a year?
yes.
a year.
what a difference
a year doesn’t make.
or does it?
march 24 and march 25.
one year later.
but a year,
a year
is nothing.
it’s a second.
no.
it’s a minute.
or maybe it’s an hour.
doesn’t matter.
we continue doing what
we need to do.
every second
of every day.
but march 26?
it’s the same as
january 29 or august 5
of whatever.
right now we
are right where
we need to be,
in the one place that
will help us
to do those things
that we must do.
what am i talking about?
everything.
(now go here and look at the little blond that always helps me forget what day it is).
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sending so much love to you and maddy. what a year, indeed.
matt: i’m so glad you and maddy are off enjoying the beautiful sunshine and celebrating her birth. i am there in spirit, and have been thinking about the both of you yesterday and today…well, tomorrow. you know what i mean. close enough.
love.
keep on keepin’ on. as you assuredly will.
xo.
thinking of you during these very bittersweet days. enjoy, as best you can, your time in mexico. you certainly deserve it.
Focusing on the things we must do seems to be the only thing that keeps my mind from wandering back to that day. If getting through six months was any indication of what one year will be…I’m thinking it doesn’t make a lot of difference.
The void from loss is no smaller the pain no less.
After reading your blog for the past year everyday I think I can echo people from around the world with similar sentiments- we are praying for you and lifting up your incredible strength, courage and sorrow. I continue to be touched by both you and Maddy daily, even on a trip last week to Mexico I walked past some rocks that I had seen you take a picture of Maddy on and I thought of you and how precious life is. Your words and photos are truly inspirational…. take comfort in your family right now, it is obvious that you are in the right place at this moment.
no words…only prayers….sorry.
my thoughts drifted towards you earlier today when i noticed the date.
you are so strong. whether you realize it or not.
you have so much courage to go on the way you have.
i admire that. keep it up.
Sending love to you, Maddy and your family. I hope you all have a wonderful time where you are and I just want to thank you again for sharing your life with us! BIG HUGS!
yeah, I’m 31 minutes away from making it through my march 24th death date. and even though I know tomorrow isn’t any different than today, I just want to get through this day. & my 12 years hasn’t made a difference because today, knowing my dad has been out of my life longer than he was in it kills me.
Happy Birthday Maddie!!! I am shocked you are one already!!
I am thinking of you guys so much tomorrow afternoon….
::hugs::
LDRN
Happy birthday, beautiful Maddy. You’re such a ray of light to so many people.
And Matt, my prayers and hopes are with you, this day and every day. You are stronger than anyone I know.
A year. Hands down, the fucking hardest, saddest, most trying and horrible year of your life. And it’s over. Thank heavens for that. (And thanks to Maddy, it just might have been one of the most wondrous of your life, too…but I can’t say “the most wondrous,” because of all the awesome stuff still in store for you two.)
The anniversary doesn’t change anything, of course. And yet it does. It marks the fact that you not only survived, you thrived (at least, in more ways than any human being could be expected to). And more importantly, it marks you not just finding out THAT you will live through this, but HOW. The rest is certainly no cake walk, but it’s got to be easier than that, even though there are still going to be very hard times. So congratulations to you, Matt. Please give yourself about 75,000 pats on the back from your legions of fans.
The girls and I are lighting a candle for lovely Liz today (nothing religousy, just in remembrance), and sending good thoughts your way. xo
Sending much love and peace your way.
Thanks for sharing this last year with us.
Zak
Youve done a fine job with Madeline this year…happy bday
And if Grandma Candee and Grandpa Tom G. are reading, I so so hope that you, too, are in the place that’s best for you today, and can take some comfort in knowing that thousands of people are out there in awe of your grace and strength, and pulling for you, and wishing you well.
Maddy’s beautiful and sweet. You are a lucky man for getting to love her. Getting to the one year mark is a fucking milestone, one that’s both good and bad in ways that I’d be an idiot to try to write out. You’re where you need to be. That’s what matters.
My love to you both, in a completely non-stalker like way.
“When I stand before thee at the day’s end, thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healing.” Rabindranath Tagore
Matt, my thoughts are with you today. There are so many of us sending you all the strength we can and hope that even a sliver of it reaches you to help ease your pain of the day. You are a strong and courageous man and should be so very, very proud of yourself for moving through each day of this last year! You will continue to plow ahead, and with it will come all the victories that surprise you, as you had this year.
Words seem so very weak to express how we feel for you and Maddy today. Hug her a million times!! You are doing terrific and making all the right choices, never doubt it. Keep up the great work and enjoy the beautiful day in the beautiful place set aside just for you and Maddy!
Sending you much love and care
Sending lots of good thoughts your way, Matt, and a very, very happy birthday to your little sweetheart.
Happy birthday to sweet Maddy, and Happy Dad-aversary to you Matt. You made it through a year, and you did a great fucking job.
Your wife is so proud of you, I know she is. And your daughter is a testament to a father’s love and devotion to his child and his wife. There’s no greater gift to your wife and her memory.
matt, I only know you through this blog, but your story this past year has moved so many thousands of strangers, and friends, and me, to tears and smiles. maddy will be so proud of you some day for devoting your fierce love to her care in your darkest days. it is so beautiful to see how you and she are thriving together. you are truly a survivor and your story an inspiration. even though it wasn’t supposed to be like this.
sending so much love to you and maddy from the sf.
Happy Birthday Maddie! Keep on keepin’ on, she looks amazing and beautiful and very happy.
Honestly, she is the cutest little blond I have ever seen. Period.
And she has such a bright light about her… wow… Happy Bday, Maddy.
Happy Birthday to Madeline!
You’ve done a fucking amazing job with Madeline and your foundation. You and Madeline are a testament to perseverance. Reading your blog restores my faith in humanity in more ways that you realize.
{P.S. Thanks for the music rec. Sun Ra kicks ass.}
Hi Matt,
I’m Ashwini from Mumbai, India. I have been reading your blog for quite some time now. I am awed by the way you have pulled yourself through tragedy to take care of your beautiful child. Maddy is a symbol of Liz’s and your love. Yuo are truly a remarkable father and an amazing husband. I pray to God to give you strength, hope, and faith to live your life to the fullest. Maddy is a star and she is blessed to have parents like you and Liz.
Best Wishes,
Prayers for Liz,
Ashwini Bhandary-Raje
Thank you, Matt, for giving her, and yourself, to us all this year. It’s been amazing, heartbreaking, inspiring. She’s an extraordinary girl, from extraordinary parents. Happy birthday, baby girl!
You’re an awesome Daddy. I don’t know you, but even I am proud of you. I watch how you develop as a person right along with that beautiful daughter of yours. You’ve done an amazing job, you’ve come a long way.. I am still sorry you’ve had to endure this road though. I know Liz is proud of you both.
everything!….. awesome….
~g.
Happy Birthday Madeline.
I know it may not be something you want to hear but … goodness gracious she looks every bit like Liz, at least what I have seen in the photos you have of her. It makes me wonder if she’ll grow up and look exactly like her mommy. Wouldn’t the world be so lucky to have that beautiful face back in the world? I know she’s looking down at these photos smiling with tears in her eyes at how wonderful and beautiful her little girl is. I know Liz is proud of Maddy’s Daddy in how he has taken such good care of her.
Time doesn’t heal wounds, it merely puts a bandaid over them and on days like tomorrow (I guess its today now …) the bandaid rips off. She was your best friend … and often when I’m reading your blog I think of how I would feel and my heart shatters into a million pieces.
Happy Birthday again, Miss Madeline and … Big Hugs for you Mr. Matt. These are bittersweet days and I know that no words on earth could ever take that pain away.
What a year, indeed. All the very best to you and Maddy in the years to come!!! Looking forward to reading and seeing the strides you two make towards healing and living. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Your daughter is a credit to both you and Liz. She is the image of her beautiful mother. Happy Birthday Maddy, and Matt im so sorry you have such a sad anniversary with such a joyful one. xo
The Heart Of The Woman by William Butler Yeats
O what to me the little room
That was brimmed up with prayer and rest;
He bade me out into the gloom,
And my breast lies upon his breast.
O what to me my mother’s care,
The house where I was safe and warm;
The shadowy blossom of my hair
Will hide us from the bitter storm.
O hiding hair and dewy eyes,
I am no more with life and death,
My heart upon his warm heart lies,
My breath is mixed into his breath.
Exactly Matt. Not much changes tomorrow does it?
Glad you are enjoying Mexico, and Madeline looks delightful, and happy, as usual, in her 1st birthday suit!
I just want to wish you anything you need to get through this rough day. It sounds like you’re with people who love you and in a place that might give you some peace. Madeline will always sustain you and be a protector for your own journey. I am so sorry, and we shouldn’t be reading this blog for the reason we do. Hang in there, surround yourself with positive loving people or escape. Do whatever you need to do. Warm greetings from Ontario, Canada (Anja)
I have thought a lot about you two these days. Happy, happy birthday dear Maddy. You are turning into one hell of a lady, thanks to a wonderful daddy. As for the other anniversary. I don’t think anything I (or we) say will come close to what you must be feeling. Take care daddy, you’re doing a fucking great job!
Matt – just wanted you to know that I’m thinking of you and Madeline today. Nothing to say that will help but please know that there are people around the world who care…
you, maddy, and family are in my heart and my thoughts today and each day. sending you love and hope from across the ocean.
Happy Birthday to the gorgeous Maddy! Just by the photos and videos and stories you share, you have to know that you are doing such a tremendous job raising what is sure to be a simply outstanding person – Maddy is destined to inspire and amaze.
Agree 100% with all commenters saying you’re doing a great job with Maddy and that Liz is proud. I can’t imagine what you must be feeling but hold tight to Madeline and tell her sweet stories of her sweet Mama and you will make it through. thinking of both of you as well as Liz’s family and friends on this day.
You should be proud of this past year, even if you are just doing whatever it is you need to do in order to get by. You’ve not only helped yourself with the blog, but you’ve helped others who read what you have gone through.
And the Liz Logelin Foundation? Wow…what an incredible idea that will help a LOT of people.
Liz would be smiling down on you.
For these milestone days, you two have been on my mind often…kind of popping in when I least expect it. So I just say a little prayer for you both and all your loved ones. I am so glad to be part of your world – thank you for that privilege via sharing your heart and thoughts.
You said so well that your little blond helps you forget what day it is…but I think she also helps you remember why the day is special. Why the moment is important. At a watershed point in my life, I considered this: ‘the hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross—and which to burn’. Hang on Matt. Here’s to strength, a clear mind, a happy heart, a loving life together. You have so much to give and Maddy is so there for you. Enjoy Mexico and get rested up.
Adorable pictures of precious Maddy!!! She’s just so sweet!! What a year it’s been for you but I hope the coming ones are wonderful!!
Happy Birthday Madeline!
I’m sending you both peace and love.
Happy Birthday Maddie! Is she going to eat cake and sand today? Celebrate every moment with her; she’s the gift you can enjoy everyday from the amazing creation of your love with Liz. You are not alone. She is always with you in your heart and loving Maddie through you. Always.
Thinking of you and Madeline with love and prayers. I know you would rather have Liz here with you but take a tiny bit of solace from the fact that she is so damned proud of you right now.
Been thinking of you guys for two days, Matt. Your story has been such an inspiration to me. I know too well the pain that comes when life and death collide so catastrophically. I have been fascinated by your story, but not in a wanting to stop and look at the “train wreck” kind of fascination, because if anything, you are hardly a train wreck. You are such a shining light, showing others that you can go on after such a devastating loss like this. I am just so happy you have this beautiful little blond lady here with you to make your days brighter. Just wish you had both those blond ladies here with you.
Be so proud of yourself Matt. You’re amazing, Maddy is amazing and the work you are doing is going to help so many people.
Happy first birthday Maddy and missing Liz with you today, one year on.
Dear Matt and Maddie:
There are no words for the sadness you’ve endured this past year. It has been touching to read about how you have coped and survived. I hope better for the year to come but no one ever can replace Liz. I’m sure she knows how deeply she is loved and how strongly you hold on to her memory in your heart. A soul can’t ask for more in this life than to be loved like that.
Go easy on yourself today.
Sending you extra hugs on this day. It was a year full of smiles, laughs, cries, pain, and joy. Here’s to a new year full of more firsts.
awww…
i’ve been thinking about you two and anticipating this day.
on how it would be for both of you, or what you would write about these memorable 2days of of your lives.
happy birthday to sweet maddy!
know that my thoughts and prayers are with you both.
The happiest birthday wishes to Madeline, and thoughts and prayers for both of you on these days and the days to come.
Happy Birthday Madeline.
*hugs*
i wish i knew exactly wat to say here. but I don’t. so I’ll just say Happy Birthday to Madeline and big hugs to you Matt.
hugs from NJ,
erica and Landon
Hey Matt, thanks for posting everything this year, opening yourself like you do. My spouse and I know more than ever to appreciate what we have because of you and Liz and Maddy. Please keep writing, it’s so fun to see Maddy grow! See you on the trails of Lake Calhoun, Carolyn
Thinking of you a little bit more today and sending even more peace and light, Nena and Reese
Thinking and praying for you and Madeline today. I wish I was in Mexico! It’s 15 degrees in Vermont!
thinking of you guys and liz today – same as every day but more so today. this shitty shitty day
Thinking of you today….those pictures were lovely of you and Maddy.
I’m continuing my prayers for y’all. Maddy is still adorable!! Keep up the good work, Matt!
Love, Mere
Absolutely precious photos! I finally sat down and told Paige, my 12 year old daughter about your situation. She has wondered why I am on this site, looking at baby pictures. Once I explained to her that we both have been through similar situations …she had that “awe” moment. Here were her immediate remarks,
“Seems like he takes really good care of her”.
“Seems like they go on a lot of vacations”.
We certainly had fun going through the old posts and looking at M when she was a newborn and how she has grown this past year. A very special day today. The marking of one’s journey. Liz left you the biggest gift of all, Maddie. Good morning Mexico!
Dearest Matt,
What and inspiration to all of us you are. Your wife would be so proud of the father, son, friend you have become in the last year. I am a complete stranger and you have some how inspired me to be a better person. I have followed your life for the past almost year and I can’t count the amount of times that I have laughed and cried. I enjoy reading about your and Maddy’s growth in this sometimes fucked up lilfe. So many questions and not many answers. My wish for you over the next year is that you find much inner peace with your wife’s passing and that Maddy starts talking your ear off. What a great day it is when they call you by name… DaDa… I have two children and they are the loves of my life. Thank you for sharing your life with us. You put life into a perspective that a lot of us need from time to time. So as to not take life too much for granted. Thank you Matt, thank you.
Thinking of you guys today. Hope Maddy had a great birthday. Love the pictures, she is so beautiful!
Happy Birthday, Maddie!
Matt—continued applause (and hugs) to you for the wonderful way you take care of your sweet little girl. Best wishes to both of you!
Matt,
Thinking of you yesterday and today, as always.
You have been on one hell of a ride this past year, and what a fucking amazing job you have done. Your strength is incredible, and you have comforted and inspired so many others through your words. Thank you so much for sharing your story and pictures with us. Hugs and good thoughts go out to you and your family today.
I know that you and Maddy will be everyone’s thoughts today. I hope that Maddy’s smiles bring you some joy.
Happy birthday, Maddie! The first birthday is such a milestone for everyone. It is so bittersweet for everyone, and I am sure, even more so for you, Matt. Congratulations on doing such a beautiful job with your happy, gorgeous little girl. She is thriving and looks so fabulous in her pictures. Thinking of you today and remembering Liz in my thoughts. All the best-
What a year! Hope Maddy had a great birthday.
All the best to you both on this difficult day. I’m thinking about you both.
Matt, I am thinking of you guys today!! The pictures are absolutely beautiful. Take care of yourselves today!
sending lots of love your way today.
Matt & Maddy & all of Liz’s family~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDY!!! I know that this (yesterday) is a bittersweet day for you all, and it’s understandable. I sent up a prayer for you that you were still able to celebrate Maddy’s birthday even in the midst of great sadness.
Matt, you’ve done an absolutely AMAZING job this year with Maddy and I know that you will continue to do an equally amazing job with her in the coming years. The number one rule of parenting is to love your child so that she feels loved and secure – and you’re doing that. Everything else just takes care of itself. Maddy isn’t just surviving, she’s thriving! Goood for you!
I know that today is an extremely painful day as you remember Liz and what transpired a year ago. I don’t have any helpful words for you as I have never lost a spouse, but I pray that you’re remembering the happy days today.
Know that there are hundreds if not thousands of people who are loving you both even more today than we usually do.
What is there to say. You two have had an incredible year and it sucks that you were “three.” That being said I think that one photograph of Maddy in the foreground in focus and you behind her photographing her sums it all up. Madeline is ready to face the world and all it’s challenges, sorrows, joy and celebrations and you are there to support her and protect her. It is truly a beautiful relationship.
You are right that one day is just like the next and so forth and so on but all the big “firsts” are pass you. Doesn’t make it a quick fix but it means when this comes around or that, you’ve been there and you have that experience of getting through it.
When my mom passed away, I became what I call date obsessed. I would hear a date and I would immediately calculate if mom was dead or alive when said even occurred. It took me about 3 years to stop doing that. I couldn’t help it. I slowly was able to remember her and her life without the “she was here for this but dead for that” aspect in my head. Grief gives you strange tools to cope.
Just remember every day is a new day with Maddy full of new experiences and love.
Sending you love, prayers, and all the positivity that I can muster.
I wish the very best to you and Maddy. *Sends hugs your way* My thoughts & prayers are with you.
Thinking of you, a little more so today.
Thinking of you both today. A lot.
happy first birthday precious madeline. what a year it has been for you growing so big and strong in every possible way, with your wonderful daddy there right along your side, and your mommy on your shoulder. jackson (my son turns 1 next month) and i look forward to watching you continue to blossom. may your days be filled with giggles.
A year….
I woke up this morning to the loud noises of my boys and one of my many thoughts were of you and Maddy~ I hope that doesn’t sound like a big fat obsessed person??? But my heart hurts for you today~
I am very glad that you are with your favorite blond that gets you through these days, in just the right place!
You are an amazing father and the world is proud of you~ You will be in our thoughts today. I want to thank you for sharing your days with us, it has been such a joy to watch that beautiful girl grow and to watch you grow alittle bit more everyday into a wonderful father!
A year has gone by……..Im sure it really only feels like a second~
As promised I will make a donation to you rwonderful foundation today! For your beautiful Liz~
Thank you for allowing me to share your life with Madeline this year. As a result of your loss, I am trying to remember to express to my loved ones everyday how much I love and appreciate them. I am thinking of you today and hope that this next year’s milestones are beautiful and bright.
my thoughts and prayers are with you all. Wishing you lots of hugs and kisses and smiles from Maddy today…that may be the best therapy ever!
Peace be with you all.
Happy Birthday Madeline! Just made a donation to the Liz Logelin Foundation in honor of Madeline and Liz. Hope it can be put to good use!
Beautiful pictures; beautiful little girl. I’ve been thinking about you and Maddi the past couple days. I hope she had a wonderful 1st birthday.
You’ve both been in my thoughts this week. One second, one minute, one hour, one day at a time… you’re an inspiration to so many Matt!
Happy birthday Maddy!
Gina’s photos are absolutely brilliant!
Thoughts and prayers with you. While sometimes the year may have seemed to go so slow, in others it flew by. Liz is always with you in spirit, in memories, in mind, and your little girl’s beautiful face. On to a new day, and many more to come. You are doing a fantastic job, one I am sure makes Liz proud.
Sending lots of love and healing. My thoughts are with you on this haunting day. Just look at your beautiful maddy and look at what the future will bring.
Matt, what a beautiful little girl Madeline is. You are such a great dad, Liz would be so proud of you. Thinking of you and Maddy today. Keeping you in my prayers. Wishing you and Maddy the best.
Thinking of you and Maddy today. Thanks again for letting all of us share the precious moments of your life.
Think of you two all the time – but especially today. All 3 of you.
My thoughts are with you today… Just ride it out. Don’t try for heroics, you need to cry, hell, you need to throw something. Punch a wall. You were dealt a horrible blow, and Liz would completely understand.
And what a year it has been. You have been thrown the most wonderful yet the most tragic year that I person could ever go through. You have made it
You are def a very strong man. I hope that you both have a good time in Mexico, and that Madeline had a happy birthday, and that you have the best possible day that you are able to have today. Thinking of you always
Happy Birthday sweet Maddy!
Thinking of you guys. Thanks for sharing this last year with us, Matt
Happy birthday, Miss M. And Matt….have a drink or 12 on me. And know that there are better days ahead.
Thinking of you and Maddy….
Happy 1st Birthday Maddy!! Matt – I hope the anticipation of the first anniversary was worse than the day, but no doubt both suck. You’ve (unfortunately) got a lifetime to find the right ways to honor the day in the way you need, this first one seems like a great start. You, Maddy, and Liz are in my thoughts!
Love and light to you both. Hold on- just keep holding on.
Thoughts, prayers, hope and peace to you and Maddy today.
Matt, I think I speak for many of us lurkers that you’ve done a tremendous job this past year, not only with Maddy, but with grieving, healing, remembering, and thriving. You are an incredible person and I admire your strength – Maddy is such an angel and the perfect gift that Liz could leave you. Been thinking of you this week and praying for strength and continued healing – we too will light a candle to remember Liz.
Maddy is just gorgeous and you’ve done a tremendous job with her. Keep on keeping on – you’ve got so much support behind you and you’re such an inspiration to others.
Take care of yourself and enjoy the sunshine…
I cannot even being to comprehend what today must be like for you. Just know you have thousands of people behind you, cheering you on. Thank you for allowing us to travel this journey with you.
Thinking of you and Miss Madeline today. Thank you for sharing your journey with the world.
Thinking of you and Maddy. We haven’t seen the sun in days here in MN, I am sure that is how you feel sometimes.
Hope Maddie had an awesome birthday! I hope you had an awesome Maddie birthday! At this point, that means more! Hope the day brings you some good thoughts and feelings along with the other stuff. You are doing an awesome, awesome job, but you don’t need some strangers validation, but it is truly a wild story, sorry you have to live it though.
Thinking of you from NJ. I hope the sun, love of family, smile of your little girl, and spirit of Liz that shines through her bring you peace today.
hi matt – thinking about you today as always. i haven’t commented in awhile but i am still here, reading, crying, smiling along with you. happy birthday to maddy (one day late) and hope that today brings you what you need. those pictures are absolutely breathtaking.
((HUGS)) Maddy is beautiful. I am so glad you have eachother. Her pictures make me smile. She is just too precious.
Matt,
Sending you lots of hugs today!
Take care,
Debbie
glad you are where you need to be. love you guys so much. hope madeline is having fun with her BFF.
(((hugs)))
know you are both in my thoughts. And I hope maddy had a wonderful birthday!
Thinking of you, your family, Liz’s family and all those touched by the loss of Liz today.
Sending you and Maddy much love today.
Your beautiful, spunky little girl was in my thoughts all of yesterday, and your exceptionally gorgeous wife will be in them today. Your story has first and foremost filled me w/ the deepest admiration for what a father’s love can mean, and, secondly, it has encouraged me to always live life to the fullest because it can change so swiftly.
Wishing you a Happy Belated Birthday, Madeline…and as much peace as is possible this day to your dad.
Thinking of you and Madeline, today and always.
God Bless
Wow – what a year! Look how far you’ve come. I know at times the grief is still overwhelming, but look at all that you have done…accomplished…just how far you’ve come.
I hope Maddy had a great birthday – I thought of her all day yesterday. And thinking of you all today…and remembering Liz.
Hugs from Indiana!
Sending y’all thoughts, prayers and good vibes!
Matt
You are right, no day is different than any other. They are all hard and are all a gift. But your strength, determination, and love have carried you through, and made you the best father Maddie could ask for. Know that many people around the world are sending you hugs, thoughts, prayers, and support today and everyday. Stay strong.
That is one gorgeous blond you got there! Those are some of the most beautiful pictures I have ever seen… what a treasure. Praying for you guys.
You and all of your loved ones are in my thoughts today…
Jenna
You and beautiful Maddy will be in my thoughts today – as you are most days. I hope the warm mexican sunshine can lighten your heavy heart if only for a second.
Matt,
I finally watched the video this morning. Unfortunately, I had to pause it about 15 seconds into it because I was crying and didn’t have time to re-apply makeup before work. What I’ve seen so far is beautiful and I can’t wait to get home and see the rest.
I’m sending thoughts your way today. I can’t even begin to imagine what today must feel like for you. I wish you the strength to get through today, next year and all the March 25ths that remain.
Happy 1st Birthday Madeline.
Matt,
you’ve done great. Happy Birthday To MADDY!!!!
Happy Birthday beautiful Maddy. Matt, I am sure that Liz is looking down and marveling at your strength and how wonderful a Dad you are. Bless you both.
Happy Birthday Maddie.
Matt – sending you the prayers and strength you need to make it through the day.
Happy Birthday Madeline!! Be sure to rub that cake in your hair, in your ears and up your nose;) Make it nice and hard for daddy to get it off of you! Love your birthday bloomers also…
Thanks for sharing your lives with us this past year.. i’m sure that the true impact you’ve made can never be tallied. Keep on rockin’ on Matt..
I think you said it all Matt. A year…doesn’t mean that it is all of a sudden all better. That it just magically doesn’t hurt any more. Yeah you’ve made it through all the firsts but the grief and all it entails is still there. You will go on just as you have this past year with Maddy by your side. She is so lucky to have such a great dad in you.
Thinking and praying for you on this difficult day!
Thoughts and hugs to you and Maddy today, Matt.
Dear Matt,
My girlfriend just gave me your website and I just spent a few days going over it. Lisa, my girlfriend, thought you just might be an inspiration for me. You see, I just lost my husband twelve weeks ago, and this has been the most exhausting journey I have ever been on. I am not one that enjoys a trip to the amusement parks, as the rides make me sick, and this ride is one rollar coaster after another, and most days I feel like I am going to throw up. The love of my life…. gone, and I am left here by myself.
One year ago, your life changed forever. A life you didn’t choose. I know that we are not in this alone, and although you have a lot of support,( and I am sure that has helped you), I also know that no one can help you through the pain you have been experiencing. Unfortunately, there is no one that can swoop down and pull this gut wrenching pain from us. No pill to take it away. It’s there day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute, and yes, year after year.
My heart goes out to you. I don’t mean to sound uncaring for Maddy, but she will be fine. She doesn’t know what she could have had like you do. All she knows is that she has a wonderful life with her Daddy. A Daddy who loves and takes care of her. That is why her Mama picked you!
I do think of you both often, and wish only the best for you. I hope Maddy had a wonderful birthday and that she has many, many more. Hugs to you both,
Jax
Just another stranger thinking of you and your family/friends today. It’s pretty unusual for me…but I have few words. May the universe give you everything you need to get through the day.
Matt – Thinking of you, especially today and thinking of liz, your family and friends and remembering.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Maddy today. May each day bring you more peace, joy, and comfort.
Lots of love from MN
Happy Birthday Madeline (yesterday!) Beautiful pictures – a beautiful girl.
Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way today, Matt.
Thinking of you both…I can’t believe Maddy is a year already. You’re in my prayers, tonight and always.
I am wishing peace for you and Maddy. What a year indeed. You have been doing an awesome job and Maddy is such a beautiful girl. You are in my thoughts during these bittersweet days.
i hope you can find peace today and can lose yourself in maddy’s smile. i’m going to go make a donation to the liz logelin foundation.
I’m sure a lot of people were thinking of you today.
You’ve done an amazing job over the past year, you should be proud of yourself.
And happy birthday to Madeline!
My thoughts over the last few days keep coming back to you, Maddy, and Liz. They say the first year is the hardest and you made it through with strength and grace. Thank you for sharing your incredible life with all of us.
Thinking of you and your family tons today! Those pictures of Madeline are beyond amazing! How will you ever pick out the ones to purchase? Hopefully there’s a way to at least get a proof all the shots. I’d definitely want them all, lol.
Happy Birthday Maddie!
I saw what a wonderful job she did with her photos….
I am so sorry for this day. My thoughts- as are many others are with you and Maddy!
Happy Happy Birthday Baby M!
Time is a strange measure of well, time. For some reason a year seems to be a rite of passage when it comes to tragedy. Your journey thus far has been amazing. Thank you for sharing it with us. My learning is inmeasurable.
Hoping that wonderful memories of all that you had and reminders of the love shared between you flood your day.
You, Madeline and, of course, Liz are on my mind so very often.
All my best,
Andrea V
Happy birthday, sweet girl.
Sending you lots of prayers and good thoughts today. There are no words to express how sad I am for you, but hopeful for very good things to come for you and Madeline.
Here’s to an awesome new year ahead of you. You’ve done amazing things in this past year. Can’t wait to see what lies ahead for both of you.
Been thinking of you lots the last few days. The first year of “one year ago today” days, holidays, etc. always is the worst…they may never get much better, but at least now you’ve been through each day once…now starts a new, better chapter for you.
Huge hugs to you and Maddy as you begin her second year of life…what a great time it will be. Don’t blink…tomorrow will be another year.
Thinking of you today…
Thinking of you, madeline, your family and friends today. Liz’s life is celebrated in rememberance today, the entire world over. That speaks volumes of your love for her. Keep your chin up…. You are loved, Madeline is loved, and Liz is still loved.
Blessings, Peace and Prayers for all of you today!
Beautiful photos of a beautiful girl. You are both so lucky to have each other…
Wishing strength for you for this day… it’s crazy that I have never met you yet this morning when I woke up I thought to myself that I wish much strength for you and Maddy. Crazy how you can not personally know someone but feel so connected to them and feel pain for them on a day that otherwise is just another day for me. I guess that means there is hope for us humans yet, huh?
Happy birthday week, beautiful girl, and continued healing for you, Matt.
Thinking of you and Maddy today. You’ve done a great job and she’s lucky to have you as her Dad. Hugs for both of you.
LOVE the video on the photo page! Happy Birthday Madeline and congrats Matt on surviving the first year being a parent!!!
I am so impressed with what you have accomplished in a year. I don’t know you or Maddy or Liz, but I am pretty sure Liz would be amazed with you right now!! …thinking of you, rae
as always, you are in my thoughts today
Happy birthday sweet Madeline. Those pictures are gorgeous – love the ones with the balloons. Thinking of you today Matt. I’m glad you are where you need to be, surrounded with love. You are an exceptional man. Hang in there.
You guys are in my thoughts and prayers today more than any other day. I hope you find the strength in your daughter and family to be able to celebrate the memory of a wonderful woman.
Thank you for sharing your life and story with us strangers.
Happy (late) Birthday Miss Maddy!
Thinking of you today, Matt, from across the country, and congratulating you on surviving this past year. And for taking such amazing care of that beautiful beautiful baby. This is not supposed to happen, but because it did, I was able to direct an old acquanitance of mine to your website and the foundation when his very young wife died after giving birth to their fifth (FIFTH!) child two months ago. I have no words for him or for you to make it better but I will say thank you for being such a shining example of love and courage and keep on keeping on. You are doing it. With love, from a complete stranger, Liz
Sending you and Maddy lots of love from Minnesota. Take care.
i wish i had brilliant words to tell you to make it feel a little better, but there weren’t any words that comforted me on my one year. it still hurts, but you have a beautiful daughter to help make it a little easier. you’ll be in my prayers more today than usual. keep your head up and know that she’s with you always.
Thinking of you, Maddie, Grandma Candee, Grandpa Tom G, awesome auntie Deb and everyone that knew and loved Liz today.
Matt,
Thanks for sharing your life and journey with the world. All my best to you and Maddy.
hugs and prayers,
Melissa
Thinking of you and Madeline (and Liz, of course). Be well.
Matt,
I found your blog a month or so ago and just can’t believe what an extraordinary father you are. I’m glad that you have Maddy, I’m sure she helped get you through the last year. I hope the two of you enjoy your trip in Mexico. I’m sure Liz is there with you two. Take Care.
To think a year ago we didn’t even “know” your ladies. There’s a good deed in there somewhere. Thanks, Matt. Shine on.
I read your blog often, but I’ve never commented. I had to comment on this one though. That is one BEAUTIFUL baby. Those blue eyes just capture you! You’ve done an amazing job and I wish you all the best!
Great big virtual hugs to you and Maddy, Matt. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Happy Birthday Madeline!! Matt you’re an incredible Father.. an inspiration. Liz is smiling.
Wow. A year. I guess there probably were many days when you didn’t think you would make it a year. But you have, you both have. I am thinking of you guys today.
Matt –
know that today is just another day.
Lizzie would want us all celebrate Maddy’s Birthday and not make a fuss about her. She would want us to remember her as the vibrant, happy, always positive person that she was. Can you see her clapping and smiling for the love you have given Maddy and the accomplishments you’ve made this past year. I continue to shed a tear for Lizzie, yet after wards smile, as I did every time I talked to her. As I think about her I can’t imagine how you, Tom, Candee & Deb feel.
Matt you are an exceptional son, husband, father & friend.
As your dad believe it or not, you inspire me every day with your strength, love & compassion for others.
Thank you for all you do.
Bev & me will be out to see you & Maddy in a couple of weeks.
Love Always Dad
Good for you Matt!!!! I feel like I’ve known you for ever and yet, we’ve never met! I’m so proud of you and all you have accomplished this past year! You’ve done amazing work! You are truely an inspiration to us all and a man I admire!
Madeline is gorgeous! This year is when the fun really begins! Her true personality will begin to emerge and the words will start to flow! (this coming from the mom of a 19mo old) It seems like just yesterday I was celebrating my little girls 1st birthday! Cherish every moment and continue to write down everything. Those funny little things she starts to say or the “where in the hell did that come from” moves she makes are all ones to never forget! I wish you nothing but the best and can’t wait to hear about the year to come!
My heart is with you today!
Stacy
Will never forget and wouldn’t if I could. Thought of you, Madeline, your family and dear friends yesterday at work, holding you so close in thought, willing hugs your way, all of you. Always will.
A year… thinking of Liz, Madeline and you today as always! Courage, peace and love to you my stranger friend.
Thinking of you and Maddy, especially today, Matt.
It’s clear how hard you are working to take precious care of your sweet girl, and in turn, are taking good care of yourself as well.
Keep it up. You’re doing awesome.
As you see the ocean today, may it remind you of the vastness of the love and support that exists out here for you.
My thoughts are with you and your family today. I know how hard these particular days can be. For us, one year, ten years, we have still lost our father and that has changed us all in some ways.
I love the pictures Gina took of you and Maddy, she is great.The one of you two in the cage…Rad. It has always amazed me the power of our children, to help us get through a shitty day by just being themselves. Give that beautiful girl a big hug.
Matt – I know this is a difficult day for you and I share your pain.
Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you always, know that Lizzie is so very proud of you for all that you have done. I believe that she is a Guardian Angel watching over Maddy & you. She is smiling down from above and giving you the strength to move on and raise your beautiful daughter as you have done.
Love you guy’s
G Bev
Thinking of you today and sending love your way.
The pictures are beautiful. Somehow the ones of you and Madeline sitting on the staircase are so symbolic, at least to me, of your journey this last year. Looking forward to seeing what the two of you have in store for this year.
I just want to say that I admired you for doing such an amazing job raising your daughter. She really is a beauty. And for being strong through this difficult year. i’m sorry that you had to go thru this. I wish you both the best in the years to come.
Congratulations on your achievements, altho bittersweet, thru the past year.. May you and your amazingly beautiful daughter continue to learn and grow over the next 365.
my thoughts are with you today and every day! I hope Maddy had a wonderful 1st birthday!
Anniversaries, or terriversaries as some call them are difficult. Hang in there, I am thinking of you today.
And, happy birthday Madeline!
A year can seem so long, but you are right, it is only a drop in the bucket. I have been reading since April and have thought of you and Maddy so many times the last few days. I am sending positive healing energy your way. I experienced 2 very difficult deaths of loved ones in the last year and know that time does not make it the pain go away. But the support of friends, family and the precious unconditional love of a child can make you realize what you still have. You are doing an amazing job and Madeline is incredible. Thank you for sharing so much, you have given as much as I am sure you have received.
Sending lots of love and prayers your way.
i wish i knew what to say. but i will just let your family is in my thoughts today. gina’s pictures and the video are literally breathtaking.
Hugs to you and Madeline on this bittersweet day! I can’t believe she is one! You are doing an Amazing job with her Matt.. I said it almost a year ago, and I can easily say it again. I see her mother in her in every picture you share.. that big soul shining bright for you.
Keep on keeping on – you are an inspiration!
…you know that… (those words were missing from my above post).
My thoughts are with you. Happy Birthday Madeline! I have enjoyed reliving the thrill of parenthood through your eyes over the last year. And as for today, I know OF your pain, but I can’t know your pain. All I can say is I am thinking of you and trying to send good thoughts your way.
Matt, I just have to tell you that your story has touched me so much. I began following your blog about a month ago and a day has not gone by that I haven’t thought of you and your sweet daughter. You are doing an amazing job and Madeline will treasure this record that you are keeping of your lives together when she is older. Happy first birthday to her and I hope time will continue to heal the terrible loss you have suffered. Liz is looking down, smiling at you both I am certain!
thinking of you today Matt and Maddie…
Matt and Madeline,
Just to let you know we are thinking of you.
As “I” choke back the tears for you today, I can only imgine how hard it will be for you to get through it. I went back and read some of your entries from year ago and just wanted to remind you just how far you have come. (Even tho I’m sure you don’t really need reminding!) My “baby” is 25. I wish I would have been 1/2 the mother to my son as compared to the awesome father you have been to Maddy. You are doing EVERYTHING right! Hugs from this bloger stranger.
Happy Birthday to the lovely and beautiful Maddy! My thoughts are with you and your family on these tough days.
Thinking of you (and Madeline) today.
Hugs and love from your friends in Maryland.
I said a prayer for you today on my way to work.
Joy (Atlanta, GA)
Happy Birthday to Maddie. I’ve never met any of you, but the resemblance between Liz and Maddie is undoubtable. You are doing a great job. Maddie will have the most detailed baby book, ever.
Enjoy Mexico, enjoy your baby.
What beautiful pictures in the link… Don’t know what else to say. Can’t imagine how hard this year must have been for you both… You’re in my thoughts.
Happy, happy birthday Maddy! And happy birthday to you, too, Matt. The second year is behind you and now you start a new year with new things to look forward to. I can’t speak to what Year 2 without Liz will be like, but as a mom, I can tell you Year 2 with a baby is even more challenging and rewarding than the first year. Just wait until you look back at this point in 2010 and realize she can talk and walk and is such a little person.
The pictures are beautiful. I love the ones in the stairway/tunnel. Although I would have liked to see one shot looking from the darkness into the light — you know kind of coming out of the darkness kind of thing. But they are all gorgeous.
A year… hard to believe its been that long… but in ways I’m sure it seems like a lifetime. Maddy has had an incredible first year of life… which will be followed by many more awesome years. You’re doing a great job… and Maddy will forever appreciate that! Both of you are continually in my thoughts and prayers.
The pictures that Gina took were absolutely amazing!
Happy Birthday to the little one! You are a terrific father and Maddy is one awesome little chick. Love the photos. Except the one with the balloons. The underground-looking one. Were you are holding her. It’s bringing back childhood drama and Pennywise the Clown. If you don’t know who that is, forget I said anything. Dude will give you nightmares!
Happy Birthday Madeline!!! Matt you’re in my prayers today more than ever
Happy Birthday Miss Maddy! It is amazing how fast time can go and yet seem so slow! I just celebrated my sons 2nd Birthday and it seems like yesterday I brought him home!
Happy Birthday (yesterday) Maddie.
Matt ~ hugs to you. You have a beautiful daughter….I know Liz is looking down on you both and smiling.
Bless you both!!
I am sending you an eternity of blessings, love, health, peace and lots and lots of joyful moments. Enjoy your beautiful (one year old!) baby girl, I am so happy you have her.
thinking of you two today. mexico is awesome.. enjoy ! she is beautiful and you are doing a great job!
Thinking of you Matt~
Oh, and Maddy looked quite cute in her birthday outfit yesterday
happy birthday maddy and i hope these days are kind and gentle to you all.
the pictures are breathtaking. there is something metaphorical about the picture of you guys behind the chain link fence. what a striking shot.
Just wanted to send some love and hugs your way.
Sending hugs your way!!
Lots of love and prayers for you today and always.
Sending you and Maddy and your families big *HUGS* today. Hope Maddy had a great first birthday yesterday. Thank you for continuing to share your story with us daily, ive enjoyed following your blog very much.
Thinking of you, Maddy and your families today. Hope you are finding peace at the ocean…and I’m sure a margarita wouldn’t hurt either.
Thinking of you both.
Not sure what my year mark holds for me but thinking about it and thinking about yours, brings tears to my eyes.
Thinking of you and your family today – lots of prayers heading your way. Thank you so much for sharing with us this past year – and watching Madeline grow up is such a treat for us.
Beautiful pictures of a stunning little lady! I especially love the daddy/daughter pics! My thoughts and prayers are with you today – big hugs for you both!
I’m thinking of you and praying for you today, Matt.
I am thinking about you and Madeline today. Sqeeze that baby extra hard today!
those pics are stellar. something great about you two in the cage with the balloons. i don’t know.
much love to you two and your family.
Thinking of you today.
You are an inspiration.
Best day possible to you and Maddy under the circumstances. Lots of good thoughts and wishes your way.
A year can feel like a minute or a week or ten thousand years. Thinking of you and your blondie and your families today. Tomorrow will be the same, but at least it won’t be the 25th.
You and Maddy are in my thoughts and prayers today. Happy Birthday to your sweet girl! You are doing a fantastic job with her.
Today is a day of reflection and I hope it brings you peace and some kind of understanding! Maddy has two amazing parents and although Liz is not physically, here she is here in spirit always! She lives through that little girl! You have done an amazing job this last year raising Maddy! The way she looks at you says it all!!! I hope you are having a wonderful time in Mexico. Happy Birthday Maddy!!!
Sending you and Maddy love and peace, yesterday, today and going forward.
You are an amazing family.
Thinking of you both. What a year indeed.
Happy Belated Birthday Madeline!
Matt, We are thinking of you today. You are often on our minds. I have said it a million times but I will say it again and continue to say it – You are truly an inspiration to all. You make me want to be a better mom, wife, friend, daughter, sister, etc. THANK YOU! The world appreciates all that you do to help others. May you find comfort in the memories you have of beautiful Liz. I am so thankful you have such a beautiful little blond girl to keep you going. She is one lucky girl to have a father like you. Best to you and Madeline always.
Wow – she is gorgeous! But then, you already knew that.
Thinking of you and Maddy on this difficult day – wish I knew what to say that would make things the tiniest bit better, but I don’t so just hold onto that beautiful baby girl of yours and it will get easier with more time. Hugs from the MN!
Happy Birthday to Maddy! She’s so lucky to have such a great Daddy.
Thinking lots about all three of you today. Hoping that you and Madeline are having a nice time away (by the looks of the pictures you definitely are) and that you are making some happy memories on this day.
*The birthday photo shoot is amazing.
Happy Birthday Maddy!
My husband’s year mark isn’t until next Feb since his father just passed away but I already think about it-and 1 month, Father’s Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas…..Sucks that we all have to go through it at some point. We just get up every day & keep going. Thinking of you & your daughter today (who is such a cutie!).
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET MADDY!!!! Matt my thoughts and prayers are with you on this day the 25th.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today. Stay strong! Your daughter is such a beautiful blessing
Hope you guys had a great birthday celebration yesterday! Am continuing to send good thoughts to you today, hope you’re getting through it as best as you can.
Thinking about both of you, and sending our love.
She is 1, that is something to be so proud of. Enjoy every single day with that beautiful little girl.
thinking of you lots today, Matt. Liz is a beautiful soul and I have no doubt that her spirit is shining extra bright on you & Maddy these last couple of days. Look for her in the little, simple places…
I hope you find a moment of peace today, we are here for you today and always!
Day by day, Matt. Thinking of you.
Happy Birthday Maddy! You and your daddy are very amazing people! Thank you Matt for sharing your life and giving others hope!
Thinking of you and Maddy, Liz’s family, and your family today. I hope that you can find comfort today.
as bonnie ‘prince’ billy says…
it’s all right
and everything comes
down to this
that everything there ever was
or will be
is all there is
thinking of you and madeline today.
Prayers and hugs coming your way…..
Just wanted to let you know that you are absolutely amazing. You are such a wonderful father and Maddy is going to thank you everyday when she is older and understands what happened. You did NOT curl up in a ball like you probably wanted to….you were there for that beautiful and precious little baby girl. I can’t imagine the pain you must go through everyday….but you still get up and put your daddy pants on and you give Maddy everything you can possibly can. You made it through all of the firsts…..I know that does not mean that it will get easier and I know that Liz seems further away but one day……one day it will get easier. Thinking of you guys today and always. :0)
Thinking of you. You are an incredible dad. Hold that little girl close.
Thinking of you and Madeline today. Hoping that Madeline’s smiles bring you some peace. Much love to you and your families….always.
I am thinking and praying for you today, Matt. I offer many a virtual hug! Happy Birthday, Madeline – you have an awesome father!!
Happy Birthday Madeline. Matt you’re in all our hearts today!
I hate today. What the fuck am I supposed to say? “Happy Death-iversary”? It’s another day, in a long line of days.
I hope it doesn’t suck. I’m glad you’re in a beautiful place, with your friends and your baby.
Seriously. Today can kiss my Irish ass, talk to The Hand, go to hell, and bite me.
Thank you a million times over for sharing this past year with us stranger friends. You and Madeline are amazing, and my thoughts and prayers are with you. Happy Birthday Maddy.
Thinking of you all today. Hope Maddy had a wonderful Birthday!
First time commenter, long time reader. I felt compelled to comment today. Your documentation of this time is such an amazing gift to Maddy. You and Maddy are in my thoughts and I’m sending you strength and peace.
One day at a time, you will continue to do this.
Happy Birthday Maddy!
xoxo.
nbl~
Peace to all who love Liz.
thinking of you and your families today. grandma bev’s comment made me cry. hugs.
Happy Birthday Madeline!
Thinking of you both, all 3 of you actually, today & every day.
The creepiest of love being sent straight to Mexico.
xoxo xoxo xoxo
Thinking of you and Maddie today. I hope she had a great birthday and I would expect that you allowed her to smash cake everywhere in the grand tradition of first birthdays! I can’t wait to see pics. I am sure today completely sucks for you but know there are so many people sending you their thoughts and prayers.
Thinking of you today…as I do everyday. Peace to you, your family and Liz’s family. You will be in my prayers.
Sending my thoughts your way. Thinking about you guys a lot this week.
I posted yesterday, but I’m not sure if it went up. I’m wondering, do you actually have time to read all these comments?
Love the pictures. Madeline is beautiful. Just like her mother.
I’m just north of the MN, so I’ve often been able to relate to the geography of your posts from home.
I’ve been reading for the year and haven’t yet commented. Never knowing just what to say. I’m thinking of you guys today.
Hoping that today brings more joy than pain to you and your family. Live, Love, Laugh..
Thinking of you and Maddy on this difficult day and hoping you make it through. That’s really all you can do.
What a year indeed. Congrats on making it through one day at a time. I’ve been reading every step of the way.
Just came across your story. Keep your head up and looking to the sky…. Liz is everywhere with you! Happy birthday Maddy!
You say the things I struggle to put into words about the situation. Maddy continues to help you through the days, as Hadley does for me. Doesn’t mean I/we don’t cry, just means we keep going for them.
My heart is aching for you today. I am thinking of you and your family and sending my prayers. HUGS
those pictures are breathtaking.
Beautiful pics Matt….Maddy is gorgeous! Those eyes are stunning!
Sending you both lots of love & hugs today:)
Sending lots of love and hugs your way today. Hope Madeline had a fucking awesome first birthday!
Thinking about you guys.
Glad you are in beautiful Mexico.
Matt, a year may seem nothing. A second, like you said. But take a close look at everything you accomplished in 365 days. Look at this beautiful, healthy, happy, funny, amazing daughter. Look at all you went through, look at all the strength you’ve had. It’s amazing. You amaze me every time. This day sucks, big time. But this is not a day about death. It’s a day about turning the most shitty thing that could happen to anyone into something that has meaning, and hope. I wish you’re finding some comfort. Hope Liz’ family and friends are too. Lots of love.
Much love to you, Maddy, and your family today.
Gorgeous photos! Happy Birthday to Maddie. She is so adorable and obviously such a happy baby who adores her Daddy. Thinking of you both, as well as all who loved Liz. I hope it’s brings a small comfort to know that so many people are holding you and your family close in spirit. Wishing you peace and happiness.
three hundred and sixty five- three hundred and schmixty schmive.
I wrote a whole long touchy feely comment- but i dunno.. the date is bad enough….
yep you sure have a good little blond there- doing her part I am sure to keep ya smiling..
Happy Birthday Maddy! I will be thinking of you and your family and saying an extra prayer for all of you today.
Thinking and praying for you & Madeline!
Those pictures are beautiful. I love the outifts you chose.
Saw your article in People Magazine and I’ve been following your blog ever since. I haven’t posted before but feel compelled to on this day… in those photos, one can see Liz through Maddy’s eyes, she shines so brightly. SO, SO beautiful they both are… all of my positive thoughts and energy are with you on this day!
You’re a wonderful person and a great Father, Matt. {{HUGS}} to you and Madeline on this day.
My prayers and thoughts for you and maddy ,Happy Birthday Maddy…i hope you find peace and draw comfort from your babygirl .Liz will be so proud of you
M. + M.,
You are loved, and I really believe Liz would be so proud of everything you’re doing and have accomplished.
Today, I will celebrate the joyful life that Liz lived, the amazing baby she carried, and the courage and strength of her husband and family.
Hello!
Happy Birthday to Maddy! I have been reading since last June/July but I am one of the lurkers/creepers/strangers that reads every post and looks at every photo, but I never write anything. I love reading about you two and I think of you both often. You are doing such a wonderful job with Madeline.
Love, Alaina
you and Maddy are in my thoughts and prayers today
My heart breaks for your loss and soars for your gain. Love each other…..it is the greatest remembrance for those that are gone.
I don’t know what words to impart, but from my heart, I hope god (or the universe) can help you carry some of what you grieve. You have a beautiful daughter that is so blessed to have you.
We will be thinking of you today, and on many other days. You’ve touched so many lives.
Thinking of you and Maddy today and every day, Matt. You’re an inspiration to us all. What a year it has been. You’re so strong and Liz is SO proud of you, I know she is. Many prayers for you, your family and Liz’s family.
Take some time today to spend in quiet reflecting on all that you have accomplished in a year. You’re really amazing and I hope you know that and give yourself a huge self pat on the back! So many people would have just given up, sat around in their house. You’ve helped so many other people get through a difficult time. You’ve shared your life, your heart and your struggles with the world. You’ve managed to give that little girl the best start to life and she will be forever grateful to you for that. And so will Liz. Her spirit lives on in Maddy. Enjoy the rest of your vacation and have a safe trip home!
There will never be another March 24 or March 25, without us thinking about you, and all that you’ve been through.
Happy Birthday Maddy!!
Thinking of both of you as always.
Hope you had a gerat 1st birthday Miss Madeline. The pictures are gorgeous, as always!
Hugs and kisses to the birthday girl. Hugs and kisses to Matt and Deb and Tom and Candee too. Thinking of you all, thinking of Lizzy, still and always will be thinking why.
Love to you all!
Amy and Emily
thinking of you and Maddy and your family.
Blessings today, Matt.
I know it’s been a rough year -I’m just glad for your sake (and Madeline’s) that you’ve made it through as well as you have. Here’s to a better upcoming year!
i read them all.
i really do.
they help.
they really do.
Just wanted you to know that you’ve got people here in Portland thinking of you, Maddy, Liz and your families. We are sending all our positive vibes your way and wishing you some moments of peace today. Take care of yourself.
Right before Mags drifted off to sleep last night she said, “Haaaaaappppi Biirrrrfay, Madddddddddi” or at least that’s what is sounded like to me. Hope the sun, sand, smiles and laughter bring you some serenity today.
love that song.
listening to palace as i type this, as maddy naps.
thank you.
Thinking of you and your family today. The pictures are beautiful.
I don’t think I’ve ever commented, but have been reading for a long time. Just wanted to say that you and Madeline And Liz have been in my thoughts a lot the past few days. My sympathies are with you. Your story reminds me not to take my family for granted. Thanks for sharing.
Oh, and I especially love the third picture down on Gina Lee’s website. Fabulous!
Thinking and praying for you and Maddy today!!!
Madd & Madeline – Although we have never met I am thinking of both of you today and hope that you are enjoying the time you have together. I can’t imagine your struggle and wish you both much love and happiness in the future.
I was just directed to your blog today by a friend. I am so saddened by your loss. It is so completely unfair you have had to go through all of that, and that your sweet wife hasn’t been by your side this past year to share the baby’s life with you. Actually, I take that back–I’m SURE she’s been by your side, but it is unfair you can’t see her there. I know she is with you, though.
I hate March. I lost my mother in March, too. Not even close to as traumatic as what you went through, but your experience gives me yet another reason to hate the month.
I will be thinking of you two always, and following your story. God bless you both.
Sending positive thoughts your way!!
Thank you for letting us sit back and enjoy this journey with you.
Stare at that beautiful girl all day today…
Been thinking about you two all morning. For some reason I went back and watched the video from April 23, 2008, the day I found your site. What a year, tears, sorrow, anger, laughter and joy. How far you two have come. Wishing you some peace today, and know many are standing with you.
Thinking fo you, Maddy and your families today, tomorrow, and everyday!! You have done such an amazing job raising that beautiful girl of yours this past year!! You truly are an inspiration to us Matt, and you should be so proud to have made it this far in a year!! HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY MADELINE….so many people are thinking of you guys today and in the upcoming dayus and wishing you peace and love. You are definitely right where you need to be, and I hope you are enjoying the sunshine and your vacation. Thanks again for sharing your journey and the past year with us…..I know Liz was celebrating right along with you guys on Maddie’s special day!! Take care and do what you need to do!! The photos, as always, were amazing Matt….definitely shows the love that little girl has for you and vice versa
Hi Matt, sending love and strength your way to get you through today and always.
Oh that blondie is absolutely beautiful…just like her momma!! You are both such an inspiration and you are living each day just as Liz would want you to!! Embrace each day and may your soul be filled with peace!! Happy Birthday Princess Maddy!! Big squeezes from Iowa…you have all touched so many!! Be well!!
Matt,
I’ve been reading your blog since last April and am constantly awed and inspired by how amazing you are. Thank you for sharing Madeline. She is truly a gift and you are the best DAD ever. You inspire people all around the world and we are all very lucky to learn from you. Continuing to pray and send you wonderful thoughts…
Hey M + M…Hope you are having a blast in Mexico! I went to the blog and had an overwhelming happiness and sadness. I felt like today was the day that I had to contribute. Made a small donation today to the foundation (it’s all I could do) but I know that every little bit helps. Matt I can’t tell you enough how special you are and what a wonderful thing you are doing. Not only for Maddy, but for the thousands of other people who you are helping. Your blog is an inspiration and so is the foundation! You should be really proud, as a great Daddy and as a true philanthropist. Keep up the great work…and I expect to see some new pics of the 2 of you sporting some kind of tan!!! XOXOXO
I am thinking of you, Maddy, Tom, Candee, and Awesome Auntie Deb today…may you find comfort in the beautiful baby girl and happy memories that Liz has left for you…
Off to donate $25 to the Liz Logelin Foundation….
Thinking of you today. Hoping that the painful memories may be overshadowed by the happiness of your sweet Maddy. You’ve done a fabulous job over the past year – what a great Dad!
One more thing….I read that some of your readers were wondering where to get Madeline’s cute birthday dress…I ordered it from: http://www.bswanky.com if you want to pass that info. along. Thanks! Take care.
Lots of love being sent to you. A happy Birthday to Maddy and a hug for you. You are amazing and doing such a good job.
Matt,
Reading your blog this past year there have been many, many times that I have wished I could have done something to make things better for you. Still today I wish there was something….anything I could do. But there is nothing is there? I can only offer love and support as I (and many others) have been doing and will continue to do as long as you and Maddy need it. We are thinking of you, Maddy and Liz’s family today and always……
BIG HUGS!
Oh and I forgot to say that I LOVE all Gina’s pics! They turned out beautiful!! Thanks for sharing them!
If we are ever in LA again I am going to have to call her to take pics of my Anna.
All I can say is “WOW” Sending love and hugs once again from Central CA
Matt, I’ve been reading your blog since last April, and though I’ve never commented, I thought now would be the time to do so. Seeing how well you’ve done with Madeline and how strong you’ve handled your situation. This whole community surrounding you is bursting with pride.
Happy Birthday Maddie.
Happy Birthday sweet Madeline!
Such beautiful pictures.
Matt, your words are always so to the point and so, so poignant. You are doing a wonderful job!
Here’s to many beautiful moments with your little one
You have come so far in the one year, may your heart continue to heal and your shining star continue to show you why you’re here on this planet! You have touched the lives of thousands of people and although they do not all reply here, know that you are an amazing influence on this world! Thank you for your honesty and laying your heart out there for the world to see, I am sure it has changed a great deal of lives!
Happy Birthday to Maddie, I look forward to watching her second year…don’t stop posting!
Happy Happy Birthday Pretty G!irl (a day late but the wishes are still there). We hope that you had the best birthday a kid could have times a million. Hugs and kisses to you sweetie pie!
Take care of yourself today Matt. Sending lots and lots of love your way today and also hopes that today (like I think I said before) goes by fast. I know we are all glad that you two are out in Mexico and we hope that all that sun and sand and pretty water helps bring you a lil peace and comfort.
Crazy that it’s been a year. They say time flies even faster when you have kids and I’m sure looking at Miss Maddy proves that. You’ve been amazingly strong and unbelievably inspiring to me and so many others. You’ve rolled with the punches (and the bitch slaps) that life has thrown at you and look what you’ve accomplished: a beautiful, smart, sweet and HAPPY little girl who thinks she has the best daddy in the whole wide world: and we all agree she does. Plus a foundation to help others in this similar situation. You fucking rock. Keep it up, keep your head up, and keep taking care of each other. Here’s to a much, much better year for you both. *HUGS*
xoxoxoxo,
Tricia and Bella in the So. Cal
And I finally comment after reading for the past year. Happy Birthday Madeline. The first of many wonderful ones to come.
Thinking of you every day, but today especially!
PS. Lots of love and big hugs to all the fam and friends who are missing lovely Liz today. I hope that today goes by fast for you all as well. Take care. <3
xoxoxoxo,
Tricia and Bella in the So.Cal
We sang happy birthday to Maddy yesterday – while we looked at her super cute pics on Twitter!
It’s hard to believe its been a year – you have been and are such an inspiration to everyone that your lives have crossed paths.
We send our prayers to you, Maddy, Liz, Deb, all of the grandparents and every one that knew and loved Liz. I am fighting back tears for you today so I can’t imagine what you all must be feeling!
Hold each other close today and every day and know that this big community that surrounds you all is thinking of you and holding you up!
Peace, love and strength to you all!
Take care, Jen and Zoe in the MN
Woke this morning and thought of you and Maddy. Took a peek at my just turned two year old daughter still fast asleep and my eyes welled with tears. Thank you for sharing your life with us in the past year, I don’t know you except for this blog, but you’ve taught me more about living and hope than some lifelong friends. Madeline is growing into such a beautiful little girl. Inside and out. You can just see it in her face. She has a glow in her eyes that has to be sent from her mommy! And I know in my heart that Liz is looking down at you all and smiling at her beautiful daughter and awesome daddy!
I have no words of wisdom or brilliant quote. I won’t echo your praises like the 300 before me (although I do think you rock just a tad), I simply hope you find at least a single ray of sunshine today. Take Maddy to pick some flowers for her Mama from the Garden of Awesomeness. May your day be peaceful.
Best of luck making it through this tough day. Your little one shines.
Thinking of you hardcore today Matt and Madeline. I hope you find peace.
Gina’s pics were amazing. You are truly blessed and Liz is watching and loving every minute of it.
matt and madeline, i’m sending oodles of love your way today. matt, you are doing a wonderful job with that sweet girl of yours.
thank you for sharing your lives with us. xo
Happy Birthday to the little one and hugs to her daddy.
New to the site. In awe of it all. Thanks for what you do.
Unbelievably beautiful pictures of Maddy! Happy Birthday to her! First time commenter here…been reading since the People article. You are an amazing father, it’s so obvious! Best wishes to you & Maddy always!
The pictures are absolutely amazing! I love them. Praying for you today and sending wishes of peace and happiness your way…
Hi Matt, you and Liz’s family have occupied my thoughts all day. I am so sorry you are enduring this heartache. I don’t comment very often, but read regularly. My son likes to watch Maddy’s videos, “cute baby” he says. (He’s 2!) Thinking of you guys…Melissa
Matt–
Thinking of you.
-Kelly
You’re doing a great job! Great pics by the way, they are so cute! Such a pretty daddy’s girl!
My thoughts are with you today…I hope it is a day of sharing wonderful memories with friends.
A year is arbitrary when I really miss the other little blonde. Thinking of you and the Goodmans today.
love Maleeda
fuck.
me too.
Thank you for sharing your story Matt. You have helped me in more ways then you know by just reading your blog. My thoughts are with you today and everyday…
Saba
Hi Matt,
I found your blog skimming through a People’s magazine and it just so happened to be the anniversary/birthday of two very special ladies. I am saddened to hear about your loss, but delighted to read the amazing life you’ve pulled together for your daughter. If I can be half the mom that you are, I would be honored. You are an amazing man! Thanks for keeping it so real, for bring tears and smiles and for living life for your daughter the best that you know how! I’ll be a regular reader now and I can’t wait to hear the many more adventures that you come across!!
I also have two small daughters and can relate to a lot of the “girl” issues you’ll come across.
Thanks again for keeping it real.
Congratulations and stay strong!
It’s no wonder you turned out to be the exceptional human that you are with parents like yours! Love the support from your dad and Grandma Bev. Gotta make you feel great! If we could all have parents like that, it would be a better world. Lucky Maddy to have all of you! Today….just BE…no expectations…kiss your blondie for us!
Happy 1st Birthday Madeline!!!
BEAUTIFUL PICS!! Happy 1st Birthday Maddy!! My thoughts and prayers are with you today.
Thinking of you today, Matt.
Hoping that all the love being sent your way from all of us helps just a little. Hang in there, Matt, and keep on keeping on.
I cannot tell you how touching those photos are and how often I think of you and Madeline and of Liz’s family. Ever since you posted the lost photo of Liz at your wedding, I can almost imagine the grief that you must feel. I’ll never understand, but I can imagine how acute the longing must be to see her for just one hour, to be able to show her Maddy. It is so immensely unfair. I still hurt for you all. I am sorry that Maddy’s birthday will always be a reminder of this sadness. Safe travels, and hoping you get more than your fair share of Tecates.
All I can say is WOW!
Matt,
Big hugs to you and Maddy on this difficult day. I actually feel like I know you both since I was introduced to your blog while Liz was still in the hospital and met you guys briefly at her 5k benefit.
Thank you so much for introducing your lives to us and allowing us to watch you and Maddy grow. You both have come such a long way!
Yes, a year. No year could ever be harder, or ever will be again.
You can deal with anything, after this.
That’s empowerment you didn’t ask for.
But fuck, you can really use it.
Happy Birthday Madeline!
Thinking and praying for you Matt.
The pictures turned out wonderful. Maddy has the most amazing eyes! Happy Belated Birthday Maddy!! Thinking of you all today and everyday. Keep your chin up Matt, you are doing a wonderful job.
I hope you find some peace today…you and madeline are in our thoughts and prayers in PA.
Matt – thinking of you and Liz’s family today. May your time away with Maddy and your memories of Liz bring you comfort today.
Matt the pictures are amazing.
Hope you can find peace today, Matt. My daughter Jordan (almost 2) and I love all the adorable pics and videos of your sweet girl! Jordan always says, “Look at cute baby!” We’re all thinking of you today.
perhaps they are not the stars,
but the love of our lost ones
shining down
prayers to you and madaline today!!
I do not normally read blogs, but my wife has told me about your story. I just finished watching the video, and I have to say as a man, you are doing an outstanding job. As a father and grandfather, I understand the love for our children, but when I watched you with your little girl, there is something else there; a wisdom in your eyes that must come from grief. You are a person to be admired. My wife pointed out your fathers comment, if all sons had the support of their father like yours, this world would be a better place. Thank you for sharing your story.
every time i watch the on location/photo video it gives me goosebumps.
Matt: It is 1:30 here in Chicago, been thinking about you and Maddy all day long and of course Liz. I hope you have had time to think about everything that has happened over the last year and say to yourself, I survived. I moved forward….I know your wife is resting in peace because she knows that you are a great father to Maddy. You have a health, happy baby and thank god for that. As you said the 25th is another day, it’s another day to miss Liz, you will miss what could of been. Like I said in my last message you have keep Liz alive with everything you have done, your Foundation, your 5k’s and your blog. I hope that Liz’s family always keep the memories of Liz as a child alive for Maddy for they can help you with the things you didn’t know about Liz. As always my heart aches for your loss, you are a good person and hopefully this next year will bring you more peace.
Rosann (Chicago)
I can say simply~You’re doing a great job.
Strange how your heart can ache for people you’ve never met.
You’ve become regular thoughts in the minds of strangers all over. Yesterday while driving to the grocery store I thought about how it was Maddy’s birthday. Today I thought about how I can’t bear the thought of all the pain weighing down your heart today. And everyday.
Thinking of you and Madeline.
Hope your mind can distance itself from the horrible memories this day brings, if only for a moment. Thankfully, Liz left you the absolute best medicine to be able to survive this day for years to come. Thinking of you, Maddy & all those close to Liz today. Sending positive thoughts your way. Thanks for inspiring me to live for the now!
Just all my best to you two.
Peace…today and always.
Matt – I’ve been thinking of you all (you, Maddy, your family, Liz’s family, all of your friends) today. I am hoping that if enough of us are thinking of you maybe in some miraculous way the pain of this anniversary will be lessened. I hope there are moments in this day that are good. I have been so amazed and touched by you in the past year, you are doing a wonderful, wonderful job and inspire me.
Thinking of you, Liz, and Maddy today, Matt. Liz was such a beautiful woman… looking at your pictures of her you can see what an amazing soul she had. I know she is smiling down on you both today- the year has probably flown for her as well. The pictures are beyond precious- she is stunning. xoxo
Words can not express what I want to say…all I know as a mom, I can say that Liz is so proud of you and Madeline. Peace be with you, Madeline and all of your friends & family.
Just wanted you to know you and Maddy are in my thoughts and prayers. Can’t even imagine your pain and loss but enjoy your wonderful week together and know that Liz is with you in heart and soul and looking down at you both so very very proud:) You are a wonderful daddy to a precious little birthday girl! Happy 1st Birthday Maddy. Can’t wait to hear about many many more! Hugs to you both!
Julie In North Carolina
Happy Birthday Maddie!!!!!! Congrats on being a daddy for a year. You’ve done an amazing job, Matt!
My thoughts are with both of you today. The pictures are awesome!
Thinking of you today & belated Happy Birthday to Maddy!
We’ll never forget that brief yet heartwrenching e-mail you sent us last year and what an impact you’ve made on us and so many.
Kay & May from Cribsheet
i’m thinking of you guys and your families today.
i have gained so much perspective on the value of each day by reading for the past 9 months. I can’t thank you enough for that.
i challenge everyone who reads your site daily, and is inspired by you, madeline and liz’s story, to make a donation of any size to Liz’s foundation. i think that’s the best thing any of us could do to make the day special.
happy 1st birthday maddy!
matt – i’ve been thinking about you.
thanks for letting us all go along for the ride.
to the bittersweetness of it all…
stepping out from the blog woodwork, to let you know i’m thinking of you & your family and wishing you a beautiful sunset of remembrance today…
it’s a new, newer year, keep on keeping on..you’re doing great, even when you think you’re not…hang in there..there’s a beautiful sunrise coming tomorrow and if not, then the next day. it’s all ok. ok? Take care
You and Maddy are in my thoughts!
The pictures are freaking adorable! They bring tears to my eyes they are so sweet!
Hey Matt, I know you’ve already had nearly 400 comments today, but I just had to let you know that I’ve been thinking and praying for you and Liz’s family today. I hope you can find some peace and be able to reflect on all of the wonderful moments you and Liz shared together, today. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. I wish I could say more, but just know you have so many out there that feel like they know you and little Maddy, and we’ll all be thinking and praying for you both for many days to come.
Just finished reading your entire blog over the past 4 days and I have not been able to stop thinking about you and your family. I have a son who will be a year old in a week and seeing the way Madeline has grown over the past year hit so close to home. You have made such an impact on so many people you have never met. I appreciate everyone and everything so much more now. You are a wonderful and inspiring person. You are in my prayers today.
Happy birthday, sweet girl! What a wonderful day to celebrate.
Even the 25th is something to celebrate…it’s a full year that you have survived, Matt. You have done the unthinkable, and while it sucks ass, you have been such a fucking rockstar, and you have done such incredible things. Beautiful photos!!!
Sending prayers and strength to you and Madeline today and everyday.
Matt,
Your strength and courage is remarkable. I have been following your journey this past year and have been so moved. While I can’t imagine what you have been through/are going through I think all you have done for Liz and for Maddie is amazing. Maddie is so beautiful and must be such a joy amidst such sadness. The video and pictures are beautiful. I just wanted to let you know, that like many others I have cried, and laughed(at the robot) right along with you.
Happy Birthday Madeline!
You are in our thoughts and prayers today too. Thanks for being such an inspiration to those in situations like yours…heck to those not in situations like yours as well. We’ve given a little something to Maddy for her birthday at the foundation. Our best wishes to both of you in the upcoming years.
Madeline is soooo beautiful! Her eyes are gorgeous! Happy 1st birthday!
You’re amazing Matt! Your beautiful little girl will never doubt that she was loved & cherished. You’re documenting, & sharing it with us in such an intimate way. Thanks.
time is only a measurement…it doesn’t change the love, loss or longing…you will get through…i wish i had amazing words to make it all seem ok…your little blonde may be the only one who can make it all seem ok…she is turning into an amazing little girl…you will be a stronger person everyday…and i am sure Liz is with you helping you everyday…enjoy every moment…they are the one thing you have FOREVER!!!! (((hugs)))
Dear Matt, On this chilly, cloudy, blustery Minneapolis day, may the sunshine of your love be in the hearts of you and your family. (And never mind the Cream reference.)
My heart feels for you, Matt. This is one anniversary you never should have had to “celebrate”. It’s so unfair. But, it must be an amazing feeling to know that even though Liz is not here physically her positive energy is still touching lives the world over day after day. You guys are all really amazing people and I only wish that I could have come across you under totally different circumstances. Hug Maddy extra tight and giver her lots and lots of kisses today…
Thinking of you Matt, and Maddy and your entire extended family. The first year is the biggest milestone because it includes the first times without … I’m not sure if I worded that correctly, but I’m sure you know what I mean.
Stay strong, my friend. You have all my support, encouragement, admiration and love. Big hugs to all of you, today and always.
I’ve been reading your blog since the Trib story. Thinking of you today. Thanks for sharing your story with us all. I’ve learned a lot from you along the way. Loved the new pictures too.
I have no words I can say to make any of this better. I can’t believe it’s been a year already. I’m glad you and Maddy are some place where you both can enjoy yourself. I woke up today and thought of you two. My family and I have you both in our thoughts and prayers.
Just think, You made it and are making it through this. You dear can tackle anything!
Lots of love coming your way and Maddy’s way!
Hey Matt, Maddy and Family!
Happy birthday Maddy! Wish we could have seen you guys while we were out there! Ah well, next time. I hope you’re having a great time in Mexico!
That child. My goodness. She looks so much like Liz. Absolutely beautiful. I hope you’re not hurting too much today. I’m just so, so sorry. There’s just nothing else to say. Have thought about your stranger self all day today and yesterday. I hope today is going ok, and I hope that there is some sign of the pain easing a bit in the days and weeks to come.
The pictures are just beautiful.
HUGE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! The best is yet to come.
Words aren’t enough. But you are amazing. You’ve taken the worst situation and turned it around, raising a beautiful, happy little girl who will know her mother in ways no one could.
Liz is with you all every day.
So so so much love to you and Miss Madeline. I feel as though I have been reading your blog much longer than a year – here’s to many, many more and the many happy memories that will be made during the journey! You’re a fantastic father!
Sending you lots of strength hope and love today. You are a very strong man and a wonderful father. Keep your head up hun!
Hi Matt, Goodmans, & Miss Maddie…sending my love, thinking of you all. I agree with Maleeda, and I hope that Liz is all around you today, making sure that you all feel that smile of hers.
Take care of each other and as always…keep swimming.
Thinking of you today and every day, Matt. The pictures are breathtaking.
Asalamu Alaykom Mr. Matt,
I have wished every month on the 24th for it to be a happy day for Miss Madeline.
I have wished every month on the 25th for it to not completely suck for you.
In between those two is the bittersweet…or rather (for you) the sweetbitter. In between those two dates is YOU. On one hand…no… on one wrist is the 24 and on the other is the 25 and you are literally in between.
And you have evolved. You have gone through an ordeal which could have crushed someone else but not you. I’m proud of you not because you are, “the best father,” or “the perfect dad,” but because you are NOT. You are Matt Logelin, husband to Liz and father to Madeline. You stayed YOU. You stayed imperfectly wonderful.
Miss Madeline. What can I say? Such a mashallah beauty! Helluwa! Helluwa! Helluwa! The fact that she was born was all Your Liz. The fact that she grew to one-year-old is all up you and your families and friends. You didn’t really want a village to raise your daughter. You wanted her mom to raise her. You know what? It took all of us to try to fill those tiny pumps–we can’t…no one can, but we’ve tried our best to be a loving presence.
I’m sorry for the times that sucked. I’m sorry for the moments and the comments that hurt. I’m sorry for the nights without sleep and for the days without end.
I absolutely love you and Miss Madeline with that good love that is pure and from me to God to you. Whatever has happened to your belief system over these months, I know that you have a deeper belief in goodness. There is a LOT of goodness in the world and there is more of it because of Liz and you and Maddy.
May The Goodness which flowed into the world on the 24, and changed course on the 25, never stop bringing peace, love, and happiness to all.
I am so sorry for your loss. Your daughter is beautiful and you are doing a wonderful job.
Thinking of you and sending lots and love and light your way.
Happy Birthday (a day late) Maddie-thought of you yesterday. In honor of your birthday and your awesome mom…we are going to sign up for the foundation (the monthly withdrawals)…we keep putting it off and have no excuse for not doing it sooner. Now seems like the perfect time.
I keep watching the clock….waiting for the actual one year moment. What difference does it make?? It means you two are survivors on so many levels…and this is just another stepping stone to your future…whatever it holds.
Thinking of you and Madeline today.
Wonderful Pictures! Happy Birthday Sweet Girl!!!!!
Like so many of your readers, my heart sank a little when I saw it was the 25th. My thoughts and prayers are with you today.
*thinking of you guys today*
All my love – darc
Thinking of you guys today and yesterday. Happy Birthday to your beautiful Maddie. You are doing a phenomenal job with her. I’m sure Liz is so proud of both of you…
Time will make a fool of everyone. But only love will make a fool of time.
Wishing you and your family lots of strength and love today.
You are so right – a year is a second, a blink, nothing and everything.
I’m so glad you and your Madeline have each other. I’m thinking of the two of you today. I’m thinking of Liz today.
Matt,
Congratulations on making it through your first year of parenthood. What a year it has been. I can only imagine how difficult today is for you. Just know that you are doing an amazing job with your beautiful Maddy. I am certain Liz is proud.
I have been reading your blog for about 8 months now, and this is my first comment. I know I don’t know you, but I am so fucking proud of everything you have done this year getting out of bed every morning, putting Madeline first, remembering Liz the most amazing way possible (helping others in this position)- it’s amazing. You are such an inspiration and an amazing father. What you’re doing for Maddy is so priceless and she is such a lucky girl- to know what love is and have it showered on her every day no matter how much it hurts you. Keep on with what you’re doing- it’s amazing.
Just wanted to let you know that you and Madeline are on my mind today. Nothing I can do or say will make it any better, but just know that you are in my prayers.
Thinking of you and Maddy!
A year can move by so quickly. Thinking of you and your family on this difficult day. I am very glad you have documented your life this past year and shared it with the world.
What gorgeous pics and that video that Chris did was just….so, so beautiful. Hold on, Matt. We’re supporting you every step. Happy Birthday to Madeline!
As someone who as read your blog for almost a year now, but has never posted, I really wanted to say that you do such an amazing job as a father to your little girl. When she’s older, and she can truly understand what you’ve had to go through while at the same time being full-time daddy, she will undoubtedly say the same thing. Have a great rest of your trip, enjoy the birthday celebrations.
I hope you guys are peaceful today. You two are on my mind & in my heart! <3
Happy Birthday Maddy! I remembered yesterday, but didn’t have a chance to post. No words of wisdom for you Matt…not that you need any. Thinking of you, Maddy & Liz’s family yesterday, today & everyday.
thinking of you today, so much. Happy B-day Madeline!
The words that you say are so true… Every day is the same – you do what you have to do to make it. Our children are sometimes the only thing that keep us together despite the aweful and bitter hollow feeling of lonliness we work our way through. Anticipation of the “sadiversaries” is worse than when the actual day actually comes. I too am a widow, a widow of almost 2 years and of 4 wonderful children. Many (((hugs))) to you as you move on through your grief.
~Jess Tomlin~
Happy 1st Birthday Maddy! XO LOVE the pics… she’s adorable… gorgeous… wow! Enjoy every minute of every day with Miss Maddy! Time doesn’t change the love you have for someone… I’m glad you are where you need to be during these bittersweet days! Making new memories with M. XO
happy birthday, miss maddy! i just know that her momma is with both of you now, watching over you guys.. as she’s done for the last year. it’s hard to fathom that it’s been a year already. sometimes it’s a blink of an eye.. other times it drags on forever. but it’s been one hell of a year. full of many tears – tears of joy, and of sadness. and there will continue to be tears. but we’re all here for you, in one way or another. to help you cope. to lend an ear, so to speak. and i want to thank you for sharing your story and your life with me. i feel honored, i really do. and i’m looking forward to watching miss maddy grow and explore her world. and change yours. you’re an amazing man, matt.
i asked my own husband what would have happened had he been in the same situation as you, seeing as i had sections with both of our children together, and it could have happened to me too. he told me that he doesn’t think he could have done what you did. that just shows how truly extraordinary you really are. there aren’t many out there like you. and i’m privileged to know you, even if it’s in a small way.
God bless you and your family, and liz’s family too. *hugs and love for everyone*
My thoughts are with you today. I hope that you will be able to make it through this day by looking at your sweet little girl.
you express the confusion so well. thanks
i really am praying for you and your little lady right now. loved the pictures.
Happy first birthday Madeline! And big hugs and prayers for peace for daddy. The pictures are amazing, and she looks so much like her mommy! I hope the blogging and support from strangers has helped you and that you’ll continue it.. i so love reading Maddy’s story and my daughters love seeing her pictures.. my 2 yr old squeals when she sees her and yells “pwetty baby!!”.
With love and caring thoughts and vibes being sent your way on this very day…. May you and Madeline be surrounded with peace.
Matt, Thinking of you today with the hope you find peace in your journey.
My thoughts are with you today. Take joy in your beautiful daughter and loves ones who surround you.
Happy Birthday Maddy! Matt, I have been thinking of both of you and I just want to let you know that you are both in my thoughts. I hope that today – of all days – gives you the peace, love and tranquility you deserve.
My thoughts go out to you today. Even in the hustle and bustle of dentist apointments and parent/teacher conferences, I thought of you and Maddy. I’m glad you are where you need to be. And I’m VERY glad you have that sweet, little blonde with you. Take care, and know that we are all behind you!
the pic of you and madeline sitting beside each other on the stairs kills me
thanks for sharing your lives with us and for continuing to be such an inspiration
My first post comment: Happy Birthday (march 24) to your sweet little girl. I hope you and her were able to find glimmers of happiness on her special day.
My second post comment: (march 25) I am so sorry for you and maddy to have gone one year without Liz. I hope you believe her spirit is with you always and will continue to give to you strength. She was a very lucky lady to have picked you as a husband and father of maddy. Another man may have given up but you have fought through your life for your little girl. What a great man she picked. You will always be the eyes for maddy to see her mommy (through your memories) May god bless your life and precious madelines.
Just a note from a stranger that has been reading your blog over the last year: I just wanted to let you know that you and your beautiful little girl have been in my thoughts today. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through, but I hope that you are able to have some peace being together in such a beautiful place. Take Care!
i so wish i knew what to say…..but words are just words. my heart hurts for you….thank you for sharing your story, your feelings, your honesty, your gift of writing, your life, your love for your wife and daughter. you have helped me personally in ways i don’t fully understand….and so so many others. thank you matt, from the bottom of my heart. thinking of you, maddy, liz, tom, candee, deb, and all of your friends and family. peace.
Thinking of you & your beautiful daughter all the way from Cleveland!
I am so glad you are with your favorite baby and favorite friends today.
Look at you, you have thrived, you have taken the worst thing that can happen to a husband, and turned it around. I agree with your Dad, Liz is clapping and laughing with what you have done to make the worst situation and turn it around to what you have. I am so fucking sorry there is a Liz Logelin foundation. But look at all the good you are doing because of your loss. It truly shows what kind of man you are.
May you have happy memories flooding in today.
And lots of love to your entire family who have lost a mommy, a daughter, a sister, and a daughter in law – and to all her friends.
Matt,
It’s been nearly a year since I started reading your blog, and honestly, I can’t even remember how I started.
I’ve only commented a couple of times, but I check in everyday to see how things are going because I feel like you’re one of my best friends.
I’ve been sitting here trying to find the words to say, but honestly nothing seems to suffice. You are far beyond an inspiration to me and many other every single day. You have made more of a positive impact then most have or will because you have taken the worst situation you have faced in this life and turned it into something that is simply… amazing. You’ve built a garden of awesome, and I feel like a little flower growing in it.. learning from you, Madeline and your lives that when life knocks you down to your knees and you don’t feel like you can take another day… you get up.. and you do it all over again like you did the day before because like you, I have this AMAZING blonde hair, blue eyed little girl that depends on me every single day… and when looking at her… nothing else in the world matters.
Be proud of yourself. Stand up and be proud of everything that you have accomplished this past year. Liz is beyond proud of you and everything that you have done and continue to do. Treasure each moment as you always do. I hope you never stop writing… but always take time for just the two of you.. because in the end… that’s really what matters. <3
Hwy Matt and Maddy! I saw the two of you at the lagoon in Akumel today, but Maddy was crying and seemed to want all of your attention Matt, so I didn’t want to bother you. That girl has a healthy set of lungs
!
I wanted to say thank you for writing this blog Matt. It helped me get through a loss of my own last year, and I have enjoyed watching Maddy blossom. She’s just beautiful. You have done a great job!
Ive never met you, and I probably never will, but you have affected me. The devotion you show Maddy is absoloutely amazing. I know you may not think Maddy is lucky, considering the loss of her mother, but you have single handedly made this little girl one of the most loved children of all time. Through this sight, you have let us all into your world and we have all had the chance to share your sorrow and your joy. Thank you.
Im sure that where ever Lizz is (whether there is an afterlife or not), she must be thrilled to know that you have made sure her baby is so well loved. Any one would be proud of that. Nothing can compair with a mothers love, but youve come about as close as you can get. You could have spent this past year wallowing in self-pitty, pawning your daughter off on others, drowning your sorrow or blaming your misfortune on everyone around you, but youve wielded your pain to create a better world for not only your daughter, but everyone you touch. I hope one day the pain can abait enough for you to be as happy as you should be, but until then, just remember you have a world wide community who will continue to support you in everything; good or bad.
You are an incredible man and Madeline is so blessed to have you as a father. I found your blog through Gina Lee’s photography blog (I am a photog in Indiana). I dont follow your blog everyday, but I wish you and your daughter the best. Keep on keeping on.
I know how “the” anniversary can be, especially the first one. I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this. Life is definitely unfair at times. I thought of you and Maddie often yesterday and today. I hope your pain is not so much as time goes on. As someone once told me “you don’t get over it, you get through it and it never goes away, it just gets easier to live with it.” I am hoping you are finding Mexico all that you needed it to be.
Matt – thinking of you and Maddy and everyone who knew and loved Liz today and every day.
Love, Mrs. Xmas
Hey Matt, longtime reader, first time commenter. I just want you to know that I’ve been thinking of you as this date approached and I am keeping you in my prayers. I hope Madeline’s birthday was as special as she is and that there are lots of smiles, even if they are through tears.
Thinking of you, Matt and Madeline and Liz too. Those birthday pictures are so beautiful. Madeline is such a gorgeous girl and you can see the love spilling off of each picture. The old zoo photos are stunning.
I have to believe that Liz is with you, part of you and the girl Madeline is becoming, not just today but always.
Love to you all,
Happy birthday, Maddy. And Matt, you deserve big hugs, a big high-five, and a stiff drink. . . the first year with a new baby is so hard, and you have done an amazing job under extreme circumstances, all the while handling it with honesty, humor, and the ability to help others.
Beautiful baby Madeline, Happy happy first birthday to the web world’s most followed little one! We all wish you the very best, and your Daddy, too!! We hope you enjoyed your cake and all your hugs and kisses from your loved ones. Best of luck and love, Shannon
Happy Birthday to your beautiful girl. Your photos are gorgeous, and the balloons one remind my of my guy on his first b-day back in 2007: http://andrewandcourtney.com/index.asp?BlogID=141#Comments
Happy (belated) bday Maddy.
Matt,
you are a hell of a dad and man.
Ypu have done a great job w/ maddy in her first year when most people would’ve given up.
Props to you an dyour precious Maddy ( who gets cuter each day! )
Thinking of you and Maddy this week. You are an amazing man, Matt Logelin. My heart is with you~ I found your blog about 10 months ago and am addicted…to your tenacity, your strength, and the love you show for your child in the most impossible of circumstances. Our family gets together and watches the video and pics, and we admire you.
I have been thinking of you, Maddy, Liz and her family all day. Hope you had a peaceful day with your best girl. My heart hurts from your loss. I wish this never happened. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Maddy today and always.
Thinking of you today.
What a gorgeous girl. She looks just like her mommy. Wishing you peace.
Happy Birthday Madeline! Thinking of you both!
Happy birthday to Maddy and many hugs to all.
Happy Birthday Madeline!
Matt- It’s the remembering the day like it was just yesterday, but it feels like forever… feeling.
My thoughts are with you.
Happy Birthday Maddy!! She has the greatest gift she will ever have – an incredible dad who loves her to pieces. That is the gift her mumma gave her!!
Happy Birthday to Maddy!
Thinking about and praying for you and Maddy and Liz today. Your story has touched so many and you are an inspiration to us all.
You’re doing an amazing job being a father to sweet Maddy and it reminds all of us to live for today.
God Bless!
To a large extent, I know exactly what this day is like for you, though I spent mine on a shoreline a bit closer to home. But to some extent, I also have no clue. Each of our journeys is unique. Yours has been made even moreso by the public support you have received and continue to feel every day, especially this one. Your pain is no-less raw today than it was yesterday or will be tomorrow, but hopefully all of this support is at the very least helping to make it a bit more bearable.
I just wanted you to know that I’ve been thinking of you all day today.
Also, wishing beautiful Maddy a very happy 1st birthday!!!
Happy birthday Maddy. My thoughts are with you during these bittersweet times. I hope that you are enjoying the vacation. Know we are thinking of you.
The photos and the video are amazing. What a beautiful gift
Wow. Can’t believe it’s been a year already. I started reading last April and have checked in everyday. With a one year old of my own, I have enjoyed reading about all of the ups (and downs) that you and Maddy have experienced. It’s quite the ride, isn’t it?
My son will often do something that I think is THE cutest thing in the world and the only person that I want to share it with is my husband, because he gets it. He understands how cool and great is it, even if it’s something small like figuring how how to stack something! I want you to know that your posts and pictures make a lot of people understand how special Maddy is and I will continue to enjoy reading about the latest thing that she is doing. I show Maddy’s pictures to my son and his face lights up, he thinks she’s one of his friends! Thank you for sharing.
Love to you both!
Thinking of you and Maddy. You are a strong and amazing person.
Thinking of you and Maddy today – and lotsa days… I know Maddy’s birthday will always be bittersweet. You are to be commended for your poise and grace under fire. I know your Liz would be proud of you and Maddy. Blessings to you and Maddy and your family during these days, and every day…
Thinking of you and Madeline today and everyday. Kim and I found out we’re having a girl of our own and I can’t wait for her to meet her cousin Maddy! Enjoy your time together and hope to see you soon!
Hi..I’m from New Prague, MN and heard your story last year in the Star Tribune. I check in quite often. I have a 16 month old myself. I am always amazed when I look at your blog, at your strength, your honesty and your love for your daughter. You are giving her such a beautiful, wonderful life and she is so blessed to have you. These sweet memories will last her forever. Thanks for sharing your story. Happy Birthday to your sweet, beautiful little girl. You are often in my thoughts and my prayers, especially today. I can only imagine how proud Liz is, looking down upon the life you’ve given your daughter. Keep being the amazing man and father you are.
Those pictures are just so wonderful!!!!
Thinking of you and maddy and liz today!
Hugs and kisses!
Sending lots of love.
Thinking of you and Maddy today. Thanks for sharing your journey with all of us.
Thinking of you and Maddy today Matt. I do not have words, nothing seems right or good enough. To say I am proud of you would seem odd because I don’t know you personally. But, I am proud of you and all you have done in memory of your sweet wife and for your beautiful little girl. I do know from personal experience you are a good man and helpful to strangers. Thanks for who you are, the world is a better place because of it.
Been thinking of you and Madeline a lot today. Glad to hear you are where you need to be. Can’t find the right words to say other than keep up the great work! You are an amazing father and Madeline is lucky to have you!!! Cheers to you, your beautiful Madeline, and of course…Liz!!!
I’m a longtime reader but haven’t commented. I have been thinking of you both as this date approached, and just wanted to say that even though I don’t know if you’re the praying type, I said a prayer for you and Madeleine today. I hope Mexico was where you needed to be today. Happy Birthday Madeleine!
You have been in our thoughts more than ever this week. Just have to share a little story with you. Katie, my 4 year old sat down in my lap today and out of the blue asked “When can I see baby Madeline?” My response was, “I’m not sure.” She then asked, “Well where does she live?” I told her California and with her 4 year old sassy attitude she informed me that we needed to go to CA to visit.
Hope you are enjoying your getaway with your fabulous friends.
Hugs to all of you!!!
happy birthday madeline!
thinking of you all today.
Crap! That’s a lotta comments!!
Happy Birthday Sweet Maddy.
Matt, You have made it through the hardest year for any parent Male OR Female. I know I couldn’t go through that time again – up all night (night after night), nappies, teeth, frustration when they can’t communicate …. (you know what I mean).
You have made it through that on your own.
Shit, Liz would be SO proud of you.
You are showing Maddy how much you adore her everyday.
She is a very lucky little girl.
x
Happy Birthday, Madeline. And lots of hugs for you, Matt. The photos are enchanting.
Happy Birthday Maddy! You and your daddy are in my thoughts today. Hoping it was a beautiful day for a beautiful girl.
Happy Birthday Madeline. You guys are in my thoughts.
Matt, Today and always, she is with you. She will never be forgotten because of what you have done, you have remembered her and honored her in a way that has touched millions of hearts. Mine especially. Peace be with you as you look at Madeline each and every day..Know that Liz is right there inside her. She gave you a gift…a love.
My prayers ascend. Take care.
happy birthday maddy and daddy!!
Thinking of you today Matt. Just wanted you to know. I know how rough it can be.
I hope today was a peaceful day surrounded by your loved ones. Losing someone you love so deeply is something I also went through two years ago in Feb. Time goes so fast… yet so slow.
(((Hugs))) You and Madeline are in my thoughts today.
I thought of you guys today. Showed some co-workers your blog last night, there were some tears and lots of laughs.
Liz would be proud of you, really proud.
Happy 1st Birthday Madeline!
Matt you are an amazing person, I very much admire your strength and courage. I have been following you since Maddy was I think 2-3 weeks old, and I’m very honored that you have so graciously shared your life with me and the rest of the world. It’s funny, I live in Plymouth, MN and my best friend (who is also from MN) now lives just south of L.A. Her and I talk about you and Maddy as if you are someone we’ve known for years. I hope you and Maddy enjoyed her birthday and cherished every moment with your beautiful little girl. I would like you to know, along with all the other strangers/friends you have now gained, that if you are ever looking for someone to just talk to please feel free to email me at aliciasass@comcast.net. I hope one day when you make it back to MN I would get to meet you and Maddy.
Take care Matt, I hope this day wasn’t too hard for you.
Thinking of you, maddy, and liz today.
Happy Birthday Madeline!
Matt,
there’s nothing i can say to make you feel better. i hope you felt some peace in mexico. know that liz live’s on in maddy’s beating heart….
Peace to you, today and always…Take Care.
Happy birthday Madeline! You share it with my brother– you’re going to be a tough little Aries!
Matt, I have no words except “I’m sorry.” Thank you for sharing your world with us. Like the hundreds of others before me, I want to explain to you how I frantically check your blog every day because it gives me hope. It reminds me even when I’m at my most depressed or stressed or whatever that no matter how bad things are, they could be so much worse. How I should value everyone I love, and tell them every day while they are here to hear it. How we should run to love, lean on it, let ourselves depend on it, because in the end it is all we have.
So I don’t know you, and may never meet you, but I can honestly say that you have changed my life. Thank you for doing what you do–you are helping us all in more ways than you know.
I’m sure today has been a roller coaster of emotions for you. I will also be experiencing a painful anniversary as I lost my husband unexpectedly last July at the age of 41. I have 2 beautiful children (boy,7-girl,3) that gives purpose to each day regardless of how I feel. What choice do we have but to move on with each day as these little people depend on us. As long as Madeline knows you love her; that’s all that matters. Take care.
Happy birthday Madeline!! You are such an amazing, beautiful and happy little girl and we love watching you grow up. We wish you all the best!
Matt, you’re doing such an awesome job raising her and Liz would be so proud. Thank you for sharing your lives with us. You have been such an inspiration to us all..
To Matt, Maddy and those who love Liz, no words will ever be right.. just know that there are many who are thinking of you all today.
We will be making a donation to the Foundation in honor of Liz and Madeline.
Happy birthday beautiful girl! My how I’ve enjoyed witnessing you grow over this past year – what a gorgeous girl you are, and such a blessing to this world.
Can’t believe it’s been one whole year already… I stumbled upon your little family in month 2, and its been both heartbreaking and a blessing to watch you both grow and heal together… I’ve cried with you, laughed with you, and for someone who isn’t a practicing catholic – boy have I prayed a lot in your names!
May god and all of his beautiful angels keep on watching over you both, and all of your loved ones. All my best wishes for this tough week…. Take care of each other.
Happy Birthday little angel! Those pictures are beautiful. Know that mommy is up and heaven dancing with the angels celebrating Maddy’s birthday. Thank you Matt for sharing your family with me. Enjoy Mexico Maddy and Matt and have a beautiful birthday celebration!!
I think I remember reading a post where you said that Liz liked Feist…so I thought perhaps Madeline might like to learn to count, Feist-style!
Feist on Sesame Street:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9fciD_II7NI
You are right it does seem like it goes fast. Like you blink your eyes and you realized that much time has past. Then you think to yourself how did I do that, go through that?
The pictures are great! What a gift to have them
http://sprucehill.typepad.com/
Yes, a year. A horriblenogoodverybad year. But also a beautiful year…all I have to do is look at sweet Maddy’s picture at the bottom of this page, and I know what you’re talking about. I know she’s gotten you through it.
Held you, Maddy, and both of your families in my thoughts all day yesterday.
Happy First Birthday Maddy! What a year this has been for you Matt. Madeline is the most beautiful happy little girl and we are so lucky and fortunate to be able to share in her life. She is one special little girl! Enjoy your time in Mexico and we look forward to the updates once you return. Matt, you are such an inspiration to soooo many people.
What a year it has been for you. You have evolved into this amazing, totally awesome Dad with a beautiful happy daughter. You and Madeline have a bond that’s probably stronger than most families. so smile because it’s what she wants.
Happy LATE b-day Maddy!
Matt – hoping that each day-month-year sucks a little less.
Thanks for sharing that beautiful little blond and your journey together with us.
So many thoughts for you this week. You are an incredible person who gives such inspiration. And that daughter of yours is so gorgeous, and lucky to have a dad like you to look up to. Enjoy Mexico!
what an amazing year it has been. you have perservered and been an awesome dad and have a beautiful daughter to share life with. i just know you from reading your blog, and of course i never met liz, but i can imagine that she is smiling at what a wonderful piece of work you two made together, and what a great dad you are.
such a bittersweet milestone. thinking of you in tennessee.
…you are a survivor. and through you we have all grown in one way or another. thank you for sharing your life, and your precious daughter.
i know i’m a little late with this but happy birthday to the little cutie pie!!!! can’t believe she’s a year old already!!! matt, all i can say to you is i think you are doing a fantastic job as a father. i’m so very sorry your beautiful liz isn’t with you to watch maddy grow but i know she’s watching you and she’s bursting at the seams with joy at what a wonderful job you’re doing. enjoy your vacation.
I’m late. Happy birthday sweet Madeline! Thinking you and your dad.
Happy Birthday Baby Girl!!
Thank you for for letting us be a part of your world. You are one loved little lady.
The love you have for Madeline is written all over your face (and in your blog
) My heart swells just looking at those pictures of her,and especially those of the both of you. I can only imagine how your heart swells with love for Madeline. My life is different because of you and what you’ve shared and I share your story with everyone I know, and some that I don’t. You have both been in my thoughts, my son almost shares a birthday with Madeline, he was born on the 23rd of March in 2006. He was so excited when I told him he turned 3, he was literally jumping up and down and doing a little dance. I’m 3, I’m 3, I’m 3, I’m not 2 anymore!
The photos are beautiful. Thinking of you today. Thanks for sharing your lives with us. We wish Maddy the best.
Happy Belated Birthday Maddy! You made it Matt. This has been the worst year of your life, but you came out on the other side and have Madeline’s progress and sunny disposition to show for it. Best wishes.
Happy Birthday Madeline!!
sending you both love and best wishes on these two very important days.
Happy Birthday to Maddy, and big (((hugs))) to you both. Can’t tell you enough how much you sharing your grief, and joy, and everything in between with us has inspired so, so many. Thinking of you at this bittersweet time.
Matt and Maddy, I’ve been thinking of you both all week and just know that you are surrounded by lots of love from people you don’t even know! I’ve been watching that beautiful little girl grow since last March and I’ve loved every post, picture, and video. Thank you for sharing these times with the world. Happy Birthday to that lovely lady.
I can’t believe I have been reading this blog for a year now. Although I was out of town and away from the internet (never happens!) I thought about you both on the 24th, and the 25th and wanted you to know that my thoughts and prayers are always with you. Maddy is beautiful and seems to adore you – she truly is a lucky girl to have a loving committed daddy like you. Liz would be so proud : ) Take Care!
Hey Matt, I know today is probably a real shitty day. Just know that there are a lot of people who are thinking about you and wishing you peace. Thanks for sharing your life and impacting all of us.
so I dunno- you might not wanna post this comment..cause well.. you might not wanna….
but fer you- total off topic stuff here but for some reason- it always cheers me up..
and you deserve a little smile..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8C17yfGyJjM&feature=related
Been thinking of you and Maddy.
Beautiful words.
You are doing a wonderful job with her, and she is growing into a beautiful little girl. I hope your trip was full of peace and love.
happy birthday maddy!! thinking of you on this tough day. what a great father you are, Matt!
Those pictures are AMAZING.
Matt, I don’t know if you’ve already gotten Maddy’s first birthday party planned or if you’re doing anything at all…
I saw these birthday invites on Etsy and thought of you! Go to http://www.paperheartpress.com to see some robot invites! They’d be great for Maddy or for a special Matt/Daddy occasion!
Happy Birthday, Maddy!
Love you, Maddy.
Thank you, Liz, for this beautiful girl, who embodies your spirit and your love for life. We still miss you.
–Robyn (Scripps Classmate, 2000)
There are no words, Matt. Except maybe: fuck. As in, “Fuck. I’m sorry this fucking sucks so fucking much.”
Thinking of you, Liz’s family, Awesome Auntie Deb, Auntie Angels Fan, Auntie Anja, and everyone else who misses Liz so much it hurts.
P.S.
That “fuck” could also be used in this sense: “Fuck yes, I will have another fucking tequila, senor.”
a little late in posting, but thought of you two this week. hugs and happy birthdays! bittersweet! Took awhile to catch up with you two, but i am happy to see how well you are doing. Go MADDY! on crawling! and well everything else. We heart you two!
Thinking of you both during this time…
We all love you and Maddy. Prayers are with you.
Anniversaries are hard, especially the first ones. My mother passed away 10 days after our first daughter was born. Over time I’ve become thankful for the brief time they had.
I prayed for you both and that your anniversaries would also become sweet memories vs. sad reminders.
Your daughter is beautiful as is your relationship with her.
today is like so many other days…just another day in the grand scheme of things. just wanted to drop you a quick note to let you know that so many of us out here in the blogosphere are thinking about you as much today as we were earlier in the week.
enjoy the rest of your vacation!
I kept meaning to write something the last few days but work kept me away from doing so. Boo corporate life! You guys were certainly in my thoughts and I was sending some major positive energy your way. (Is that weird since I’ve never actually met you but really just “know” you through your blog?) Well either way…Still sending prayers your way and I love the new pictures of you two! Gorgeous!
Also, thank you!
Thinking of you, Liz, Madeline, both your friends and family alot this week…
Although I wish I didn’t know you due to this horrible tradegy, I am so thankful to you for being such an inspiration to me and so many people. You have truly taught me to cherish everyday and be the best parent I can be to my 2 daughters (as you are doing with Madeline). Not a day goes by when I don’t think of you three and your families. I wish you a year filled with many more wonderful adventures with Maddy as you continue to remember and cherish your memories with Liz..
Christine D.
Happy birthday little madeline:) Matt words cannot make better what you are going through but have peace in knowing what an awesome father you are, and how trully blessed that little girl is.I cannot imagine growing up having a father like you knowing truly how loved and lucky i am, that sweet girl is so very lucky.You constantly humble me and make me want to hold my children a just a little tighter and you make me live each day more greatful for the blessings i do have, i thankyou for the courage you have shown , for your humor through tears and for making this world a better place. You are an awesome man.
Happy belated Birthday Madeline!!!!!
Hugs, Kisses and Prayers for you and your daddy.
XOXO … Melissa
I might be crazy butI saw this and is a cute way to start the count down for her second bday
http://lilypie.com/second_birthday.php
Hey plus she could win the CUTEST BABY contest..25,000 for tuition
happy birthday, maddy! She is such a beautiful little girl. The photos are amazing. You guys are quite a team. Wishing lots of peace for you at this time. thanks for letting us in on your journey this last year. It has been inspiring and bittersweet.
love and prayers to you both.
Hey Matt, I thought I’d add your grand total to 522+. I know the way we met was not the way it should have happened, but you know what, I’ve grown by knowing you and hearing your thoughts…fuck, shit, and all. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life as much as I am of yours…that shows a true friend, and I admire that
I can’t believe Madeline is already a year old! Happy Birthday, sweet girl! Matt, you and Madeline are always in my prayers.
Robyn
Matt,
each one of these comments represent people who love you, care about you and Maddy, and lives that you, Maddy & Liz have touched. Liz watches over and her love for the two of you is apparent.
Maddy is beautiful, healthy, thriving, loved.
and you know what I see when I look at your face? A man who is happy, more than happy – content. And enthusiastic about life with his daughter. Thank you for sharing Gina’s photos with us. I loved the video. Perfect song.
love and peace to the two of you.
Cheryl in Indiana (Whosyergurl)
I’ve been thinking of you and Maddy.
I can’t believe it’s been a year …
Happy belated birthday Maddy!
Bless you two, this week and always. XXX OOO
How are you? Does it kill you everyday (but especially these last days) to look at your little one… knowing she’ll never know her own mother and seeing so much of her mother in her?
It kills me to think about it for you.
You are strong and incredible. You have accomplished something I could have never done.
Don’t be so quick to pass judgement on the bug. Perhaps it was only looking for some company . . . Talk to it, negotiate the sleeping arrangements – whose side of the bed, the covers, etc. Everything will be just fine. Can’t wait to hear all about your trip. Hope all is well. Kisses to Maddy!! And you too!
Dear Matt:
I am taking a break from the second job, filling in for someone on vacation, and came across your story in an old People mag. I am so sorry for your loss. In 3 weeks it will be 13 years for me. I have no words of wisdom, but I can tell you that pain comes in waves and does lessen with time, but never truly goes away. I had 3 teens and a preteen when my husband of 20 years passed. I didn’t have internet at that time so I kept a diary and that is how I got my deepest thoughts out. My children also kept me focused, espically that youngest boy, what a trial and tribulation! I have not written in my diary for over a year now. Every so often I pull it out and write an update. Take care.
I am sorry you had to experience the one year anniversary of your wife’s death. You both were too young for this to happen.
What a beautiful gift Liz left you in Maddy!
Happy Birthday Maddy!
Matt,
2 Months ago I lost my partner, and during one of my sleepless nights of browsing, I found your webpage. It has been a source of strange comfort for me, to hear some of my own thoughts expressed by someone else.
I want to thank you for sharing all of this, and I wish I could say the magic words I’m searching for to change everything for you, for me, for anyone who’s feeling this kind of pain.
Anyway, just had to say hello.
Have been following you for almost a year now. Cannot believe where the time went as you no doubt understand.
Hoping you are enjoying your getaway in the sun..
HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY Madeline!! How loved you are
You’re right–it’s not like anything really changes once you hit that one-year mark, except that you can’t say that your spouse died less than a year ago. Unfortunately there’s no magical thing that happens once you hit that first anniversary. It’s just a continuation of what you’ve been experiencing for the previous 365 days. But it does get easier…eventually. Hang in there.
this is the first time i have seen your blog, and I just want you know that you, your wife and your beautiful daughter are so inspiring to me. my prayers are with you. know that in the coming days ahead, there will be lots of prayers and loving flying your way through the clouds from the northwest.
i am so thankful for the life you are living, for life you have lived, and the life that lies ahead that includes your wife and your daughter. you are a blessing to the community of the world.
Dearest Matt and Madeliene,
I am from Melbourne, Australia and I happened upon your story last year and have been following all your blogs that have arrived in my email box since then. What a wonderful and sweet father you are and Madeline is just adorable. The birthday photos Gina took are just gorgeous, your little one is so beautiful. I know Liz watches over you and will be so proud of you both.
Hugs
Dear Matt,
Sorry that I spelt Madeline’s name incorrectly xxx Wendy
Matt, I just recently came across your website and think what you’re doing is great. I just lost my husband to cancer almost a year ago, and have luckily been able to find comfort in my family and friends. I wish you and your daughter all the best.d
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