15 weeks ago (tuesday).

fuck tuesday.

morning:

nothing.

noon:

lunch with cara at

the cuban restaurant in the atwater village.

night

dinner with aunties ari, anya and angel fan (diane).

at the pizza place in the eagle rock

look…

ladies.

pizza.

missing my wife.

loving my smiley, happy baby.

but still,

fuck tuesday.

78 Comments

  1. cathy
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 2:58 pm | Permalink

    You, your beautiful wife and your precious babe have touched so many. You know as much as anyone that sometimes it just sucks :o ( .

  2. Joanne in the OC
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:00 pm | Permalink

    tuesdays suck. I am going to write in to the calendar Gods and ask to rename tuesdays- fucktuesdays. hows that for support?

    why is the bastard named the bastard? does he have a real name on his birth certificate? or is it…
    Last Name: Bastard,
    First Name: The

  3. Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:02 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesday…

  4. Anna in the WA
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:03 pm | Permalink

    Tuesdays suck.

  5. Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:08 pm | Permalink

    I read your blog religiously. You seem like an amazing father and all around stand up guy. My heart ahces for you and if I may be so bold, I pray that your heart heals. I’m so happy you have a piece of Liz to carry on forever in the form of your beautiful daughter; I’m sure as she grows older you’ll see more of her mom in her every day.

  6. Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:10 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesday.

    Hmmmmm Pizza.

    Fuck Tuesday.

    Fuck Jill.

  7. Kris in the MN
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:16 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesday.

    I’ve got nothing else – Tuesdays just really suck!

    @Joanne in the OC – I think his real name is Ken. Not sure where the bastard came from….

  8. Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:16 pm | Permalink

    I’m sorry Tuesday sucks for you. You have touched so many of us and your adorable little girl!

    I can’t imagine that pizza made your Tuesday any better…it looks so sad! You need to come to the NY/NJ and have some REAL pizza!

  9. Tracey in the NorCal
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:17 pm | Permalink

    Can someone direct me to the Jill issue, please?

    And about Tuesdays – fuck ‘em.

  10. Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:23 pm | Permalink

    one word “fuck!”. There now its out in the open whew!

  11. SueK from the PA
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:34 pm | Permalink

    Yea, fuck it! Hope it was a quick Tuesday for you.

    Love the pics, Matt!! Just you wait, she will amaze you more and more as the weeks go by. I remember saying all the time when my daughter was a baby how I LOVED each stage that went by! She just turned 8, and yes, it does go by quick.

  12. Melissa from NJ
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:41 pm | Permalink

    Tuesdays do suck.

    Sure
    Happy
    It’s
    Tuesday

    @ Amanda – you beat me to the sad looking pizza remark – people that arent from around here really dont know what pizza is lol!!

    @ Tracey – threre was a commenter named Jill way back when who scolded Matt for swearing and telling him he has to watch his language now that he has a kid. We guess she doesnt realize that Maddy isnt at reading level yet.

  13. Becky P.
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:47 pm | Permalink

    Did I ever tell you about the time my dad threatened to cancel Sunday? Us kids were acting like jackasses and he got frustrated and yelled something about canceling Sunday. I think he meant the day’s activities, but we all laughed so hard at the prospect of dad having the ability to cancel the existence of an entire day that we actually quit misbehaving (temporarily).

    I’ll check with him and see if he might be able to cancel Tuesdays instead.

  14. Tracey in the NorCal
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 3:52 pm | Permalink

    @ Melissa – thanks for responding. I’d seen several negative comments about her and wondered WTF?

    So Jill – a hearty fuck you to you!!!!! :-)

  15. Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:03 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesdays all to Hell!

  16. Aimee in CT
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:04 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesdays.

    Hug for Matt. And Maddy. Although she gets plenty as it is. Dad needs love too.

  17. Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:12 pm | Permalink

    I can’t think of anything poignant to say so I’ll just say, “Fuck Tuesday” too.

  18. Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:24 pm | Permalink

    In the words of J.J. Cale
    “Tuesdays it aint good for nothin, drinkin beer, watching tv.”

    Ya, They suck

  19. Meg in the NYC
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:26 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesdays indeed.

    Matt- I’ve been reading your blog and the comments from these creeps for months now, but I’ve never commented. Your story is heartbreaking and truly fucking sucks and I finally had to give you my sympathies and admiration “out loud.”

    It’s clear that you are making the best you can out of a horrible situation. You posted not that long ago (last post maybe?) that a woman praised you for stepping up. You did man. You lost the love of your life in such a horrible way (not that there’s a good way but you all know what I’m saying), and instead of crumbling, you’ve been fighting through, day after day, night after night, doing what is best for you and for your beautiful Madeline. Many others may not have the strength to step into the roll of primary caregiver in the face of such overwhelming grief. Liz must be so proud of you. And proud of her friends and family as well. Madeline is a lucky little girl to be surrounded by so much love.

    So, thank you for sharing your life with us readers and keep doing what you’re doing.

    Meg in the NYC

  20. Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:36 pm | Permalink

    I second canceling Tuesdays.

    And yes, fuck Jill. I was wondering about that as well.

    Keep rockin’ Matt. You fuckin’ rule.

    Oh, and of course, snuggles to Maddy!

  21. Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:46 pm | Permalink

    In the words of J.J. Cale

    Tuesdays it ain’t good for nothin, drinkin beer, watching tv.

  22. Posted 7/10/2008 at 4:55 pm | Permalink

    @Tracey in NorCal: High-five for jumpin’ on the Fuck Jill bandwagon! To make it worse, she laid this trip on Matt when he was only like a few weeks into this nightmare. We all went completely apeshit over it.

    Tuesdays can kiss my Irish ass.

  23. Glenda in San Diego
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:04 pm | Permalink

    Tuesdays SUCK! Just look at Maddy and smile! :) You, Liz and Maddy have touched so many! Liz would be so proud of you! Hoping for more daily smiles and giggle doses from Maddy to Daddy! take care! :)

  24. em
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:06 pm | Permalink

    You know, you’re not alone. In Greece, Spain, and parts of Asia, Tuesdays are also considered very unlucky and unpleasant.

    And here too, we’ve got Black Tuesday and Ruby Tuesday (the crappy restaurant, not the song)…even your 15th one without Liz, god help us all, coincided with the 400th Tuesday since Voldemort rigged the chads and caused us all a very different kind of grief…

    So yeah, I’m with you…fuck Tuesdays. Fuck ‘em all.

  25. em
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:13 pm | Permalink

    PS: Except Tuesday Weld. She’s okay.

  26. valeta
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:17 pm | Permalink

    I agree, fuck tuesdays.

    Also fuck people who do not curse. They piss me off.

    Matt, you are doing an awesome job. I honestly do not think my husband could do it.

  27. Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:23 pm | Permalink

    FUCK

  28. Nicole "Cdn Sister"
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:43 pm | Permalink

    @Valeta… LOL I am with you on the fuck people who don’t curse. You know what they are? Fucking annoying, that’s what. We all wanna say fuck once in a while… so stop trying to pretend you don’t in your spare time and just say it!

    FUCK !!!

    As for Jill… Fuck her. I have two kids, and while I don’t drop f-bombs around them, they HAVE heard me say it on occasion, and know it’s a “Grown up” word and not to say it. LOL Freedom of speech says, I can say FUCK as many times as I want to, and if you don’t fucking like it, don’t fucking read it. Good for you Matt for being you, F-Bombs and all.

    Personally, I’m comfortable coming here, knowing I can say whatever the FUCK I want, and not worry about it.

    As for Tuesdays, fuck em. That song ain’t groovy… and neither is the day.

    Except for the fact that I send you things every Tuesday my friend, and I’m glad you’re still enjoying them :) Music fucking rules!

    K, I think I said fuck a lot… I’ll stop for now.

    Or not

    FUCK TUESDAYS !!!!!!!!!!!

    Matt, you FUCKING rock.

    Maddy is SO fucking adorable.

    FUCK FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK!

    Phew. I feel better now :)

  29. Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:54 pm | Permalink

    ok…my canadian sister wins the swearing contest for july. i know it’s only the 10th, but no one is going to beat that.

    maybe ever.

    (seriously).

  30. Melissa from NJ
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 5:59 pm | Permalink

    Funny story from my childhood – I said Fuck in front of my brother, who told my Mom I said F-Word.

    She grilled me, and asked over and over did you say F-Word? My answer was no. Over and over. Finally I told her, Mom, I didnt say F-Word, I said FUCK.

    She still tells this story, and still cracks the fuck up every time because she said I was just SO serious. My brother the big fat liar lol.

  31. Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:08 pm | Permalink

    I say Fuck Wednesdays, I’m giving them up for New Years. I’m also giving up swearing, but from now until 12/31/09 I can just let the Fucks Fly! Just recently found your blog, and I love checking in for new pics of Maddy. I also have a firm belief that the internet exists in heaven, I bet you’re HUGE in Heaven!

  32. Mo Mo
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:16 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesdays! But mmmmm pizza!

  33. Sara GC in the Fla
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:17 pm | Permalink

    Yep – Tuesday’s officially suck – fuck ‘em.

    As a side note…I dreamed that my husband & I had our little niece (6 months!) with us and we ran into you & Madeline and we had a play date – made me smile….

  34. angie
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:47 pm | Permalink

    Hang in there. Thinking of you!

  35. Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:48 pm | Permalink

    That salad looks so good! Yum! Hope today is better.

  36. Maureen from PA
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:49 pm | Permalink

    Ok, I have to jump on the bandwagon and say “Fuck Tuesdays” as well. Nothing good has EVER happened on a Tuesday for me, truthfully. I’m all for cancelling it.

    Speaking of saying the fuck word. A story….this year on Easter weekend we had this Walking with Dinosaurs show come to town. http://www.dinosaurlive.com/
    Anyway, for those of you who may have seen it , its these huge animatronic dinos and a “narrator” who tells the story of the rise and fall of dinos. Well, we went to see it on Easter Sunday, and it was like the 6th show in 3 days, and apparantly the equipment was tired or something because they kept having techincal difficulties (triceratop’s head fell off, etc.) Well, the climax of the show is when the T Rex comes out and roars. Well, the narrator announces it but no T Rex…he goes back stage, totally frustrated at this point, and forgets he has his lapel mike on. Now, keep in mind, about 70% of the audience are children under the age of 10. He goes backstage and starts bitching up a storm, “What a bunch of fucking bullshit! What the fuck is going on, these people want to see a fucking t rex! Where the fuck is my T Rex. ” etc, etc. Ok, so out in the audience, it is now DEAD silence with horrified looks everywhere. So 2 rows behind me, this little girl looks at her mom, all excited and screams, “Is that it? Is that the F-word? Huh??? Is “Fuck” the f-word???” Ha-freakin-larious!!!! Truly, I had to leave because I was in absolute hysterics and most of the parents around me didnt really appreciate it! Especially on Easter Sunday…

    So, anyway, I am certain that guy lost his job and they also had to refund A LOT of tickets. (Not mine, I felt like paying double!).

    So, long story and really no relevance, but thought it might make you smile on an otherwise shitty Tuesday. (Ok, its no longer Tuesday, but you get my point).

  37. Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:55 pm | Permalink

    tuesdays do suck. fuck tuesdays. i hate them for you.

    hugs from NJ,
    erica and Landon

  38. Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:57 pm | Permalink

    i think we may set a record for the most use of the word fuck.

    fuck jill too.

    still in NJ,
    erica and Landon

  39. FriendStranger
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 6:57 pm | Permalink

    I had a shitty Tuesday too. You’re not alone.

  40. Posted 7/10/2008 at 7:27 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesday. Yup. I like the way that sounds. It rolls so easily off the tongue. Ffffffffuck Tooooosday. Fuck. Tuesday. FFFFfffffffuck it.

  41. Tara
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 7:28 pm | Permalink

    since you have “fuck tuesdays”why don’t you and Maddie stay in bed all day and ignore Tuesdays?

  42. Michelle
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 7:32 pm | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesday. I think that is the shirt you should get printed.

    *hugs* sorry it was a rough one.

  43. Melissa from NJ
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 7:34 pm | Permalink

    Tara, excuse my english but what the fuck?

    Do you get to ignore a day? And do you think it feasible to ignore a day when you have an infant to take care of?

  44. Jamie
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 7:50 pm | Permalink

    I know I have no life when I come to this blog just to read the creative ways people use the word FUCK!
    Hope Tuesdays don’t always suck, someday they may be a special day for you and Maddie to remember Mommy or do something that she would of taken Maddie to do.

  45. Laura
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 7:59 pm | Permalink

    I know you’re into jazz. But as a parent, I think you’ll like the new Trace Adkins song, “You’re gonna miss this”. Isn’t a baby’s laugh the most beautiful sound in the world?

  46. Kandy Lankford
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:05 pm | Permalink

    Don’t judge a book by it’s cover. Yes, my name is Kandy and “no” I am not a stripper or whatever your mind may lead you to think. However, I teach dance and appreciate your work (meaning your photography). You are a lucky man. I can’t even feel or think how much you must miss Liz…but you are the father to your little girl. That’s pretty damn cool.

  47. Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:05 pm | Permalink

    I’m laughing my fucking ass off right now, which makes me smile, because you Matt, must be as well.

    Fuck Tuesdays.
    Fuck Jill.
    Fucking creeps rule.

  48. PB and Jazz
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:18 pm | Permalink

    @ Maureen- Your story was one of the funniest stories I have read. I am laughing and laughing and my kids think I am crazy!

    @ Matt- TGIW- thank God it’s Wed. and beyond- you survived another Tuesday!

  49. Melissa from NJ
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:23 pm | Permalink

    @ Laura – I have considered our group of creeps the “Bridge Over Troubled Waters” type of group.

    We creeps have vowed to lay me down, and to ease your mind.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQpmMEBu4vs

    NJ version!

  50. Pattee
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:46 pm | Permalink

    *fuck it, I used to post first all the time and now I can’t even get close.

  51. Lisa in the ChiTown
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:49 pm | Permalink

    I don’t know what rock you all are living under, but if you want PIZZA, you come to Chicago. New York is for people who like getting their hot dogs off the street. Fuck!

  52. Lisa in the ChiTown
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 8:50 pm | Permalink

    PS, please don’t turn this comment section into PerezHilton by fighting over who comments first. Fucking.Annoying.

  53. Nancy
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 9:00 pm | Permalink

    Extraordinary circumstances make people do extraordinary things…………..thinking of you tonight (as I do quite often) For the record……..my husband could never do what you are doing! ((((((HUGS)))))

  54. Melissa from NJ
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 9:42 pm | Permalink

    Geez Lisa – Chi town pizza is ok, if you like thick slabs of greasy dough with multi products in between.

    And dont even get me started on Chi-Town dogs! lol.

  55. Grace, a stranger
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 10:17 pm | Permalink

    @ Jennifer who said “…I bet you’re HUGE in Heaven!”

    oh that made me smile. I bet you ARE huge in heaven.

  56. Grace, a stranger
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 10:22 pm | Permalink

    And I must chime in for my second home, Chicago… the perfect way to say “fuck you, Tuesday” is to come to the windy city and eat your way from the North side to the South side. It’s a fucking beautiful thing. But Liz would not approve of all the artery clogging that we do so well here, so maybe not such a great idea after all… But still, fuckity fuck Tuesday.

  57. sunflower girl
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 10:34 pm | Permalink

    I was at Atwater Village on Tuesday. We were looking for a place to eat. I wished I had my computer to look up all the places you talk about. They all seem yummy. I kept my eyes out for you and Madeline (so if you see some weird lady yelling out her car window at you….it just me). I hope your Thursday was better.

  58. Gramma Penny
    Posted 7/10/2008 at 11:22 pm | Permalink

    lucky, lucky ari, anya, diane and maddie!!!

  59. Posted 7/10/2008 at 11:34 pm | Permalink

    fuck tuesdays. tuesdays blow.

  60. Phoebe Rosenberg
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 12:02 am | Permalink

    I never got into Casa De Pizza (that’s what I call Casa B)

    Follieros is the shit! Go there when Madeline is a toddler and is screaming and throwing food. They won’t care there.

    http://grubinla.blogspot.com/2007/06/follieros-pizza-favorite-east-side.html

  61. Posted 7/11/2008 at 1:47 am | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesdays!!!

  62. Pattee
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 4:12 am | Permalink

    when I said
    Pattee wrote:

    *fuck it, I used to post first all the time and now I can’t even get close.
    Posted 10 Jul 2008 at 8:46 pm ¶

    I probably should have commented more:
    I had gotten so used to you posting in the middle of the night Matt that I could easily know when the next day was coming up. And now I feel out of touch with your schedule!

    I am still here, pulling for you every single day and loving the adventures of your days. And mostly enjoying all the wonderful comments from this community of people.

  63. Mollie
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 4:52 am | Permalink

    amen and fuck tuesday.

    fucking a well told brother.

  64. Maureen from the PA
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 5:53 am | Permalink

    Oh, girls, please, no fighting…
    Let’s remember why we are here…for Matt and Madeline… :-D

  65. Beth
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 6:10 am | Permalink

    Two things……let’s not turn Matt’s blog into a bullshitathon if you don’t mind. Enough with the fuck Jill

    secondly…..believe it or not Matt, one of these Tuesdays something good will happen; you just don’t know when; keep the faith

  66. April M in the LR
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 6:11 am | Permalink

    I’ll chip in a “fuck Jill” for good measure. Ha! (I do have to be careful with my speech, though…my daughter is 4, and she is extremely accurate with repeating things…oh, the stories I could tell you! Just wait…you’ll get your turn…ha ha!)

    And yeah, while I’m at it, fuck Tuesday too. It totally sucks. I think I’ve told you before, but my daughter was born on a Tuesday. I looked it up on a date converter, and this week, she turned 234 weeks old. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. I remember the sudden reality when I looked over and saw that they had a diaper waiting for her after they cleaned her up. I remember thinking “shit! This is really, really, real!” My point is, no matter how many weeks go by, the sharpness of the detail of that day never ceases to fade from my memory. I know yours never will either, and that sucks. At least you have the Mondays, though! :)

  67. April M in the LR
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 6:20 am | Permalink

    Oh my…I just went back to read the rest of the comments…I think my favorite may be Maureen’s story. LMAO That is the best EVER! Kids are awesome. I recently took my 4-year old to the “Our Body” exhibit. (preserved human bodies on display) She asked me what “that thing hanging down” was from one of the displays. I quietly told her it was his penis. (I don’t make up names for things…I’ve always told her what things actually were called.) Anyway, loud as can be, she said “Yep, that’s a penis, alright!” Don’t have kids if you don’t love the unexpected. LOL

  68. Melissa from NJ
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 6:40 am | Permalink

    Kicks dirt – If we cant fight about regional food then how are we going to get Matt to take Maddy on her national tour? :P

    Besides, if the Chi-town dog is so good why do they need so much shit on it? lol

  69. Emily
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 6:42 am | Permalink

    i’ve never really posted but wanted to say Fuck Tuesdays as well! i agree that you’re definitely huge in heaven and Madeline is one lucky girl to have so many angels up there and here on earth watching over her.

    as for the creeps, do i need to put my stilettos on and start kicking people? i will! i swear!

    and lastly, if you’re ever in the kansas city area, email us and we’ll take you out!

  70. Posted 7/11/2008 at 8:05 am | Permalink

    I’m LOLing @ Maureen’s story. My people hail from Pittsburgh, Maureen; I feel a kinship with you. ;-)

    @April: re: the penis story, careful tellin’ ‘em the real names for things. My nephew once exclaimed to the grocery store checker: YOU DON’T HAVE A PENIS CUZ YOU’RE A LADY!” Of course everyone died laughing.

    @Chi-town people: Your pizza is the best. Your food is the best. Your town is the best. Born and raised in Cali, but I don’t feel like I’m home until I go to Chi-town. See my Portillo’s blog post:

    http://thesiegelfiles.blogspot.com/2008/06/over-river-through-woods.html

    I guess that’s all I needed to say… oh, except I believe I’m #70. :-)

  71. Posted 7/11/2008 at 8:16 am | Permalink

    Dear Matt,
    Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us. Your little girl is ADORABLE. I very much enjoy the pictures.
    Thank you for staying strong for her. I can see she is feeling all of the love you are giving her. You are doing a fine job HANG IN THERE!!!
    I wanted to ask for your help, if you don’t mind. Unfortunately a couple of days ago I learned of a family going through a similar tragedy like yours related to a PE. I was wondering about how you went about getting the memorial fund set up. I want to provide this family with any information that you are willing to share.
    Thanks in advance!
    All the Best!

  72. Robyn
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 8:22 am | Permalink

    Fuck Tuesdays.

  73. Posted 7/11/2008 at 8:31 am | Permalink

    One thing:

    It’s Matt’s blog. HE mods the comments. If HE doesn’t want something on here, HE can choose to not post it. Until HE says otherwise: FUCK JILL.

    xoxo

  74. Carie in Canada
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 8:31 am | Permalink

    I think every Tuesday we should all stand up and say outloud……

    FUCK TUESDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Just for you Matt!!!! =)

  75. Jess in the Aloha state.....
    Posted 7/11/2008 at 9:45 am | Permalink

    short and sweet and to the point – tuesdays suck. still praying….

  76. Posted 7/11/2008 at 1:49 pm | Permalink

    Tuesdays used to suck for me to, I hope yours get better though!!

    Matt, you are my Hero. YOu are a truly amazing man. Keep up the good work with that beautiful little girl, and Know that Liz is there with you every minute of every day.

    Hugs,
    Rebel

  77. Sus
    Posted 7/15/2008 at 11:36 am | Permalink

    Totally fuck tuesdays. They are worthless!

  78. Michelle in the az
    Posted 12/26/2008 at 1:54 pm | Permalink

    I want to open a bar. One that is called “Fuck Tuesdays.”

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