2.5 hours of sleep.
finished writing my
first post
for chrissi coppa’s
over at glamour magazine.
i think i’ll be writing
something monthly.
hung out with grandpa tom g., grandma candee and awesome auntie deb
for the early part of
the morning.
we watched as madeline
officially transformed
from sleeping blob
to smiling, reactive baby.
damn it.
she stops every time
i grab the camera.
lunch time came fast
so we decided to
run to the mpls to
have lunch with grandma broccoli
and visit with some of her coworkers.
lots of women ready
to hold madeline.
(thought a fight may break out).
after some time in
the office, grandma broccoli,
madeline and i walked
a few blocks to a lunch spot.
a beautiful day,
but i wanted to sit
inside to get some
photos of the awesome decor.
during lunch a got
a few phone calls/e-mails
with news that made me
wonder about our future.
felt sick to my stomach.
had to stop eating
and get the hell out
of there.
after lunch we walked back
to the office
so i could
read a little more
official info about the news
shared earlier.
still not feeling
any better so
i left, deciding
that aj needed to be broken
from his work jail.
picked him up
and we headed to
the electric fetus
to take advantage of the
anniversary sale.
found a bunch of stuff we needed
then we got interviewed
by a woman from mpr
who was doing a story
about the 40th anniversary
of the store’s opening.
we talked to her
for awhile.
she was awesome.
and i shared a little
too much info. with her.
(she must think i’m insane).
we left with our
purchases
and headed to the house
of aj and sonja.
madeline hung out in
a swing
as we waited for nate, stacey and johnny utah
to arrive so
we could go out to dinner.
everyone but johnny utah
arrived and we took
a walk
to a local restaurant,
where i had a cheeseburger
meal for the
third day in a row
(i swear i am going to put that weight back on).
maddy tried to drink
from sonja’s mug of water.
(seriously, that was water in there).
aj got recruited to play some
video bowling with
a few of the locals
and i took a phone call
from johnny utah,
asking for the address.
before i could ask
any of the folks at
the table,
a waitress arrived,
with what appeared to be
the address on the front of
her shirt.
i pointed at her chest,
phone still to my ear,
and said,
“is that the address of this place?”
she looked down and said,
“um. yeah.”
and walked away.
quickly.
holy shit was that awkward.
(sorry, lady. i really needed the address).
we finished dinner and
went for some ice cream,
running into johnny utah
on the street.
sonja did my job,
carrying maddy in the sling.
as we headed back to their house
for some intense
racing action.
madeline quietly watched us.
we went back to
liz’s
parent’s house,
where we chatted with
awesome auntie deb and friends
while they ate a giant piece of cheese.
had a nice
late-night phone call
and went to bed too
late again.
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HELLA EFFING YEAH! I am the first poster.
Matt- now I *need* your advice. I am a Canon rebel owner. I want to know how you lug around your Nikon with all the baby gear? I have the 18-200 lens and the shit is soooo heavy. What lens do you carry with you and in what kind of case?
It seems surreal that you are floating about in the MpLs somewhere as I type this! Looks like you are training Maddy in well…after all water IS good for you!
Does it take a few minutes for comments to post?
I noticed Maddies eye brows, My Ped swears by this stuff called aquaphor made by the eucerin lotion company
It works like magic if you slather them up at night and they wake up in the morning and it really helps super dry patches
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2329500
Ah, Adriens. Just down from my favorite place for margaritas, Pepitos. Hope you’re enjoying the Mpls. The weather seems to be holding fast for you.
You could totally see the end of that smile! You’ll get it– but enjoy them while they are your “secret”. Have a wonderful Father’s Day on Sunday- you deserve every moment!
Fun to see some local hotspots! Nice to have you back in the MN.
And thanks for your response on the last post…and for getting my (apparently complex) humor. : )
Sounds like a good day. Although that sucks about the future stuff. Hope it’s not really bad news. You guys crack me up w/ all the Mario Kart racing. I’ve been trying to get that damn game for weeks. Guess I’ll have to live w/ the Wii Fit for awhile longer.
Your Glamour piece rocked. Congrats! Madeline will be so proud of her hip, glamorous daddy. And agreed that everyone can Fuck Off who questions you – you’re obviously a wonderful parent, and you are doing a phenomenal job raising your daughter, and I’m sure Liz would be beyond proud.
Thank you for updating so often – I love to see the pics of Madeline grow. Our babies were born just a day after her – your “week counts” are almost identical to my own, except while you are counting the weeks since Madeline’s birth and Liz’s death, we’re counting the weeks since our own babies’ births and deaths (from prematurity/stillbirth). Sometimes I block out these markers, so I’m grateful for your reminders. Madeline is such a precious baby – and one of the few that it doesn’t hurt me to see right now, despite the coincedence of her birth at the same time as our Doodles.
Oh, Electric Fetus, when will you come West? Matt, I suspect you have been patronizing their fine establishment for at least 20 of their 40 years. What a sweet record store. (That’s how old I am! I still call them record stores.)
Madeline’s little yellow dress is one of the cutest things I’ve seen her wear. She looks fabulous in yellow. And, dude. Again – in that picture with the ‘water’ mug – there is that face that Liz made in many of her photos. She’s beautiful.
I hope today was a good one and that last night was restful. Really, really, restful. All these nights you nap (instead of, like, sleeping for real) are worrisome. I think the robot needs to stop freeloading and step it up a bit. Maybe he can take a massage class and shiatsu you to sleep.
xxxxx
Matt,
Hope your phone calls weren’t what I thought they were about. You have a huge force at work for you now, maybe it’s shaping the path for you.
I’m heading back to “the MN” next week for some family time as well. I’m driving with my one year old over a thousand miles. Just the two of us. Hoping to stay awake, stay sane, and keep her smiling most of the way. I know as you and Madeline make your way every day, I can handle a few days in a car. Here’s to hoping you make new and happy memories on your trip. I’ll arrive in the MTKA thinking of you all and smiling.
Matt,
I read your entire blog today, I heard about you through Chrissy’s “storked” website. Liz sounds like an amazing person, and you seem to be doing wonderfully with Madeline – she is so adorable.
I’m not sure what else to say except that I’m thinking of you three and although the circumstances are not ideal, I can’t wait to see how Madeline develops, for as long as you want to share with the world.
Hey! Love the little dress outfit you have Madeline in. You need to give my husband some tips on dressing little girls. Surprisingly Camo and dirtbike shirts aren’t always appropriate attire for 2 little girls.
Happy Fathers Day Matt! You are doing great with her. She is perfect and it is because of what a great father you are being to her. Daddy’s are very important for little girls. Especially ones like you. Someday you will see the impact you made on her as well as so many others.
PS I totally forgot to ask about the phone calls/e-mails!! You can’t drop a bomb like that on us and have us not worry. Is everything okay…?
Hope that bad news isn’t too bad… glad you get to see your family and spend some time in the MN.
Just wanted to say good job on the Glamour blog. I’m sure Liz would love it.
Hello Matt! I just wanted to say that you have been blessed with a beautiful and wonderful baby. Traveling, going to tons of stores and restaurants and just behaving like such an angel is amazing. She is gorgeous!
And may I say you do quite a good job for a daddy when it comes to picking her outfits. Everything matches wonderfully.
I should have “introduced” myself. I am Jenny, 25, and have 3 beautiful babies. My daughter turns 2 tomorrow and my 2 baby boys are 6 weeks old. I read your blog each and every day. I am so sorry for your loss and am also inspired and motivated by you to be a better parent every day. When I sit here crying, my husband asks me why I read “stuff like that” (i.e. sad blogs) and it’s because you make the rest of us better people.
Happy Father’s Day!
Arrrrgggghhhhhh- how come I can’t see my posts? So sad…
Matt,
hi, this is tami from Tom’s law firm. I probably almost saw you today, and that would have been amazing….I was out on errands here. I would have loved to have seem Maddy…
I want you to know I am praying for you while you were here.
I so wish I could visit, you inspire me, you really do…..
you will make it Matt!!!!!!
blesssings,
tami
welcome back to minnesota, sounds like you are having a great trip! I am just waiting to run into you somewhere…
Madeline had an awesome outfit on thursday, so sweet!
Matt –
I loved the Glamour piece! You did a fucking wonderful job! Liz would be so proud. Madeline will be quite proud once she’s old enough to know what Glamour is (and what it means to so many women).
You’re such a wonderful parent. I can only hope and pray that my husband and I will do HALF as good of a job as you’re doing. keep your chin up buddy! Dont let others make you believe for a second that you’re not absolutely AMAZING.
I hope your news wasn’t as bad as it sounds it could be.. We’re all out here hoping, praying and begging that life will just be incredibly kind to you from here on out. I know it hasn’t been as wonderful as it’s supposed to be.
Happy early Fathers Day! The world will be thinking of you.
~Bri
Well, have no fear if these new worries are financial — you’re totally headed for Oprah and a book deal. Before long, you guys will be rolling in robots and ironic onesies! (I think you should open the floor to title suggestions for your autobiography…that could be good for a laugh.)
(But none of that means I’m not still really, really offended. And my house sure isn’t getting any cleaner, so…)
So glad to hear you and Maddie are enjoying your MN time, Matt. Makes me smile.
We can see you Joanne!!
Matt, I’m sorta bummed to go vacation next week and miss your updates. I’ll have a lot to catch up on.
And I agree, worried about future… Hope all is going to be ok.
Again, have a fucking Happy Father’s Days.
p.s. Fuck Jill.
I can’t understand the whole adoption thing. How does giving your only link to Liz away make things better? For either of you? What does that mean? Do they think you can’t take care of a child because you are a man? That’s bullshit. Fuck them.
You are a wonderful father. No. You can’t give Maddy what Liz can. No you don’t have boobs. That’s okay though. You can give her so much! You are giving her so much. That should be honored and celebrated. You have your very own miracle. Why give that away?
Assholes. I swear they should start taxing people for being ignorant.
You rock. The END!
I think I can prolly guess the bad news too, seeing as how the rumors have been in the news. But maybe it will be a new opportunity! And if its not, just remember when a door closes, another one opens. Maddie as usual looks beautiful, and btw, you ARE putting the weight back on. You look better every day. And your eyes are getting better too. I can see the smile in them now.
I have to laugh at the pictures of y’all playing MarioKart. I am SURE the games are fun, but looking at the pictures of you playing them without seeing the game is funny as all hell. I have another blog buddy who just posted pictures of her family playing bowling, and I laughed at them too.
Good times lol.
Hi Matt,
I’m a total stalker to your site… have been following your story ever since you posted on Cribsheet. Kinda feel like we’re friends, or rather that you’re my friend!
Anyway, just had to comment, because, Adrian’s is awesome (and just down the street from my house!) Did you go to the Pumphouse Creamery for ice cream… that stuff is great! Anyway, enjoy your visit to the mn. Hopefully we’ll have some nice weather for you.
–Holly in S. Mpls.
BTW, on the adoption thing. I too everytime you tell us about it get pissed off. My father lost his wife and he had 2 kids at the time, his sister in law went after him for custody!! Can you imagine THAT shit? It took like 10 years for him to speak to her again. What a crunt. I dont think he would have EVER spoken to her again except that she was married to his brother. (2 brothers married 2 sisters, no West Virginia shit in case you were wondering)
Hi Matt,
Congrats on an awesome Thursday! Being home and getting all that TLC will be good for your heart.
I hope the bad news is just a rumor, and if it’s not, you WILL be ok. Seriously. You’ve made it this far … the sky is the limit, my friend. Give Maddy big squeezy hugs from me n’ my boys!
xoxoxo
We fuckin love you and Maddie, Matt. Your post is makin us nervous, but we are all out here for you… Do you think us bloggers are gonna let anyone fuck with you?…let em try….
Wow….this morning I quickly popped onto Glamour to quickly read my daily dose of blogs from Storked! and others when I stumbled across your blog. I then have to admit I did zero work and ended up reading your blog through….First, I am so sorry for your loss. I feel like I’ve lost a good friend now too – you manage to express Liz in such a way that you’ve brought her to life for me and I am sad to know that I’ll never get to know her.
I wish you and Madaline all of the best and hope that whatever bad news you received today is resolved and for the best for you. You have a beautiful little girl, and an amazing cast of friends and family surrounding you – good luck to you and know that you have one more person in your corner, one more person whose prayers you’ll be in.
I’ll be a regular reader of this blog for certain – and thank you Chrissy Copa for bringing this story and this amazing man to light.
I hope everything is ok. Thinking about you and the little cutie pie every day. Looks like you are having a good time in the mn.
Madeline looks so beautiful in yellow. I’m glad you’re doing the Glamour thing – I loved it!
I hope you’re enjoying time with friends and family. Thinking of you and madeline daily. I love seeing photos from while you’re here. Makes me want to go out into my town (Mpls) and take tons of photos.
Just sent you an email re: rumors. Take a look…
Hi Matt –
Just wanted to let you know that your Glamour blog was great! I love Glamour like Liz and she would definately be so happy about that one. I feel like I really know her through your writings. If you ever want a late nite chat with a “stranger – would like to be friend”, let me know – my night owl self would welcome it!
Holy crap Juanita’s right, Madeline is making the SAME expression Liz does in some of her pictures. Those eyes, oh my! Lil’ blue eyes is looking very grown up in her yellow outfit.
Very concerned about your calls & emails. I’m jumping on the ‘you fuck with matt, you fuck with us’ bandwagon. I’m not too far from the Northridge gals (I slum it in Granada Hills, ladies) so if anyone tries they better run, not walk, cause we’re comin’…
Matt – I’m laughing my fucking ass off right now – First I was rolling at Kate (like usual) then Katy…and then, when I got to Em – I thought I would wet my pants!! I am offended too – who will you be sending to clean my house?? he he he. Hope you are enjoying the MN and it’s getting a little easier with each breathe you take – and I hope to see you on Sunday!
Ya know – ages ago when you first wrote to “us” at Cribsheet I was bawling my eyes out and telling my husband your story – and every day since I have been reading and writing – after the first month or so he asked me, “How long do you think you’ll keep up with this guy?” And I told him – “probably forever!”
You are amazing Matt – truly amazing.
@Melody: Do send an e-mail to one of us local gals (katesiegel (at) yahoo (dot) com is mine) so we can put you on the info-list for a potential L.A. area M&M meet & greet!
As for the rest of you Blog Bitches: I LOVE you, you knuckleheads! Now get outta here!
That little one of yours is so profoundly beautiful.
Congrats on the Glamour blog! So exciting! I really hope to run into you and Madeline in the Mpls while you’re here! (Ill be the blonde girl that runs up and acts like she knows you
Hope your first fathers day is very relaxing and fun!
~AJ
One day at a time… that’s all you can do.
Adrians, yum!! I want a juicy lucy now!! Madeline is getting a great tour of the top spots it seems!
@Kate…I always look forward to your comments! You gotta love getting people to laugh out loud when they are just staring at their computer!
Hi Matt,
I read daily but have never commented. I don’t know why I don’t, probably because you have so many comments I figured the last thing you want to do is read another one but here I am! (do you actually read them all?? LOL!!!) I thought this weekend would be the perfect time to comment so…HAPPY 1st FATHER’S DAY!!!!!!!!
The Glamour blog thing is awesome! Congrats! Your daughter is beautiful and you are an amazing Father!
Matt,
From Cribsheet to Glamour – not too shabby!
Happy Father’s Day.
From Cribsheet bloggers May and Kay
Matt: you Rock! congratulations on Madeline (that’s my sister’s name) and my Condolences!
HAPPY 1ST FATHER’S DAY!
I’m sure there will be hard days, but whenever you look into Mad’s eyes you will know that you have to be strong and keep going on for her. Stay strong! I like the part where you match her pacifier w/ her clothes to piss people off! lol too funny!
You’re an amazing writer and hope to see you back here often with updates on Mad.
take care! xoxo
I will definitely be reading your blog daily! Love the pics of Mad. She’s beautiful just like Liz!
matt
praying the news isnt too bad…..
and i love that you akwardly found the address on your waitresses chest….smoooth – very smooth….
Once again Matt, fabulous pics! I am worried though…I don’t like hearing that you are worried about yours and Madeline’s future! Trust me, you have nothing to worry about, you will both be taken care of! I know that me and my daughter would give you a place to come! I know that you will be alright, yet still I worry!
I’ve been reading your blog everyday for a while now and I must ask, do you ever not eat out? I would weigh nine hundred pounds! Not a criticism, just a question. None of my business I know. On another topic…Madeline has the biggest most beautiful eyes I think I have ever seen on a baby. She is just getting prettier every time I see her pictures. I hope you are enjoying your time there. God bless you all. The crazy lady in Texas is still pulling for you!
Hey there Super Dad!
I am totally on board with Team Matt. Don’t you fret my friend, the bloggers are on it.
Have a great time in Minnesota. We’ll try to get summer to arrive for you while you’re here.
Happy Father’s Day! To say you have earned it is the understatement of the year!
Happy 1st Daddy day!
Electric Fetus is the best! I always find something there.
Monte Carlo is pretty sweet too, too bad you could not enjoy it.
MeM
thinking of you today…as always
cute photos of matt and madeline ..must be from the photo shoot.
http://www.jenniferwilsonphoto.com/blog/2008/06/13/a-few-more-photos-of-madeline-and-matt-logelin/
She is just the most beautiful little baby… Your story is so increadibly sad. I am really not sure what to say other than your seem to be doing an amazing job. I will be thinking of you.
I vote for “You Bought a Fucking Robot?” for the title of your autobiography. Although most publishers would probably shy away from that title.
Matt, I’m curious how the babyhawk went in the airport. I’m thinking of getting one and I want to know if it is easy to use. You can send me an email if you get a chance. I’m the Erin up the 2 from you (since there are a few of us).
Matt | I’ve read your blog since the star trib article but have never commented. I feel compelled to today, as I know you are walking my town;feeling these emotions that I read, carting your beautiful child around in my setting.
I don’t think that you ever set out to be inspirational, and yet you are.
Your love affair with Liz continues to be an amazing journey, just as Madeline is the most precious product of that love.
I’m glad to see you hit up the Electric Fetus – I think of you when I see it.
There really is barely anything I can say right now. Nothing in fact. This might be the 50th time I’ve read your blog and it’s the first time I’ve cried… and crying I am.
I think your wife, your daughter and yourself are… beautiful. What you do every day for your baby is so beautiful.
I’m just so happy that there is this sort of love out in the world. It makes it seem not so scary.
I have lived in Mlps for 7 years. How do you always manage to find all the cool places?
Miss M looks adorable in that outfit- the amazing thing about Bad days – phone calls- emails- is that you have your little one to embrace you and smile all your worries away ( or atleast for the moment)
Praying for you friend.
Matt, Holy Crap. Kip was at the Monte Carlo for lunch with my little sister on Thursday. It would have been great to see you and Madeline. Boy, does she look like Liz. Beautiful. We think of you daily. We hope your visit home is full of friends and family!
Maddy is getting so big! I loved the Glamour post as well. Say fuck all you like. I told my sister in law who lost her husband less than 2 years after their son died. She said the best thing someone ever said to her, was wow. That fucking sucks. So yes! Fuck can be your word. I too love You Bought a Fucking Robot for the title of your autobiography. It would be fantastic. Have a great trip in the MN and try to get some rest!
Maybe the future has grander plans for you than you may have once thought. I hope everything works out with the changes gooing down. Maybe its meant to be and you’ll be back to the MN sooner than opening day 2010.
Happy 1st Father’s Day!!!
I read Chrissy Coppa’s blog everyday and when I read your story went to your blog and read all of it. It is amazing to me the resilence you have shown during an unimaginable time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Madeline and in the memory of Liz.
Happy First Father’s Day a little early, Matt and Madeline. I’m a transplant to the mpls – love it here – minus the shitty winters – but above all – i think this city houses some really wonderful, down-to-earth people and you guys are absolute proof of this.
I’ve been reading your blog for a while now, and I am inspired. One day in the near future i plan to become a mommy and I hope to be half of the parent that you are. Keep up the great work. Madeline is truly blessed.
Hey Matt-I have to agree with the others, you ARE looking better. As hard as it is to be home, maybe having friends and family close by is what is needed.
I love the pic of Madeline with the mug. I think its so awesome that you take her everywhere. If I had one, I think I’d do the same…can’t understand my friends who keep their kids home all of the time…..
Also, I could take a guess as to the bad news. One thing is for sure, there are lots of opportunities for you out there-the world is your oyster. You’ve got millions of friends now (probably twice as many after today’s blog) and we are all looking out for you.
I had said a long time ago that I hoped people would respect your privacy, and when someone above mentioned Oprah and the book deal, it reminded me of that (because that had been my exact words-weird!). I hope that you are ok with all of this, and if you are, that’s great. If for some reason it gets to be too much, I would hope that you would tell all of us (including me) to back off. As I said earlier, this is YOUR deal and you can do whatever you want with it….not that you need me to tell you this stuff, but I thought I’d just say it as a reminder.
Hope all is well in the midwest
So cool (and kinda weird?) to see pics of you and your friends hanging out in my neck of the woods. I live in South Minneapolis by Lake Nokomis. I went for a bike ride down Minnehaha Parkway this afternoon and saw the wooden Mpls Parks and Rec sign and thought of you.
Hope you guys are enjoying your visit with your great family and friends. You look really happy
Madeline is gorgeous but you and everyone else knows that already 
Have a great first Father’s Day!
A great place for some good Indian food is Holy Land Deli on Central in Mpls. They have a huge lunch buffet and kiss ass hummus, cucumber sauce, and lamb….yummy. And there olive tempanade…
I want to eat there now. Dang babies and the cravings. Now I want lamb. And chocolate. A big piece of German Chocolate Cake from Cafe Latte.
Must. stop. typing. about. food.
Matt,
Ah, the Monte and the Fetus. Glad to hear that you’re being well fed and your ears soothed with good tunes. Sorry to hear that you got some nauseating news via vm and em. You have an army of Matt and Madeline supporters – which just grew by the millions with the awesome Glamour column, not to mention all the robots, that Mr. Robot could call upon – to back you up should the need arise.
More quick notes – if you need another cheeseburger – we love to eat the Juicy Lucy’s at – wait for it – Matt’s Bar on Cedar – babies always welcome. And finally, people are talking about inspiration all the time – thought you’d like to know that not only did we buy a Wii last week, but Magdalene helped me pick up a certain Wii game today (that shan’t be named – just in case he reads this before Monday) for Steve’s 1st Father’s day on Sunday.
How long is that index finger next to the cheese?? LOL…
Right after Jeff died, I told a bank teller that I couldn’t use the soap because Jeff used it and I didn’t want to ‘wash him off’. I have the same fucking issue. I don’t want to talk about losing Jeff when asked but I can’t help but telling total strangers bullshit about recent events that I am sure must be evidence of some form of insanity. It’s ‘verbal vomit’. I think I do it to see if it still gives me the same reaction….”Yup. Still hurts.” How about you?
Apparently some cool shit happens in the comments section, I usually just say my piece (peace?) and flee. I might have to start actually reading some of them. heh. Anyway, about m’s eyebrows, nothing a little olive oil/mineral oil and a soft toothbrush cant cure. Also, check behind her ears, sometimes the babies get a little cradle cap crusties there too. I should know just found some from my 16 month old I just picked it away with my thumbnail, she wasn;t too pissed! Heh.
M. Man, she’s getting prettier by the day and I suggest you start hitting the Jack Daniels pretty heavily by the time she hits age 13. I hope your news has resolved itself by now and that your trip goes along smoothly and that you smile a lot while you are there.
Monte Carlo…bloody mary’s…mmmmmmm
Matt, thank you so much for your photos, you take me back to my “Crazy Minnie” days!
Madeline looks beautiful in that yellow dress!
I’m starting to get worried about you! You must get more sleep soon or you’ll develop hallucinations. Been there, done that and it’s no fun.
About your little beauty… she looks so much like Liz!
Matt, my stomach dropped too when I read what you wrote about getting some emails/phone calls. I have no doubt you’ll come out on top but if you’re looking for a change of pace, my neighbor has his own software company and is hiring. Want to learn German and move to Berlin? OK, probably not, but we do have lots of cool places here!
Tschuß & Auf Wiedersehen! :O)
sorry to hear that you got not so good news. i hope it has been resolved by now! looks like we are going to have to invest in a Wii and mariokart when we get back
If your bad news is job-related you should really do something about sponsorship here. Nintendo, Pampers, the baby formula people and all those record stores and restaurants probably owe you a huge debt for the business you throw their way (Look at Meghan – she’s going out to buy a Wii and Mariokart, now – 10% of that should be yours). Working from home could be the best possible outcome for you and Maddie. It’s not like you’re a hermit – you get out of the house all the time – so you shouldn’t suffer from that aspect. Think about it.
Hey, I’ve got to say, knowing you’re here I feel like running all over the Mpls looking for you – sure would love to meet you and your lil’ ladybug. Oh well, I’ll head out to Lake Ta-tonka instead. Had any requests for autographs yet????????
I noticed you lugging around the carseat. In about 2 weeks, when she starts plumping up, your shoulders and back will start killin’ ya if you don’t have one of these things: http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2327597
You can get the same brand as your seat, or most styles fit most seats. Even better tip – the TC has a GREAT re-use it store for kids stuff, and they have them slightly used for about $40. http://www.ouac.com/
So light, folds flat, I whip this chit out all the time to lug my babe around. Great for flights, too. Maybe you already have one, but I just *heart* mine and wanted to share.
ps – dude, get some sleep. Scotch and ambien, buddy. Can’t take care of the babe if you’re not taking care of yourself!
didn’t like the sound of your reaction to the phone calls I’ll be sure to tuck that into my thoughts and prayers.
The rest of your day looks like it was really nice.
Happy Father’s Day tomorrow! I hope you have a really good day!
Nice piece for Glamour, you write really well in different styles.
Well, I really don’t mind your use of language, I can’t say the f word myself without sounding a bit odd, but I don’t mind reading it. But, I had to check out your warning anyway, and then I had to click on your alternate viewing link, and then I just HAD to post a comment to say those are the cutest friggin’ animals I have ever seen!!! You made me laugh out loud, so my husband came to see, and he was like “ooh click on that one, ah cute!”
I’m old enough to be your momma, Matt. I’m amazed that anyone is bothered by your use of ‘fuck’. I mean seriously. It’s a word. IF anyone has a right to say it loudly and often it would be you.
I hope your first Father’s Day with Madeline is fantastic. You don’t have to be a woman to be a wonderful ‘momma’. I’m sure Liz would be really proud of you.
I hope the job stuff works out quickly and well.
I hope you have a fantastic Fathers Day. You deserve it!
As with most blogs, I stumbled upon your site yesterday and spent approx. 2.5 hours learning all about you, Liz, and, of course, Madeline. To begin with, Liz was absolutely beautiful, and if her insides were as beautiful as her outsides, she was an amazing woman.
My husband and children and I were driving to go see Kung Fu Panda yesterday right after I found this site. I was telling my husband the story, about what happened, and found myself crying. There I was, in our minivan, crying over a stranger whom I’d never met. It made me look at my husband and wonder how he would fare if the same situation happened to him. While I know that he’d do amazingly well, I got mad. I got mad thinking of how I’d be so mad that I would miss everything. How I would miss watching my children grow and change. How I would miss helping to raise them and turn them into amazing people.
Madeline is lucky, however. She has a father and tons of relatives and friends who can tell her all about her mother. You, however, are the one who got the shit end of the deal. You got thrown into a situation that no one should ever have to be thrown into. From what I can read, however, you’ve taken a horrible situation and are making the best of it.
Please sleep Matt, for only then can Liz come to you, in that quiet time between dreaming and wakefulness, and tell you how much she wishes she could be there with you, and how beautiful she thinks her daughter is becoming.
Happy Fathers day Matt!! You are an absolutely wonderful father, and deserve the best of days today! Because of you Madeline is happy and thriving, you are doing such a fantastic job!! All of us stranger friends are VERY proud of you.
Though new at fatherhood, you’re surely not new at giving love. That is evident in every post you’ve written about Liz. If you love Madeline near as much as you loved your wife she’ll be blessed. Happy Father’s Day Matt.
Hi Matt,
I’ve been stalking your website for a while now. I check your website daily. I have never posted before but thought today would be a good day to write my first post to wish you a Happy Father’s Day! By the way, you take amazing photographs. And your daughter is absolutely stunning!!!
Stranger in MD
Happy Father’s Day!
Matt, I’ve been lurking on your blog for awhile now and only chose to comment on this post because I wanted to say thanks for posting a link to that exciting Mats video.
I also wanted to wish you a Happy Father’s Day — it’s still Sunday in CA so I’m not too late with that. Madeline is adorable and you are doing a fabulous job with her. I know Liz would be really proud of you.
ahhhhhhhhh those little cheeks get me every time.
nodding head in agreement that she does look a ton like liz.
also, keeping you in thoughts [+ prayers] that the icky phone calls/e-mails go far far away
I’ve been reading your blog but have never commented. But I wanted to today to let you know that trying to catch those first smiles, thats hard. It took me many different photos to catch my daughters first smiles. And even today at almost two years old I still have to be quick with my camera, and she’s a ham and loves the camera!
Just wanted to also say you’re doing a great job with Madeline. She’s going to grow up very well. And about the cuss words, who gives a rats ass. I have an almost two year old with another on the way and I have the mouth of a sailor. Thankfully my daughter hasn’t picked up any of it. But hey thats just who I am!
Can’t help who you are! 
*HUGS*
Kristin