green from top to bottom, except for a little bit of blue in the middle. the colors familiar but blurred by distance. the movements, (reanimated) unseen, avoided. until now. (paused). the smile, the same one i see everyday but not. (still paused). i remember this moment like i was actually there and now, almost 12 [...]

(i wrote the following for a blog called widow’s voice, a blog primarily for widowed people. i thought i’d post it here just because). that’s a question i used to get asked a lot in my previous life, (you know, the one before my wife died) it was either preceded by, or sometimes followed by, [...]