(yep…still a week behind).
woke up early
and got ready for
a long hike with
grandpa tom g.
grandma candee and awesome auntie deb
chose not to join us, which
really meant that
they wanted to spend the
day with madeline.
as much as i wanted to take
her on the hike,
i figured it was a
better idea to let her
stay warm while
hanging out with the ladies.
packed up all of our camera
equipment and headed toward
i had heard of this place
but had never been there.
my dad insists that
it’s one of the most
beautiful places he
has ever seen.
he’s a bit prone to hyperbole,
so we’ll have to see
about that claim.
after a short drive,
we walked up the path to
the lake.
this is what my wide-angle lens saw:
and this is what my
zoom lens saw:
my dad was right.
there are not enough superlatives
to describe the beauty.
i’m gonna just let
the photos,
and a few words
attempt to convey
the total awesomeness
of this place.
walked counter-clockwise
around the lake,
stopping every 5 feet
to take another shot.
i tested my balance
and somehow managed
to stay dry.
kept walking, hoping
to have enough stamina
to make it as
far as the trail
would allow.
made it to the end
of the lake,
at which point we
saw the glacial
river that feeds it.
walked through some trees
and past some flowers
until we got to a spot
that allowed us to
reflect on how
far we’d come.
according to grandpa tom g’s
gps, we hadn’t made it
that far.
damn, we’re getting old.
we kept walking,
getting closer
to the cold wind
of the glaciers,
until we came across
a tea house.
stopped for some tea
and lunch,
giving us a lot of time
to rest our tired legs.
wondered how maddy
was doing,
what she was up to
with the ladies.
figured she was asleep.
we continued up the trail,
getting as close to
the glaciers as possible.
made it to the end
and had to do my
best unabomber impersonation
to keep from losing my hat
and glasses.
admired the landscape
until we got too cold
then headed back
on the same
trail that brought us here,
past the flowers
and the trees,
back to where the river
meets the lake.
headed clockwise
until we reached the beginning.
nice to be with another
photography buff,
someone who doesn’t get
annoyed at all the stopping.
that used to drive
liz
nuts.
she always told me to
put down the damn camera
and enjoy the scenery.
of all the beautiful
places we traveled, i
saw most of them
through the
eye piece of my camera.
funny though…
my response to
liz,
quite literally,
on every
trip we ever took was…
“someday our children are going to want to see photos of their mother. how am i going to explain to them that you didn’t want to take the time to pose for a photo in front of the taj mahal?” (or the parthenon, the coliseum, machu picchu, the himalayas, the swine barn at the mn state fair or countless other places around the world i forced her to pose and smile in front of?).
holy shit.
just thinking of that
sentence made me feel like shit.
i obviously had no idea
just how important
these photos would become.
as i looked at the clouds,
the mountains,
the lake,
and thought of how much
liz
would have loved this
place, i realized how
great it was that i
spent so much time
staring through that
eye piece, taking so
many incredible photos of
her
and the places we visited
together.
photos that madeline will
someday love.
really wish maddy could
have seen this place with me.
realized that she will.
tomorrow.
when we return here
to have dinner at the
to celebrate my anniversary.
after hiking 8+ miles,
our legs were barely
able to get us back in
the car for the ride
back to the banff.
called grandma candee
along the way and learned
that the ladies
were in town, doing
some shopping.
tracked them down,
stole my baby back and
took her to get some
tea while the others
got cleaned up for dinner.
we’re heading to the
at the fairmont banff springs hotel.
the g. family tracked us down
and we headed to our destination.
arrived to find a fancy
hotel with lots
of dead animals on the walls.
can’t believe they let
me walk into a place
like this,
but i guess i met
the dress code
(my “denim was in good repair (no rips or tears)” and i took off my hat so i fullfilled the “no sports wear” requirement, well, except for of course my tennis shoes).
shared a drink with madeline
(no i didn’t)
then we got seated.
in a private dining room.
not sure if this
was out of kindness
for us,
or the other patrons
who would have to
contend with what the wait staff
must have guessed would be a
very loud baby.
i’ll take it either way.
this is where
i have to pause to thank
some people.
there’s a group of ladies
who regularly read my blog.
they call themselves the creeps.
before the g. grandparents
left the mn for the banff,
a creep arrived at their
door to present them
with a “creeptificate” and a
shitload of money
to be spent on a fancy dinner
(or two)
for all of us while on our trip.
so, so awesome.
thank you all.
seriously.
enjoyed an awesome meal
while madeline passed out.
we left the hotel
and encountered some
wildlife in the courtyard
talked to a french dude who
cornered the beast.
he asked,
“do you think i can pet him?”
i told him that it may
not be the best idea.
i walked away,
hoping he took my advice.
didn’t want to see him
get gored.
caught up with the fam
and we all headed back
to the condo.
madeline remained passed out
and i joined her within
minutes of walking in,
exhausted by my life.
a great day and night
with one 4 foot 11 inch
piece missing.
tomorrow may be awful.
maddy in my arms,
i’ll try my best to
make sure it’s not.
174 Comments
Awesome, awesome photos of your fabulous day in a beautiful, peaceful place.
Hats of to the creeps who helped with the $$$ that is such a generous and unselfish thing to do, you seem to bring out the best in people, well you and Miss Maddy that is!
Sending peaceful thoughts
Jacki
Awesome pictures! Love the wide angle shots.
What absolutely stunning pictures. Great way to spend a Tuesday.
Those are truly awesome pictures Matt!!! Perhaps you & Maddy need to write a write a travel series showcasing tons of your gorgeous pictures.
And wow about the creeps and the fund for a fancy dinner. How sweet was that?! I wish I had known about it ahead of time, but since I didn’t, I’ll just have to treat you & Miss M when you head to this part of the world. Think how cute Madeline would look in a dirndle dress!
What a beautiful place !
Another stranger lurking and admiring the love between a father and his child. I wished my own kids had that kind of love.
Thanks for sharing.
So far, the Banff is the most beautiful place I have ever been. I am glad you and Maddy got the chance to be there experiencing it together. Here’s hoping that you and Maddy have a good day together tomorrow, despite the sadness that may flood through.
I can definitely say I don’t have a picture of my mother at a swine barn in MN (or at least that I know of
) Hindsight can be a real fucker, but you do have gorgeous pictures of Liz that Madeline will appreciate.
Unless I’m the one behind the camera I hate stopping every five seconds, otherwise i’m happy just shooting away. Right now I’m having some serious location and lens envy. When I was there it was a long time ago and I just convinced my parents to switch to digital last year so the pictures we have are not nearly as good.
The little lady certainly looks fancied up for the formal dining, and you managed to pull of the unibomber look quite well (just need a little more beard).
Thanks to the Creeps for treating Matt on his vacation!
until next time,
anna.
what a gorgeous place. looks like we’ll have to get to the banff someday. i hope you enjoyed the rest of your vacation.
Matt,
Fantastic pictures. I am so happy you made the hike and enjoyed your day. You really inspire me to take more pictures. I always carry my camera, but don’t take it out nearly as much as I should. Tonight as I made my way through Tokyo (as a passenger) each time the car stopped I snapped a picture. Thanks for always sharing. You and Madeline are in my heart. Sending you both love from Japan.
Really great pictures, I am sure Maddy will enjoy ALL of your pics in the future. The video yesterday was hilarious – my 3mos daughter does that ALL the time too!!
Are you still in The Banff? Pictures are beautiful! As always, thank you for sharing with us! Maddie is too too adorable!
If it’s not to painful will you tell us about your wedding day. I can’t imagine the pain and loss you must feel daily and esp. on anniv/birthdays. I am so glad you have that precious baby girl though. You have never mentioned (if you did, I didn’t catch it) are you on family leave? Will you at some point have to return to work?
Enjoy your vacation and enjoy Madeline. They grow up so fast! -kriss
Such beautiful photos Matt ~ I am in awe…and am now kicking my hubby in the ass to get us to the Banff – we were supposed to be there for our first wedding anniversary 3 years ago, did all the research, etc etc – and don’t even ask how we ended up in RENO instead! JEEZ! Anyway – I’m proud to be considered a creep – a name we didn’t necessarily come up with…some other blog stalker called us creepy for wanting to meet you, and each other, in real life and the name just sort of stuck…and again, I’m proud to be a creep! If I can make your day, the day of AADeb, and the G. Grandparents, along with the Divine Miss M. just a smidgeon brighter – then my day is a bit brighter too.
Thanks for sharing your life with us Matt –
xoxo ~ darcie
Cheers to the creeps! A good thing to do! I hope dinner was good for you and Maddy and family, Matt! Your pictures are gorgeous. .. . you make me want to go to Banff! (last week I really was thinking “why Banff?”- your post from yesterday, but now I think it is beautiful!)
Asalamalaykom Mr. Matt,
I’m here. I’m here because you asked me to be here.
Lake Louise is very special to me. This post was beautiful and quiet and deep– like the lake and like you. Those qualities make everyone for miles around feel the calm, even if the glacier wind blows.
No matter what day it is, you are doing a great job of being you deeply. I admire your strength of character, your discerning eye, and your love for all.
That 4′11″ piece is not missing. By loving her, you are keeping her a part of each day. By sharing the goodness you gained from your marriage, you are allowing her to live on in every other relationship.
Thank you for continuing to focus on the beautiful.
I’ve read your blog for a while and never commented until now … just have to say – don’t feel like shit for telling Liz what you did about posing for photos. I have family members who were the same way, mostly female, who were either always taking the picture or didn’t want to pose. Now that I’ve lost some of them, I’d give anything to have more photos of them … so despite the haranguing, you did the right thing.
Also, GORGEOUS photos of your hike.
beautiful pictures from the banff…i was actually sighing as i scrolled down to read the post. i hope that the pictures, or being away, or whatever else up there helped you heal a little bit more. beautiful pic of miss maddy too, of course…thank you for continuing to “share” her with us.
wow, what great pics. looks absolutely gorgeous there.
glad you got out on that hike and saw some beautiful country. sorry that you didn’t get to spend it with the one person you really wanted to. that just sucks.
cara
ps. glad you enjoyed an “awesome” dinner.
@creeps- i know i’ve written it before, but you really are a stellar group of lady creeps.
Your pics of the Banff are creeptastically amazing.
A good day indeed.
Loving the random encounter with the French dude. The photographs are amazing and are filling me with serious envy that all I’ve seen recently is a giant mud pit in my yard. Thinking you need a travel show called Dad and Daughter…ways to travel with a baby without acting like a tool. Most parents act like tools when they travel…
Wow…
Those photos are ridiculous!
I often feel bad when I subject my family to the millionth “hey look at the camera” request. Your post reminds me that there is a method behind my madness (swine barn included).
p.s. I’ll be thinking of this post when we head out to the State Fair next week
Truly outstanding photos. The scenery is just stunning! Love it!
Continue to have a great time!
Viva Creeps!!
Beautiful pictures and a beautiful daughter.
(And what beautiful flowers…there’s going to be someone who will always put beautiful flowers in your path, just remember to stop and enjoy them.)
PS I hate having my photo taken but now realise I need to be in some as well as take them.
Thanks for pointing that out
You are right, there really aren’t alot of words to describe what you showed us. Those are amazing photos. Kudos to the creeps, that is just so cool. Gotta love nice people!!
Take care,
Debbie
Those photos are amazing Matt! I bet that lake is 500 times more gorgeaous in person too!
The photos are really amazing! My husband tells me the same thing when I complain about the constant picture taking. I’ll stop complaining. So glad you found an awesome place to have a nice dinner!
Holy shit. I can’t describe the feeling that came over me, sitting at my crappy desk, at my crappy job, as I looked at that first picture of Lake Louise. I think my jaw dropped. Can’t remember.
That was just amazing. I must go there now. I’m literally online starting to look at arrangements now.
I think your visit there was Liz’s real gift to you. To share with you that wonderful place, and show you that there is plenty of beauty left in the world.
Being in such a beautiful place and taking the time to enjoy the beauty must be (have been) so thereaupeutic (geez, I really am a shitty speller).
I am not a “creep” (well perhaps, but not in the Logelin sense), but would have loved to have contributed to the trip fund! How awesome that they did that for you?!
Wow I guess I’m officially one of the creeps now! So glad you enjoyed your dinner(s) with the fam.
Matt posted this site once upon a time http://helpmattandmadeline.blogspot.com/, and that’s where I saw the idea for the gift. Wanted to pass that on for anyone else who is interested in future surprises. (Matt, no peeking!)
Awesome pictures as always Matt – such beauty at Lake Louise! Thanks for sharing.
Matt,
) Take care and I know that tomorrow will be hard but I hope that you’ll have some tears of happiness remembering the day you married your beautiful wife. Big hugs.
The pictures are breath taking. Thank you so much for letting us live vicariously through your traveling. I’m envious of the hike that you took, such a beautiful place. Thank you to the Creeps – that is awesome. If you’re ever in PA we’ll be sure to do the same.
I got chills reading this entry, both from the amazing photography & from the part about your explanation to Liz of how important it was to capture all these moments. Thank God you did that! M will treasure those!
Thank God for you, period. You are awesome! Don’t ever forget that, ok? I mean, if there was an award for man w/ the most internet creeps/stalkers, you’d definitely win…
Hey….had to chime in. Amazed at the number of “lurkers” in foreign countries. I read your story in my hometown newspaper, The Mpls Strib. Growing up my parents would take my brother and I on two week car vacations (or backseat slugfests as the case may be). We were fortunate to spend one vacation in Banff. Before moving to Poland I sorted through old pictures so I could scrapbook away (and enjoy a 2-year hiatus from work) and found a picture of my dad, brother and I in identical, ugly sweatshirts standing on a glacier. I laughed my butt off and moved it to the front of my stack of family pictures. You’re right…click away!!! Pictures have a way of bringing back very powerful memories that sometimes get lost in the dusty corners of the brain! Huge hugs to you and Maddy. You rock!
Omigosh. I am all fucking teary and can’t see the keyboard. This is what some of your blog entries do to a menopausal 47 year old woman. (Um, that would be me…)
These pictures are breathtaking. You really make me want to go there. Thank you for the tour, my legs didn’t get nearly as tired as yours did.
That sentence you would say to Liz should not make you feel like shit. It should make you so very happy that you insisted on taking her picture. Not having those moments to share with Madeline would be tragic.
And creeps…you rock. I wanna join your club!
What beautiful pictures Matt!
I’m pretty sure I’ve convinced the husband to plan a trip to the banff. It looks like a place that is totally up our alley! Thank you for sharing your life with us Matt and opening us up to wonderful new places.
I hope your enjoyed the meal us creeps helped provide you and your family. And the photo of Maddy enjoying the dinner was pure awesome.
Continue looking through that eye piece. You kick ass at it.
Cheers from a “creep”
Like most days you have brought tears to my eyes. Happy, sad and mad tears. The pictures are amazing. Thank-you for sharing.
So so happy that you were able to have some nice dinners with the fan. Wish we were able to help with that missing piece. That part just fuckin’ sucks.
Shout out to all of my fellow creeps. You guys ROCK!!!
You take such beautiful pictures! Such a stunning place!
“One 4 foot 11 inch piece that is missing”…something so beautiful and small is so large when gone. I hope your “little piece” helped fill your arms as you remembered one of the best days of your life with her mama.
Those are some beautiful pictures!!
And to the Creeps – you are awesome
Absolutely beautiful!! I want to go now!
Really amazing post today. Thanks for sharing …
just added banff to the list of places i need to visit.
As someone who lost her mother at a young age, I want to say how great I think it is for you to be keeping this blog. Although it has been 18 years since my mom passed, I still wonder about her and wish people talked more about her: told more stories. I guess it was too painful for them, but it left me with an even bigger missing piece, because I don’t really remember her on my own. I think you are doing great and I wish you the best. Maddy’s lucky to have such a strong and loving dad.
Wow!! AMAZING photos!!! What a great way to spend a Tuesday! Can’t wait to see more! They are just stunning!!
Amazing!!! I am now going to start bugging my husband and telling him that we have to go to Banff! I love the shot of the tea cup.
Beautiful post and amazing pictures.
“…until we got to a spot
that allowed us to
reflect on how
far we’d come.”
Matt, when I read this sentence all I could think was, boy, I wonder if he realizes how deep that sentence is? The fact that you and Liz’s dad were able to hike up the mountainside just a mere 20 weeks after your beautiful wife and his wonderful daughter passed away is awesome.
You both deserve a big pat on the back (although, that is really not enough) for knowing that Liz would want you to show your daughter the world…. and being able to do just that. Beautiful post. Thank you.
Gorgeous amazing pics!! Really makes me want to go there. I drive everyone crazy with pic-taking too! How cool that you had a private dining room–now that’s fancy!!
I know lots of people who go up to Lake Louise and take photos regularly and they have never been as stunning as yours. Truly inspiring Matt.
Simply breathtaking pictures of the banff Matt!
I was awestruck by the beauty. I lived in Montana a few years and experienced some of the beauty of the Glacior Nat parks. So so beautiful!
Glad you are having a wonderful time and using that camera and showing not only maddy but the rest of us the beauty through your eyes.
I am smiling at those great creeps for giving you and your family that great gift!
Enjoy!
BEAUTIFUL pictures! Thinking of you.
What a beautiful day – and I loved how you said “steal my baby back” – too funny! Just know there were thousands of us thinking of you, Madeline and Liz on your day. I’m the photographer in my family and I say the same to my hubby. There was nothing wrong with it and Madeline will always thank you for the wonderful photographs you have of your beautiful wife and her amazing mom.
Wow, Lake Louise is beautiful.
What a great place to visit. Those pictures are amazing. And, way to go “Creeps” for that wonderful gift! So nice. I live in MN, too–I’d love to contribute. 
Matt/Maddie rock.
I’m turning into a posting fool!
your hike looks AMAZING. How freaking cold was the water?
Hugs a week late. I am sorry you are facing your third anniversary “alone” remember that you are never alone
that place is beautiful and you take some awesome pictures.
Beautiful shots! I am glad you took all those pictures of Liz-Madeline will be very thankful for them one day.
What a beautiful place! Your pictures are stunning.
Matt,
I know that I am reading text on my computer screen, but I can HEAR how much you miss Liz. For Maddy and all that were important to Liz, she will never be gone with someone who loves her like you do.
“How cruely these tiny fingers grip my heart.” Hugh G. White III
God Bless.
p.s. What is banff??
The photos of the lake and glaciers may be the most beautiful photos I’ve ever seen. I hope you felt peace holding your baby on your anniversary.
What gorgeous photos!! A great way to spend a Tuesday.
Thanks for sharing.
Awesome gift from the creeps! It totally sucks that you are in a situation that warrants this outpouring of kindness from strangers, but it is so rad that it’s coming from so far and wide. You live in one BIG-ASS community, you know that? LOL
I can only imagine how big Maddy’s eyes were when she got to see that beautiful lake! That place looks so amazingly beautiful…your photos are breathtaking! I can’t imagine what it’s like in person…photos usually don’t do a place justice, and I just can’t imagine that place being any more awesome.
Anywhoo…hope you and Maddy were able to have a good celebration, albeit missing a very important piece. Thinking about you today in the AR…
I just wanted to say thank you for posting those beautiful photos. For a brief moment, I felt as though I had actually experienced the beauty that you did in person. I will probably never go to such a beautiful place in my lifetime, so I feel grateful for having the opportunity to at least see it via photos.
Looking forward to more photos and stories of your adventures.
Hugs and kisses to precious Madeline!!!
Your photos are incredible. Thanks so much for sharing your life with all of us. Madeline grows more beautiful each day.
Great pics Matt. Living in the LA most of my life made me forget what a clear sky looks like.
It’s official…the Banff is on my list of places I must see – in fact, I’m contemplating canceling our trip to the HI next spring (already been there) and going to the Banff instead. Amazing, amazing pictures. I’m happy to hear you were able to spend Tuesday in such a beautiful place…perhaps it helped out weigh the normal dark cloud that looms over this day.
At times the stories of you and Liz remind me so much of my husband and me. He also loves taking pictures (has the Nikon D70) and I can’t tell you how many times I have rolled my eyes when he insists upon taking yet another picture in front of some amazing place…and sometimes some not so amazing places. I’m making a mental note to not do that so often (my husband says “thank you).
Beautiful pictures and beautiful words, Matt. So glad to see your family was able to enjoy the creeptificate in style!
@ my fellow creeps…you are all amazing!!!
Hell if I didn’t just google Banff. I’m thinking Family Vacation! I need a better camera first and I’m not sure their scenery looks too peaceful to put up with my kids!
You take awesome photos. Its so pretty there. Madeline, cute as always.
Love reading updates about Madeline and seeing great photos. Looking forward to the next one.:)
Such gorgeous pictures!
Those photos are amazing. I can only imagine the beauty of seeing that in real life. I hope that you and Maddy had a fabulous trip (well as fabulous as can be expected).
Is it wrong to compliment the unabomber pictures–hilarious! I’m sure Madeline had a good time shopping with the girls. You guys did a great job picking the vacation/family gathering–beautiful and breathtaking….just like your Liz.
wow so beautiful! i have never seen anything quit like it- you totally have me sold on the banff!
also, how awesome of the creep ladies- you guys rock!
Sounds like a great time…although I don’t think I would have enjoyed the hike. One day at a time, eh? Great post, keep facing just one day at a time. I belive your days will be getting better, but I am an eternal optimist, Pollyanish type! Looks like Banff agrees with Maddie! Blessings from Texas.
I despise useing the word when it’s not accurate, but those early shots, especially the testing your balance one, are awesome.
Good luck tommorrow, you need to catch up man, I feel like a real tit saying that when tomorrow was a week ago ;0P
Matt,
This is one of my favorite posts. Your photos and writing make me smile through the tears.
So glad you and the fam enjoyed dinner on us creeps….we were happy to do it!
Amy from Louisville in the KY
Awesome pictures as always! Yet another screensaver today! So glad that you enjoyed the dinner. We creeps really enjoy being creeps sometimes! Love getting our hearts together for you guys!
Your words about Liz made me tear up again at work. She will always love you too.
AH-Mazing pics! My next GO TO place fo sho!
Wednesday, August the 13th sucked for me too. I know that the day has come and gone for you also, and I hope and pray that your post of the 13th will not be too sad. I wait with baited breath to read it.
My heart goes out to you and Ms. M. I will continue to pray and send good juju your way.
smiling through tears again. what a beautiful place and what a spectacular family.
i hope this comes across correctly. you mentioned in one of your earlier posts that you and liz would be out and suddenly liz would meet a stranger, but would soon be friends. this gift of hers continues. i have met such wonderful people through your community. you attract the best of the best on this board of yours. ’strangers’ reaching out to lift up the spirit of another to come together as friends. so glad the creeptificate was put to good use. sending supportive hugs to you today as always and also to my (so fondly called) creeps!
(((hugs)))
Well, we Creeps hafta do *something* to make up for how fucking obnoxious we are! BWHAHAHAHAHAH!
I can’t believe you had dinner at my #1 Dream Location In The Entire World. That’s kinda freaky.
xoxo
k in the n
p.s. Yay! Yosra’s back!
Breathtaking. I have taken countless photos of Louise and Banff, etc, but they don’t even begin to compare.
Next time you’re in this neck of the woods, I suggest trying the hike around Moraine Lake. I’m sure you know which lake that is. It has graced the back of the Canadian 20 dollar bill for ever.
Awesome with regards to the dinner gift too. You have some amazing creeps, er, friends.
What stunning pics – Lake Louise is absolutely beautiful and you captured it!
I was moved by your statement to Liz and her not wanting to stop for pics….I am the photographer in the family (and I use that term VERY loosely) and I must have thousands of photos on the hard drive, and yet I can count how many I am in on one hand. I need to get better with that.
And good advice about the deer – we recently had relatives from New Zealand at our place and they were floored by the bears that came into the backyard – and they really really wanted to pet them…until they realized just how big they are up close
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what a gorgeous post and place to spend that time with your family. and what an incredible hike — many thanks for sharing those pics with us.
the kindness of your readers and supporters never ceases to amaze me. how wonderful.
Stunning stunning photography.
What an amazing adventure.
Wishing you the best today (tomorrow), stay strong for Maddy.
What an amazing experience you had on that hike! I’ve lurked for months now and couldn’t “not” post this time! I hope tomorrow isn’t awful and you get through it ok. I’m sure Liz is sending you warm & peaceful thoughts.
Love to Maddy!
The pics speak for themselves. Breathtaking.
Anja
Your pictures are amazing. What a beautiful lake!
Hoping that each day you remember something else that made Liz so special and made you love her so much. That may sound weird, but believe me its from the heart. It helps me, my younger sister died 4 years ago. I found myself making it a point to think of different things each day that remind me of her – it really helps. I think a lot of it is also that I don’t want to ever forget her. It’s a weird fear I have, I don’t think I will but for some reason it scares the hell out of me. Anyway, remembering something different everyday never gets old. Much love to you and Madeline.
Silvana
Ok, Matt, seriously. I’m running out of adjectives here. The other day I described your photos as “lovely”. Today…well, they’re just stunning.
The river that feeds into Lake Louise reminds me so much of the rivers and lakes in Alaska…that blueness that comes from the silt (at least that’s what I was told) of the glaciers.
Awesome little tea house. The flags outside remind me of those little prayer flags you see in Tibet.
Way to go on giving some good sound advice to French dude. I’m betting he didn’t take it and tried to nuzzle up to that stag.
I’m hoping that last Wednesday was a day filled with sweet memories and a peaceful time with Maddy and the folks. You needed that.
@Creeps~You guys are da bomb. What a sweet, perfect gesture for the trip. Also, who came up with “creeptificate”??? I LOVE IT!
@Yosra~So glad you’re here. You’re so encouraging, to more people than you know.
That lake is gorgeous! I’ve never seen a lake with such clear water. But, it looks too damn cold for me.
@ Sarah: I believe it was Becky P that came up with that.
correct me if I’m wrong creeps!
Hi Matt,
Your trip looks amazing! That hotel looks right out of the Shining and I’ve definitely put Banff on my must-travel-to list. I’ve been reading for a while (worked on something with Chrissy at Storked! before) and I think you’re incredibly brave. My parents died at a young age (55 and 63 respectively) so I’m not a stranger to loss, but one thing I could never really do was write about it (despite writing being my background and still an integral part of my job working in publishing). Your blog has helped me say when people ask about my parents “that fucking sucks” (sorry, mom!) vs. just beating around the bush and trying to say something positive. Madeline has a great father and she’s just too precious. Too bad my cutie 7 month old niece isn’t nearby (they’re back east) as they would make a great pair. Not sure if you’d ever consider writing a book (and unfortunately I’m not in acquisitions) but either way your blog is doing a great service and I hope it helps you as well.
Cheers to the creeps and let me know if I can ever help-my husband and I do live about 2 blocks from an amazing record store here!
Those pictures are absolutely gorgeous. What an amazing experience. Madeline is getting so picg and beautiful.
big and beautiful…sorry!
Long time reader, first time commenting…never know quite what to say… you are inspiring. Truly inspiring.
The pics are AMAZING! I’ve never seen anything like that….it’s now on our to-do-list. Thank you!
Sending peaceful thoughts…
Matt~ First and foremost, thank you for taking all of the pictures of Liz. I have creeped around in your flicker account, and I’m impressed. One day Miss M will thank you as well, you’ve done a perfect job of capturing Liz’s spirit in those photos. She glows, and obviously it wasn’t really a bother to flash her smile when YOU asked her to. Take care, keep doing what you do!
AND, I can’t not mention the LAKE shots. UNBELIEVABLE how gorgeous that place is! Thanks for sharing…
@Sarah: A whole clan ‘o creeps came together to make the Creeptificate possible (as well as a little something for AADeb), and while I think I was responsible for the terminology/collection, an awesome group is responsible for making it happen. My credit is only as far as opening my mailbox – the rest of the creeps and honorary creeps made it successful!
matt, cannot help but bother you again with writing, to thank-you for all the pictures. where you are is probably somewhere I will never be, but just to see you all there, and candee and TOm who mean SO much to me, I feel peaceful knowing you are all there together during this time. my thoughts are with you all so much…
and yes, I am SO grateful as you said you took the pics of your sweet bride that you did. you are an amazing photographer, and i am constantly amazed. thank-you for sharing with us!!!
praying for peace on you all…
tami
Holy fucking shit, Mateo – those pictures are un-fucking-believable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I figured someone needed to throw some “F” bombs out……)
Seriously, absolutely breathtakingly beautiful there. I’m envious!!!!!
Thanks as always for sharing your adventures and heart with us.
amazing amazing photos. seriously.
i think the banff tourism industry should be paying you – as i am sure their tourism economy will be flourishing now!
hoping your anniversary wasn’t all bad. you really have quite the awesome family that surrounds you. they are just great!
ps. the creepers ROCK!
awesome guys!
My husband lost his mom when he was very young and has very few photographs to remember her by. Maddy will treasure those pictures forever.
Completely agree with what Yosra said. She rocks.
I can’t wait to get to Lake Louise with my camera. Mine won’t be as amazing as Matt’s… but how can you take a not-so-good photo of that place? Wow….
Matt, those pictures are gorgeous!
I hope you got through your anniversary okay.
Ladies, “creeps” well done!
Those pics are gorgeous, but you already know that.
It cracks me up that those ladies call themselves the creeps. lol
I really am going to have to visit that amazing place! Those photos turned out great! Maddy looks so sweet in those pics too!
Keeping you and Maddy in my thoughts.
I found your site from a friend of mine.
Who knows if you’ll ever read the MANY messages you recieve. I am sure its not really possible, but I thought I would anyways. I love to read your site. I really have had Major postpartum depression from my almost 3 year old ( is it still condidered postpartum after this long, sheesh ) and things keep getting worse, your blog just shows my how amazing life can be and your such an inspiration to me and many more! I am amazed how you travel with such a small baby. I love to see all your pictures, they are beautiful. I guess I just feel some hope reading what you do day to day. I know sometimes these blogs are really akward because you feel you know so much about someone, I love your story as tragic as it is. Thanks for sharing. You are an amazing example to all! Take care!
Still one of the most beautiful places on earth. (Pictures don’t do it justice eh?)
Your pictures are absolutely breathtaking. You took me (us) there.
I totally want to be a creep.
Keep on, daddy.
Hi Matt,
I’ve always loved taking pics and cherish them. Keep taking them for you and Maddy. She will definitely cherish all the beautiful shots you have of Liz. You can see her personality through your pics. Her smile… lights up the pic.
Hope you’re having a good week! take care! and hope Maddy keeps smiling and giggling for her Daddy
awesome pictures!!! i seriously want to go there now!
BEAUTIFUL pictures, daughter, family and love you show for your wife. THANK YOU again for sharing with all of us…
Christine D.
Matt, your photos and your words give me goosebumps. Thank you for being the amazing YOU that you are!
Long time reader, first time commenter.
These photos are amazing. They are what drew me out of lurkerdom. Looks like a breathtaking place! I’d love to go there and just sit and take it in for a while.
PS- I think Madeline gets cuter with each post.
Matt,
I’m a stranger all the way from Texas. I found your site through multiple site bouncing and I have sent a good amount of people over here to check out things. First of all, your story is amazing. Secondly, Madeline is quite possibly the cutest little girl I have ever seen. She is beautiful and looks like her mother. (From the pictures I have seen) Lastly, your photography is simply amazing. You have a great eye and your pictures are nothing short of breath taking. I just wanted to let you know you have support coming from all over and loyal readers that love your story as much as I do.
Good Luck,
Brandi Laughlin
Dallas, Tx.
Hey Matt, Great Photos! You are creating the BEST BABY BOOK in the world for you little girl. What a gift you are giving her. I’m so confused ( it happens often) Is AADeb your sister or Liz’s sister? And I’m guessing you went on the trip with Liz’s parents? I’m wondering if my fellow creeps could clarify who everyone is… Thanks
@ Tracy H in the VA – I am feeling a little “creepy”, so I wanted to check out the blogger spot (I am not at all familiar with blogger) that you gave in your post. It did not work for me. Is there a special something you need to do? Perhaps an ultra secret triple threat key stoke only known to creeps?
@Andrea V – That should have worked, it’s the correct link. I clicked it and it went right thru. Are you at work? Maybe your work has some blockers….
Great pics!
@Cindy- Yes, AADeb is Liz’s sister
so glad you enjoyed your trip. makes me proud to be Canadian, seeing your beautiful pix. You should come to Vancouver some time. Kisses and hugs to Maddy.
Gorgeous photos.
Thank you for posting.
I’ve been reading for a while…I don’t think I’ve posted before.
Sending well wishes to you and your beautiful daughter. I hope that you find peace. I know that your amazing wife will never be forgotten. I hope that with time your memories (and amazing photos) bring you solace.
Your banff pics are GORGEOUS! Thanks for sharing with all of us!
–A Mom in Jacksonville, FL
@Andrea – the way the website shows up in my favorites is:
http://www.helpmattandmadeline.blogspot.com
Hopefully that gets you too it, if not let me know.
Kris
@Becky P~So awesome. I will be keeping an eye on the “help matt and maddy” blog so that next time I can contribute to the garden of awesome.
Good job, creepy creeps!
@ Kris in the MN and Christa in the V – Thank you for the clarification! My job is staying at home with the kids, so perhaps brain melt from singing nursery songs could have had something to do with my issues. Anyway, thank you. I will be checking often as that is very cool. Never you mind, Matt.
When my grandparents died, this song kept going through my head. Something about your photos and your blog post made me think of it too…
http://www.last.fm/music/Kirsty+MacColl/_/The+Hardest+Word?autostart
Matt – the photos, well, they are just stunning. I really think I know need to visit the Banff to see it all first hand. It looks so peaceful.
So glad that you enjoyed the dinner(s) out, we “creeps” so wanted to do something for all of you and hoped that it will help ease you all through some tough days.
Thanks so much for sharing your life with all of us. What you are doing here is really quite remarkable and will be truly wonderful for Madeline when she is older.
As always, thinking of you today (and everyday) here in the mn….
Amazing!!! I love the photographs!! They are truly wonderful! Maddy will love them when she is older. Sending love, Hannah in the VT
8-2-86 honeymooned in Banff. Thanks for the pictures Matt. Me too, took all the pictures, so no one really knows I was there. My sweet husband was there though, the pictures are a faded gift i cherish. Peace out
Always lurking, always reading, always creeping, here I am! Now that I signed up for Google reader I’m less apt to post a comment, but I need to send a shout out to you for the photos Matt, and to the creeps for the awesome.
I too am planning my next vacation to Banff as a result of those shots. SHEESH. My dad always raves about his trip there a couple of years ago and I guess I tune out because… well… he’s my dad. I need to start listening…
Is it possible for you to take a bad photograph?
I think not…
I am glad you could spend the day in such beauty.
You take wonderful pictures. I have been wondering, however, why so many shots look like they’ve been taken at the Joker’s lair.
First of all, *amazing* photos, I know you’re not a professional but seriously, you’ve got mad skills. Have heard Banff is beautiful and have seen the famous photo of the hotel but the photos you’re sharing are certainly more amazing that I could have ever imagined. How awesome for you, Madeline, and Liz’s family to share such a beautiful time together.
Who would’ve thought there’d be a tea house in the middle of your hike??
You’re getting very philosophical and it’s really been making me think and stop while with my family, my children, and on my travels…so, *thank you.*
@Matt and Robin, thinking exactly how true those words are, I thought the same thing. You’ve really come a long way, not sure how you did it, I cannot even imagine. Keep your chin up, you’re dong such an amazing job taking care of yourself and Madeline.
@the Creeps…so thoughtful and considerate! I feel like an ass for living in MN and wondering, duh, what can I do? Thanks for the kick in the pants.
Matt, I’ll make sure to have a corn dog, hot mini donuts, chocolate chip cookies, all the cold milk i can drink, a shake, and a ride down the giant slide in honor of you and Liz at the Fair. Take care stranger/friend.
I am so envious of your picture taking skills. They are gorgeous!
I cannot wait to see more!
omg awesome f’ing pictures!
ROFLMAO about the french dude wanting to pet the deer.
I hope you get through tomorrow ok (or should i say “got through”).
Big hugs to your baby girl!
You remind me so much of my dad – he always said the same thing about taking photos – and I can’t tell you how much we appreciate having them all now!! It looks like you picked the perfect place to spend the Tuesday and I just hope that you got through your anniversary alright- I’m glad that you were able to get away to some place new with Maddy and awesome auntie deb & the g-parents. I’m thinking of you! TAke care and hugs from the sunshine state!
Matt, I thought that I had gotten used to reading this blog. I read everyday like clockwork and I only cry about every other time instead of every time like I did in the beginning. Today really got me in the heart. None of that one or two little drips from my eyes stuff, no it was a full flood today. I guess if a person lives long enough they will lose someone that they love. I just wish you could have waited until you were very old.
It’s kind of a weird thought that all over the world people are reading this blog of yours and then clicking away at the keyboards trying to express something that is impossible. Sure, I have lost people but not a spouse and even for those that have lost their one and only they can’t feel exactly what you feel because they didn’t lose Liz.
So you get to experience your grief and we sit back and wish we could put an arm around you and take some of it away.
Well I guess that was about as clear as mud and a little sloppy too. Bless you Matt and Madeline. Bless you a whole lot.
The crazy lady in Texas
Lake Louise is a gorgeous place. So glad you are there enjoying it. Love your pictures and glad Madeline got time to hang with the ladies. All good.
Awesome photos, looks like you had a great hike, I think I might like to go there sometime……take care of Maddie
Thank for inspiration to keep going – to try and get through each day. My Mom missed a lot of my daughter’s performances before she passed because she couldn’t get around easily. Now I tell her that Grandma is in the front row. Liz is with you and Madeline. In the air, in the trees, in your heart.
If all were fair you should be getting a check from the Canadian Tourism Bureau sometime soon. You seem to be sending a lot of business to the Banff.
found a link to your page..you don’t know me, but after reading a few of your posts I was inclined to comment. Recently having a newborn myself, and unfortunately a “pro” at death(that’s my sarcastic reference to the loss of love ones and a brush of death myself).. I give you props for being a single dad..not that you had a choice, I know..but to have lost the mother of your child and be strong to wake up each day. I’m sure alot of your strength comes from looking in the eyes of that baby girl and the miracle of life.
Breathtaking. Absolutely breathtaking! And I’m not just talking about your stunning pictures, Matt. I’ve been reading you for some time now, but this is my first comment. Not sure why I waited this long, but I do know why I chose now. I’ve talked about you in the past to my husband and I’ve always referred to you as either “Matt or Maddy” or, sorry to say this so bluntly but, “that guy who lost his wife.” But today, I called you “my friend.” I don’t know why really, we’ve never met. Of course, you’re fully aware that strangers do read your blog and feel a connection to you. I guess that’s what it is then. You have a beautiful story to tell and I’m so glad I found you. Feel free to check me out. I feel it’s only fair that you see who’s looking back at you. Take care. And know you ARE doing a wonderful job with Madeline.
Hugs, miss jack
P.S. Liz is beautiful. Always will be.
BTW…If you are ever in the Chicago area let me know. Would love to say “hi”.
I did much like you did, Matt, when facing my first wedding anniversary after Charley died (also just shy of 5 months out from the death).
And seeing all the natural beauty surrounding me as I drove from Vancouver up the inlets to Whistler about broke my heart, because I couldn’t share them with Charley, with the person I loved and wanted most. It was so beautiful and painful and awful at the same time, and it took everything I had not to break into sobs on the tour bus. I even had to close my eyes sometimes, because I couldn’t stand the onslaught anymore and needed a few moments to recompose myself.
I wonder if you had some of the same reaction as I did….And if you did, I hope you found some peace with you too.
Extreme beauty but exquisite sadness at the same time: it’s a supreme irony in grief.
Hang in there, my friend.
~Candice
Oh my word. What a beautiful place! Love it. You take amazing photos.
Amazing pictures, and such a beautiful place. Quite a hike too. I know getting thru the next few days will be hard. *hugs*
Thanks for the great entry and the fantastic photos. Am thinking of you as you approach your anniversary (a week behind, but no matter).
As many before me stated, simply beautiful pictures. I wish I had a tenth of your photo skills. I wish my husband would pick up the camera once in a while. I have thousands of pictures of the kids & others, but very few of me. I was getting to the point of making sure I didn’t take a picture of my husband either, but after reading your story, I will no longer do that, because you just never know what will happen.
Thanks for sharing your great photos with all of us, and even more so, your story.
Sitting here waiting for “storm” Fay to approach and wish I was somewhere else. Banff is on my list of places to visit.
Glad to hear you’re having a great time. As always, really enjoying the photo tour. The photos you have taken of Madeline and her travels will be a great gift to her when she’s older. She’s one well traveled baby already.
You don’t need me to tell you how much the many many photos of Liz will be to Madeline. They will be on of our most cherished things.
Continued safe travels.
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Went to a work function last night and the husband’s co-worker was saying she just got back from Calgary. Someone else asked if she went to (the) Banff and she said yes. I said to the husband, “see, that’s where I said we should go.” I then got to ask if she saw different sights/lakes/etc. like I know the area. The husband just stared, as I’ve never before had any Canadian-knowledge. Thanks for making me sound smart!
not only are you a wonderful dad, but a fantastic photographer. your photos are breath taking…you inspire me to do more traveling. I will be thinking of you on your anniversary day. an avid reader here, and only leave comments part time.
cheers and love, tammy
So very glad we could help…but who are you calling “ladies”…?
What beautiful pictures. Likewise the sentiments.
…thinking of you and your family today…Liz is with you in the beauty of everything around you!…especially that amazing kid!
HOLA Matt
Buen dia!
I think it is insane and unfair to “live” a week behind! ….please please we are all eager to see K8 & the robot pic!!!!…;)
Besos y abrazos
S
p.s. I’m leaving today for a 10 days winter vacation…I’m going to miss you ALL…take care…have fun….ENJOY LIFE!!!…PEACE!!!!
p.ss.: Send a BIG KISS to Ms.M!
Matt, I knew your Lake Louise pics would be great. Mine are never that good. Yours actually come close to capturing the beauty of that place. And congrats on making it all the way to the end of the trail. I’ve never made it that far, but it probably doesn’t help that I always have two kiddos with me when I go up there.
@Becky P. – That’s hilarious. I would have done the SAME thing and I would have gotten a stare from the husband too…like, huh?
I’ve been ready your blog for a few months now. I love watching the changes in your beautiful little girl. I never walk away after reading a post that I’m not touched in some way. I think you’re a fantastic Dad and an amazing human being. Your story is proof that basic human kindness is still found in this world. I send blessing to you and everyone that has touched your life, now and in the future.
The photographs are beautiful. It’s nice to read along with everyone else while your daughter continues to grow. You’re such a great dad! (:
Your pictures make me want to hide in the undercarriage of a plane bound for Alberta. I’ll walk the rest of the way.
Gorgeous!
You take amazing pictures.
Matt & Maddy- This is my first post. I perfer the human experience…….Well, acutually, I don’t own a computer. Anyhow, I would really like to see your photos from Banff! While I can access your blog from work, I cannot view your photos. When you have time could you email some pictures to Molly? Give Maddy a kiss and yourself a pat on the back. Talk to you soon
Because I’m left without words, I’ll just have to “ditto” what diva65 wrote….
Beautiful Banff…. your photos give me goosebumps! I can only imagine how beautiful and serene it was in person.
I just came across your blog today. I wanted to say (and I know you’ve heard this many times before but I’m gonna say it anyway) how deeply sorry I am about Liz. That is a horrible way to lose someone. No one way is easy, but to suddenly lose her without warning, 24 hours after Madeline was born. I can’t begin to imagine your pain and heartache.
I also wanted to say that I, too, am a single parent. My daughter was born late 2007 and have been raising her myself. I know how hard it can be. But I also know how rewarding it is when they reach a major milestone. Just wait until she says “Dada”…that will make your heart sing!
Well anyway, I’m babbling now. I really did just want to tell you that you are in my thoughts.
Sincerely in single-parenthood,
Kim
WOW! BEAUTIFUL! Thank you for sharing!
Your photos are just some of the most amazingly beautiful sights I have ever seen!
Thank you.
out of all that, can I just say this?
Those are some bitchin sunglasses you have. haha
Hi- I just happened upon your blog a couple weeks back. I live in Mpls, and am an alum of CSB/SJU. I saw the article in the strib last spring about the tragic loss of your wife, and the joyous birth of your baby girl. My heart goes out to you as you navigate the journey of parenthood without your wife.
Just wanted to say that your strength, courage, and love for your daughter are inspiration for all parents out there. Madeline is an adorable baby, and it’s great that you have traveled with her so much. Banff looks like an amazing place to visit- and an amazing location to photograph. Take care.
Just recently found your blog and it helps me get through my work day.
I live two hours from “the” Banff. Too bad I didn’t find this sooner.
I have lived in Alberta my whole life and have been to Lake Louise a lot. I have never walked around it or knew there was a teahouse in the mountains. Makes you appreciate what you have close at hand. Which is why I love your blog – it makes me appreciate what I have close at hand – my family.
Thanks!
I just wanted to say I’ve been reading of your journey (through life and travel) and thought those picture of Lake Louise were just gorgeous! I went to Banff…actually had the pleasure of being put up at The Banff Springs Hotel, but when we visited Lake Louise, we were with a tour bus and didn’t get to hike at all! Thank you for sharing the beautiful photos…if only we’d had a chance to actually get AROUND the lake! All of this doesn’t really matter, but just thought I’d share. Love from Princeton, MN!