neither can my husband! You a great daddy, and have left footprints on my heart forever, and will continue to tell everyone about your story. I look forward to reading more about you and your girls. Keep up the good work. You have an amazing fan/friend base! In time the pain will ease, NEVER go away but ease….You and your family are LOVED and will remain in all our HEARTS! Thanks for being YOU!

By: Kat

Kat — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 12:56:32 +0000

Matt,
Just wanted to assure you, along with the tons of others on here, that you ARE bringing joy to you baby girl daily and you will continue to do so! I lost twin sons several years ago and at the time really did not think that the sun would rise the next morning because it was just so so SO dark where I was! I HATED seeing people with babies, it would just about kill me. I so very well know that pang in the heart! The words are very contrite, but believe me that they are true… in time, the pang will not come when you see families… you will heal. You will never forget, but you will heal, in time. God bless both of you. You’ll remain in my prayers!

By: Jill

Jill — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 03:56:36 +0000

There are no magic numbers that make up a family.
You are two,
and that is a family.
You can swing her, 1-2-3 by holding both of her hands in yours.

I wish I could put Liz back here for you.

I will think of you every time my son wants the “whee”, which is the 1-2-3 swing.
And even though my husband will be on the other side, the next time just my son and I are out together, I will swing him all by myself, in honor of Madeline and her dad.

By: Jaimee

Jaimee — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 23:28:43 +0000

Hey Matt,

Please don’t beat yourself up about not crying for the first day…..Liz (and all of us strangers) knows you love and miss her tremendously and doesn’t need your tears to know or prove it. It’s good for you too. There will continue to be days of tears and days of no tears….all part of the shitty and amazing healing process. Sounds like you have great friends and family so that’s a blessing. Madeline is cute as always…I wish I could sleep in a bobby without a care in the world sometimes (she seems to love it)!!! You’re an awesome dad. Enjoy your next tomorrows….crying or not crying….they’re all a part of the journey. Best wishes.

Jaimee

By: Julie Cieslak

Julie Cieslak — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 22:07:40 +0000

I have been following your blog for a few weeks, but first time I am commenting. As part of my job, I help families who are going through a loss… My heart went out to you as you said that this was the first day that you did not cry and how sad that made you feel. I have had so many share with me that they have had the exact experience. I appreciate your transparency. You are touching many. Thanks for sharing your beautiful girls with us.

By: Zak

Zak — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 17:14:13 +0000

the picture of you in the babyhawk breaks my heart.

im so glad you and madeline have each other.

By: Sara L from MPLS

Sara L from MPLS — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 15:46:22 +0000

Hey Matt,
The first day with no tears is a milestone. Please, please, please, don’t feel bad when you don’t feel bad! You have the very best of Liz with you everyday in beautiful Madeline. I admire your strength losing a partner and gaining a child so quickly, AND keeping it together through that process. It can’t be easy, Matt, that’s impossible. But please make sure you let yourself feel good, without feeling guilty. You and Madeline both deserve that happiness.

By: Jeanine from the CO

Jeanine from the CO — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 15:24:26 +0000

Despite the absence of tears – I do not need to see your tears to feel them!! I hope you do not feel like you were doing her an injustice by not crying “out loud” as she is with you and can “feel” you! Remember she is your soul mate and completely “gets you”!!!Even though you may not have shed a tear, you are still crying. I can feel that through your every post!!And it sounds like your day was actually harder than others have been!! If it makes you feel any better (even the tiniest,minute amount) I held on tight to my 3.5 mo old son, listened to Wilco “On and On and On” and Cat Power “the greatest” and could not stop the tears thinking of you, Liz and Madeline!(I really like your music taste, any more suggestions you could share my way would be greatly appreciated as I am in need of new tunes) This blog is such an incredible tribute Liz’s life! This is such a beautiful gift to give to Madeline and Liz’s family!!Her legacy lives on for your family and for all the stranger/friends you have here, we all get to learn and know Liz!! You, Liz, Madeline, your family and your friends have all left a huge impact on our lives and speaking for myself have really touched and changed my life, and definately for the better!!:)

BTW~ YEAH!!! I am so glad you get to try out the Babyhawk carrier I was mentioning the other day. They are the BEST!!!