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By: Rose

Rose — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 16:56:48 +0000

I know I don’t have to comment on every entry, but your blog is just amazing! I’m so impressed with your ability to get everything in order while in so much pain. Finances, checking her cell phone, preserving things for Maddy, you just kept going. Liz would be so proud of you. The “I love you and I’m excited to have a baby that looks like you” one made me cry. I lost a friend 2 yrs ago and was in such a fog. I knew her email password and kept meaning to go in and quickly save all the emails she’d sent me that I didn’t have, but it was too difficult to think about doing that I procrastinated and by the time I was ready to do it, they’d upped the password requirements from 7 to 8, so her password didn’t work and her account was deleted for inactivity! I was so upset. It’s crazy how normally things like emails or voice mails wouldn’t have mattered, but I wanted every little thing about her. Yet, I still haven’t read any of the ones I do have. If it hurts that much for me with a friend, I can’t even imagine what you went through with your wife, all those little reminders and wanting to save them, but it being so hard to go through her stuff. Like all her clothes and stuff too, how did you deal with that? I can’t imagine.
I promise I’ll try not to comment on every entry! I’m just so enjoying reading your blog. It’s beautiful and I’m so inspired by you.

By: Michelle

Michelle — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 04:14:30 +0000

Although those emails are hard to read now, how great to have them to look back on. As you’ve mentioned before, the spoken word, emotions and actions are easily forgotten or fade with time, but the written word truly captures the emotion and feelings Liz felt for you. Continue to feel and make decisions right for you and Madeline and know, as always, I’m thinking of the both of you and wishing you nothing but the best : )

By: Nantucket YaYa

Nantucket YaYa — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 00:21:36 +0000

Oh Matt! I am glad you are getting more sleep you can only punish your body so much before it betrays you and your mind. Take care of you for Maddy if you are too tired to care about you right now. Remember the flight instructions about putting the oxygen on yourself first?
Hugs for Maddy.

By: Roads in the London

Roads in the London — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 13:46:34 +0000

Well done for getting back to work. Those first few days in the office are really hard. Just as you say, you have to talk to everyone and go through it all over again. And again.

Only marginally worse are those of the few who run away from you, and resolutely don’t mention it at all. You just can’t win.

Don’t you find yourself comforting all those poor souls who come to comfort you? That’s how it was for me – not sure why – but it was nearly always the same. They were cracking up, and I was keeping them together. Well, most of the time, anyway.

Then you get those long hours looking at the phone not ringing, and staring at the wall. So you walk around the office for a while, and then, of course, you meet someone else.

And leaving kids at day care – yes, it’s not easy. Most dads do this only rarely, but I understand exactly what that’s like. I hope the day care cold doesn’t mature to keep you away from work. At least not during the first few weeks.

Best wishes from the London, and spirits up.

By: Stephanie Martinez

Stephanie Martinez — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 04:30:37 +0000

I check your blog often, but rarely comment. I had to comment today though & mention that I think you should enter Madeline in the Gap Casting Call. She is SO adorable!! Contest ends soon (10/22), but should be easy since you have so many pics of your beautiful baby!!

By: Sierra

Sierra — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 03:22:03 +0000

things are not getting

easier, just a little

less intolerable.

That caught me right in the throat. Hard. I didn’t swallow for awhile. Couldn’t.
Not because I’ve lost people around me to death…well, at least not those closest to me…but because I’ve lost. People. Close ones. Family members. In many other ways. And the loss, although not identical, sure as hell feels about equal.

Still wishing I lived closer and could bear hug you in person. Not like you’d want hugs from a stranger. But you get it. I wish I were there anyways. I am; in thought. Please know that.

You two are on my heart every day. Whether I like it or not. Hang tight. You’re doing incredibly Matt.

By: Kelli

Kelli — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 01:53:12 +0000

I’ve been doing daycare drop offs for 3 years and they are still hard but tolerable, some days are better than others. Madeline is beautiful. Keep up the good work. Love the pics!

By: Bren from the GA

Bren from the GA — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 20:24:58 +0000

I always thought that whoever said that time makes things easier or heals all was a big, fat liar. I’m sure somedays seem even harder, because as time goes on, the numbness starts to wear off and the reality of it all hits you in the face. Sending you guys hugs and good thoughts.

By: Tory

Tory — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 19:52:43 +0000

Easier…it gets Easier Matt. It does. But, every once in a while, it’ll hit you out of the blue. You’ll be sucker punched. I lost my brother 4 years ago…read my blog to see my perspective.

By: Jessica

Jessica — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 17:39:41 +0000

Another creep here. Madeline is so beautiful! And I noticed something about her that I notice about my own wee one, she has days where she looks just like me, and some days she looks just like her daddy. I see that madeline is the same way. In some pics she looks looks just like you, other like Liz. What a lucky baby who got such a great mix of both!